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Greetings, programs

@zmyaro / zmyaro.tumblr.com

Who am I? Well, I am the sort of human who would write a Portal theme for xer blog, give it a Tron-inspired title, and be a Women's-March-hat-wearing Buddy Christ cosplay in xer profile picture. Take that as you will. (My views ≠ employers' · Follow ≠ endorsement · xe/xem or e/em)
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Something that I think should be an important part of solarpunk aesthetics is screws.

Look at your smartphone. No screws. You've got to have specialized tools to get inside your phone to repair something. There are certain pieces of tech that are glued in place and glue can't be undone without permanently breaking the bond.

But screws!

You can take apart a broken old radio, repair what's broken, and, if you were careful in taking it apart, you can put it back together and have a fully functioning radio and all you need is a common screwdriver!

It's hard to build screws and other mechanical fasteners because it requires more planning than clamps and glues, but isn't that what solarpunk is all about‽ It's about care and sustainability and and a radio or a computer built carefully with repair in mind is a sustainable computer that stays out of landfills and in use.

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Screws are proof that God loves us and wants us to fix shit

Screws are proof that god loves us and wants us to fix shit

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Awesome!

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HUH. THEY’RE RIGHT…

[ID: First image is a screenshot of a YouTube comment by @/DreamEnd from four years ago. It reads: ““memento mori if the nineth lion ate the sun” is an anagram for “thin timeline son ur the meme of the nation”“

Second is a GIF showing a visual representation of the anagram. It starts by saying “memento mori if the nineth lion ate the sun” then the letters shuffle around to say “thin timeline son ur the meme of the nation”. End ID.]

I wonder how many gay people are actually transgender & dont know it because people thing being transgender is transitioning when it’s literally just not being cis.

like I had a friend tell me last night “all my life I wanted to be a girl. even to this day, like if someone told me I could transition & look like you or *insert another trans woman idk* I would do it in a heartbeat” and when I was like omg ur transgender he was surprised? like he was like wait just wanting to be a girl makes me transgender even if I dont do anything about it? and like its harder to pinpoint non binary people but if u have a desire be a different gender ur transgender. transitioning is a choice but being transgender is not.

“One of the symptoms of being a girl is wanting to be a girl.” Don’t remember where I heard that but the quote is my life.

This is one of the posts I can explicitly pinpoint as helping me realize that I might not be cis. The biggest symptom of being trans is wanting to not be your gender. It can also be dysphoria, it can also be euphoria, it can also be presentation, but wanting to be something else is all you really need.

Confirmed. How to know you’re agender: You don’t want to be anything else. You look at the options for gender and gender presentation and decide to go back to bed

Bold of you to assume I got out of bed

Nah but seriously thanks for the insight

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So, if I look at gender and say “this is some bullshit and I want no part of it”, I guess that makes me agender?

if that’s how you wanna identify, yeah.

feeling anything mentioned in this post doesn’t mean you have to identify as trans, but feeling anything in this post is literally all that’s necessary to identify as trans if you want to.

fuck gatekeepers forever.

👏if👏you👏don't👏feel👏cis👏you're👏possibly👏not👏cis👏

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i mean this is literally what jvn said

This is one of those things where you can go 25+ years of your life not realising that actually no not everyone secretly wishes they were some mashup of male and female and that you are, in fact, genderfluid as fuck.

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You can want to be the other gender.

You can want to be another gender.

You can want to divorce all connection to the gender you were born into.

You can want to keep it as an origin point that shapes your journey.

You can want to be more than one gender at once.

You can want to be more than one gender, at different times.

You can want to be no gender.

You can want to be sort of in between genders.

You can want to be both genders.

You can want to be rid of gendered body parts you already have.

You can want to keep gendered body parts while also being another gender.

You can want to be rid of them but not want the side effects of excising them.

You can feel dysphoria at being shaped like/viewed as/treated like a gender you don’t want.

You can feel euphoria at being shaped like/viewed as/treated like a gender you do want.

You can change your mind or adjust your goals or refine your wishes.

You can be stationary and fixed in your identity.

You can be fluid and changing.

You can be extremely gendered in your presentation.

You can be not very gendered in your presentation.

You can be androgynous.

You can be a little of both.

You can be a lot of both.

If gender is a line you can cross, as the words trans (across/on the other side of) and cis (here/on the same side of) indicate, you can cross it in any way you like, including dancing on top of it.

Be happy.

Be you.

Very Silly Concept: a show called "Accessibility Nightmares" but it's structured exactly like Kitchen Nightmares. An accessibility specialist goes to different establishments and helps them make their businesses more accessible.

The accessibility specialist asks why the door at the top of the small set of stairs has a wheelchair symbol on it. The owner replies that's the accessible bathroom. The camera zooms in on the specialist as they process this information.

A customer with a service dog comes in to a restaurant. The hostess tells them they don't allow dogs. The accessibly specialist looks over at the hostess like

And there are web accessibility episodes too. The accessibility specialist stares at the white text on the light pink background of the home page like

The specialist asks why not a single product picture has alt text, and the business owner says "Well I mean, it's makeup, why would a blind person be shopping for makeup?" The specialist just

The specialist asks the web designer how a screen reader user is supposed to complete the captcha portion of the password reset process when there is no audio alternative. The designer admits they don't know.

The biggest—and possibly deal-breaking—design flaw in Pokémon Sleep is it is intended to be used right before going to sleep, but has a bright blue color scheme with fully white loading screens.

I can put up with how slow it is compared to my old sleep tracker for the fun interactive features, but I am not sure how much longer I can put up with being blinded every time right before I go to sleep.

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It’s PRIDE MONTH and wanting to start with this little remembrance from queer people in the past.

From the book: Baby, You Are My Religion by Marie Cartier

I found her obituary. It looks like after her divorce, Myrna got to live openly and happily as who she was & her heirs asked for donations to Lamda Legal when she died at 86 about a decade ago.

Current album obsession: The Book of Broken Glass By Sarah and the safeword

Something totally new and weird that I'm gonna try to do when i have feelings about albums I'm gonna break them down track by track and talk about them

Sarah and the Safe Word is a dark cabaret band from Atlanta Georgia fronted by Sarah Rose. they are currently my favorite band and I wanted to break down this album and talk about it so if what I have to say about it seems interesting please give The Book of Broken Glass a listen

Track one: A Wake, Violet Makes Her Wish The opener to our album setting the mood with a simple poem "Several years of sorrow without breathing Mourn the dead Lamps are out of midnight oil Lost lovers and lost friends Now, the jury's hung No kingdom come Sold bones to pay the rent Let us gather 'round the fire once more and sing Sing while light is left" Its simple and sets the mood as our main character violet attends a funeral and starts our story

Track two: Ruby Off The Rails Track two introduces us to Ruby Violets mother and and delves into a ritual used to summon Something that isn't fully explained delving into the occult and gothic themes of the album

Track Three: Old Lace Old lace leans heavy into the dark cabaret sound that the band has established in previous albums the song deals with feelings of ego death and the loss of identity.

Track Four: A Little Evil Never Hurt Anyone The Sluttiest song on this album its dancy its fun and its all about doing things you know you shouldn't. its meaning is in the title and the chorus "Just do it in anger Just do it for fun A little evil never hurt anyone"

Track Five: No One’s Home My interpretation of this song is that it delves into Sarah finding out more information about her father learning that he wasn't what he seems that he's something not human and so is she.

Track Six: But Tonight! We Dance! Ft. Dog Park Dissidents This song is fantastic and Dancy and features queer punk duo Dog Park Dissidents its also in my interpretation of the album when Violet starts to die

Track Seven: Too Dressed Up To Die THE STRINGS IN THIS SONG!! the violin work in the song is by far the best part its really all i can gush about as far as the story of the album goes violet is absolutely dying here

Track Eight: Soldiers Of Rock N’ Roll Ft. Chumbawamba No really it features Chumbawamba and it fucks it is an amazing song and starts pushing into a heavier sound before the next song does a full Genre switch. Story wise something is absolutely saving Violet here

Track Nine: All The Rage Ft. Jamee Cornelia Here we have a genre switch to a Nu Metal song and that's not me being discouraging its amazingly done you don't notice that's what happened till the rap breakdown hits but then it hits and its mind blowing

Track Ten: Broken Crowns, Forgotten Pageants Sarah Rose Flexes everything her voice can do here. this song really Transends influence in my mind it is Sarah rose and nothing else and it is beautiful.

Track Eleven: Sky On Fire Another beautiful song with fantastic work from the violins The line in this song that really stands out to me in relation to the story of the album is "But if I ever had a father Then I know his name was John" her grappling with her memory's of her father and finding out what he really was

Track Twelve: A Sleep: The Owl Makes His Offer We opened with a wake and close with a sleep this is the best song on the album bar none but for it to hit properly you have to listen to the rest of the album all i can say about it is that its possibly the best song I've ever heard and it ends with the same poem that we opened this album with.

Track Thirteen: X So this song requires some context Sarah Rose is a transgender woman and this song is Violet regretting never coming out to her father as trans and her transitioning "And all that I want is your chance to see tomorrow In a skin that I can live in Or a life that wasn't borrowed" the song is a beautiful way to end the album and that's the album give it a listen and feel free to rb with your thoughts and opinions

Some people from car-centric parts of the U.S. don't seem to understand: I don't bike places for the purpose of “staying in shape”; I “stay in shape” for the purpose of being able to bike places instead of driving!

TW for a picture of a pretty gnarly almost-certainly-infected nipple graft.

I came across a handful of similar blog posts about taking care of someone post-surgery, but this one was by far the most informative. Most of them were, no offense, largely complaining about how difficult the day of surgery was for them (and, no offense, often due to their own lack of understanding and preparation for surgery day. That sort of thing is what this neuroticism is all about, making sure I am not stuck in a bad situation based on things I could have avoided had I thought clearly for 7 minutes at SOME point).

This one got me seriously thinking about getting a hotel room close to the surgical site, even though we don't live extremely far away. But the drive they are describing is nearly identical to the drive we would be experiencing and they did not have a great time.

This blog post also links to a resource for JP Drain care, which is always useful.

oh hey you know what look up tips for what people do after open heart surgery; one of the weirdest things to try to figure out when large bastard had his bypass was how to get him home when the only vehicles we owned were trucks that he had to step up into or didn't have a back seat. We ended up having to call his uncle because he had a low-but-not-so-low-it-would-be-hard-to-get-out-of car with a middle seat in the back that had only a lap belt. You may or may not want to get a hotel (depending on what time you're released after surgery it might be good to get a hotel and rest until a time of day with minimal traffic? but i know a lot of people just want to be home in their own bed and unconscious as soon as possible after surgery), but if you don't have a car that someone can get into without bending or lifting themselves up into the seat then you are for sure going to want to rent a car. A minivan might be a good option.

humanity

today i was playing minecraft with friends on a server we have, flying around with my elytra.

i don't know why, but i suddenly just. stopped. and perched myself on the cliff my base is located on, and i just. watched the sunset.

i felt something as i heard my music playlist start mice on venus.

ive been burnt out a lot as of late, i felt burnt out by college, i feel burnt out writing my video scripts

but in that moment i felt a sense of tranquility, a sense of progression in life. a reminder i was no longer a child, yet minecraft was there to comfort me all the same.

i was planning to sleep after drawing the sunset, but i came back onto the server, i wanted to see the sunset one more time, so i sat there and waited, and while i did, i had a conversation with one of my friends

we exist here to love and create art.