An open letter to my future husband
Hey baby, I may not know you yet but if I do you better get your shit together soon because it’s starting to get really hard. College is getting harder and the boys are getting shittier. I’ve been making out with a lot of boys and I don’t really wanna do that anymore. I’m ready for late nights cuddling with you and your rubbing my back after a long day. I’m ready for us to hold hands, for you to eat dinners with my family and for fun nights at the bar with friends. I’m ready for you to be committed to me and I’m ready for unconditional love. I have no doubt that we will fight and argue and I’m not trying to romanticize anything but I’m ready for you to be my best friend and my partner in crime. I’m excited to make love and not just have sex, I’m ready for passionate nights and for nose kisses. I’m ready to have nights where we argue about stuff but when we go to bed we kiss goodnight. I’m ready to know that everything will be okay in the morning.
I’m not going to lie I’m not very proud of who I am becoming right now. I’m sick of parties, I’m sick of boys who aren’t ready for commitment, I’m sick of crying because of texts and phone calls, I’m sick of kissing stupid, random boys who mean nothing to me. And I’m sick of kissing that one boy who means so much to me right now. He’s breaking my heart but I know it’ll be alright and that I have to wait it out for you because you are the one who is going to matter in the long run. I’m sad that I couldn’t have met you sooner, that I’m spending time on people who aren’t you, but I think it’s for the best. I want to be the best Vica I can be before I meet you. I want to be confident and beautiful and I need sometime to figure all this stuff out.
Let me end this and say that I will be committed to you for my whole life. I promise to love you unconditionally and with everything I have. I promise that our children will be wonderful and loved and that we will be amazing parents. I promise that no matter what, no matter what kind of fights we get into, the mistakes we make, we can overcome them. I will be faithful, I will be loving, I will be kind, and I will be strong.
Waiting for you and for us is hard, but from now on I’m going to take the steps to make me whole and beautiful so you will have the best of Vica in your life. I can’t wait to be with you and I can’t wait to love you.