anyway. onto better things
Whenever someone asks me how I'm feeling, how old I am or what I like to do in my free time, I feel like an alien who took over some random human's body and now has to prove that they are, in fact, that human.
i love how whenever something gets popular the underground tormented avant garde bloggers start becoming self conscious of liking it/finding it funny, and it eventually evolves into aggression towards it. doesnt matter what it is. unrelated but i saw someone call isopods cringe today
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truly my LEAST favorite form of advertisement these days is the faux-tiktoker/influencer who is here to Sell Me Something. the “omg unbox my Pureology (TM) skincare haul!!!” “doing the #NespressoChallenge!!!” “you guys will not BELIEVE what i got from shein-“ like its scary. its WEIRD. not only do i have no idea who these perfectly manicured, babytalking people are they feel less like real people than even an actual advertiser does. stop trying to make me believe you are my friend. you are something inhuman to me. you are a changeling. you are a brand wearing ill fitting human skin and i see its skeletal shape shift beneath the surface.
"who inspires you?" the version of myself that's in my head and in my dreams. I want to be her, feel her, light up the room like her. I want to be as confident, as daring, and as cool as her. I want to love like her, live like her, dress like her, and to get the guy like her. I want her friends, her lover, her job. I want her to be more than just a dream.
normal vs disordered: maladaptive daydreaming
normal: drifting off into a fantasy when travelling (as a passenger in a car, or bus, etc)
not normal: looking forward to quiet times in your day just so that you have a chance to daydream in peace
normal: taking a couple seconds to pull away from a daydream when someone calls for your attention
not normal: being so sucked into your daydream that it becomes hard for anyone to communicate with you
normal: having a good imagination
not normal: having such a vivid imagination that your imagination starts to mix with reality
normal: daydreaming to cope with boredom
not normal: daydreaming to cope with anything and everything. using daydreaming as a form of escapism
normal: only daydreaming when you have the time
not normal: your daydreaming interferes with your ability to complete daily tasks
everyone likes a nice daydream every now and then, but with maladaptive daydreaming, the daydream becomes the key coping mechanism. this means that it ends up interfering with your life, as you start to use it to cope with any uncomfortable situation. there are other coping mechanisms out there though, and you can learn how to daydream without it impacting your ability to live life!
