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Writing into Thin Air

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Julian wakes with an undigifed snort and a dribble of – drool?  Yes, drool – smeared on his cheek.  He lifts his head, wincing at the crick in his neck.  He blinks at the bed.  The empty bed.

“Garak,” he mutters, angrily pushing himself to his feet.  A quick scan is enough to show the runabout is empty.  Julian vows to track down Garak’s scaly ass, make sure he is all right, and then murder him.  Unless whoever was after Garak already found him and dragged him off and now the tunnel is going to fill with poisonous gas.

Julian shakes his head.  He really needs to stop watching holo-novels.

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Awww. thanks for the kind words @the-last-dillpickle!   I’ve actually never been satisfied with the last chapter and have been toying with the idea of revising it ... mostly the ending ... we’ll see!

I routinely forget that canonically Mila was just Tain’s housekeeper (and as much as I appreciate ASIT, I don’t consider it canon). Maybe it’s just the stories I read, but can’t remember ever reading a fanfic that included Mila in which she wasn’t Garak’s mom.

Not that this should stop anyone, but if I read a fanfic now where she was just the housekeeper, I’d think “oooh edgy 🙄.” Still, there’s some curveball story potential here, I just can’t think what it is.

@the-last-dillpickle​ Half-Bajoran Garak? I’m intrigued, would be possibly have the link or other information to find this?

I do! It was ‘Sins of the Father’ by our beloved @zaan-zaan !

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Lol - this post showed up in my inbox because @the-last-dillpickle mentioned me and as I was reading through I thought:  Huh, a Half-Bajoran Garak?  I’d like to read that ... only to then discover that I wrote it and had forgotten all about it.    So now someone else has to write something on Half-Bajoran Garak so I can read it :)

It was late in the afternoon of a long day that Thor and Loki were at last able to snatch a moment of much-needed and much-longed for rest.   Odin had been running them ragged in the weeks since their return from Kotheim.  There was training – their normal training and Loki’s training with Brunhilde that Thor always managed to join – and their duties and Thor’s lessons (which Loki always managed to join) and meetings upon meetings with councils and committees.  They had just dragged themselves away from a two hour council meeting and escaped to their wing.  They made for Loki’s rooms for the simple reason they were fifty yards closer.

Loki had thought he would be angry, and perhaps he was.  Mostly, though, he was tired.   Perhaps apathy was not a solid foundation on which to build, but as the long summer days went by and he swam in the lake with Thor and read in the sunshine and played taft with his father in the evening and saw pride in his curled lip when Loki on – he found that it was.

The summer passed, slow and yet too fast, and as the day of their departure drew nearer, more and more discussions were devoted to matters of state.  Their father had plans to make up for deficiencies in more than affection.

“Have you met Brunhilde yet?” he said to Loki at breakfast.  “We’ll arrange it when we get back. She’s agreed to train you in swordcraft, Loki.  She –“

“What?” Loki exclaimed, as his mind caught up to his father’s intent, his embarrassment evident in his flushed face.

It was a short ride to Kotheim, easily covered in half a day, but the sun was still shy of the mountains when they mounted their horses, grousing and grumbling.  Their early start was a practical one.   Although Odin and his sons alike loathed the chirpy bustle of morning and wallowed in their beds as late as they could, they attempted to slip away before another dubiously urgent missive or forgotten and unsigned document could be hurried out to the king with the promise that it would “take just a moment”.   Despite their heroically early start, they were stopped twice by panting, bleary-eyed pages before they finally escaped the palace grounds.

Julian wakes with an undigifed snort and a dribble of – drool?  Yes, drool – smeared on his cheek.  He lifts his head, wincing at the crick in his neck.  He blinks at the bed.  The empty bed.

“Garak,” he mutters, angrily pushing himself to his feet.  A quick scan is enough to show the runabout is empty.  Julian vows to track down Garak’s scaly ass, make sure he is all right, and then murder him.  Unless whoever was after Garak already found him and dragged him off and now the tunnel is going to fill with poisonous gas.

Julian shakes his head.  He really needs to stop watching holo-novels.

Loki had often said to Thor that the only way to arrive at Order was to go through Chaos.  Thor, who had no difficulty keeping his rooms and his thoughts in order, disagreed.  One did not have to reduce one’s room to rubble in order to clean it, Thor explained.  He even had some shelves and chests with custom compartments built for Loki.  The system failed within hours, and within days Loki’s room had reverted to its natural state.  ‘I cannot think with all this sterility,’ Loki had said.  Thor had shaken his head with a bemused resignation.   Order may not need Chaos, but Loki did.

That at least had not changed.  Thor – barging into Loki’s room – stopped short in the doorway, stymied by the mess.

“Loki!  We leave in an hour.  Have you not packed anything?”

Loki narrowed his eyes.  Odin stared back blandly.   “There are things I wish to discuss with you, and there are perhaps things you wish to discuss with me, but I fear we shall gain no understanding without trust.”

“And you do not trust me.”

“As you do not trust me.”

“Is it not an impasse?”

“Perhaps.  I have a proposal for you, Loki.”

“A proposal.  And if I refuse?”

“There will be no consequences.”

“There are always consequences.”

From a distance, on the monitors, there’s nothing remarkable about the coordinates, except how unremarkable they are.  A smallish Class M planetoid, but not one large enough to support anything larger than some scrub plants.  Nor one with any metals worth mining.  It even lacks tactical advantage, being too far from the main navigation routes and too far from any significant border.

As instructed, Julian does a number of thorough scans of the surrounding area and the planetoid itself as soon as he’s in long range of it.  To his relief, he finds nothing, which means there’s nothing left to do but land.  He still thinks it would be easier to stay in orbit and beam down, but Garak in his message strictly forbade it.  He shouldn’t be surprised.  Nothing about Garak is easy.

The great window faced west and overlooked the training yards.  From daybreak to dusk all of Asgard’s glory was on display.  Much of Odin’s life had been spent looking down from that window.  When he was small he stood on tiptoe, straining for a glimpse of his older brothers.  When he was older, and in training himself, he stood facing his father’s massive oak desk, sneaking furtive glances out the window while trying to attend to yet another of his father’s lectures.   And when he was king, and turmoil haunted the Nine, he stood and watched the tide of men and too young boys march out to the wars.

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It was commonplace on the morning after a feast (if a little later than usual) for the warriors to gather at the training grounds.  It helped to work off their sluggishness and to show their machismo – how they could train despite the massive headaches they complained of having and the massive barrels of booze they boasted of consuming.

Thor was there, and the Warriors Four.  Loki was also present.  He had been too slow waking to escape to the library when Thor came pounding on his door and then too wrung out to stab him properly when Thor started dragging him down.  He’d been deposited on the bench and sat huddled there with a book, hissing at anyone who tried to get him to move.   Thor went about grinning, well pleased with himself.

Hours into the feast, drink was flowing freely, words were starting to slur, and tales were growing wild.  Loki sat, half-listening.  Beside him – Sif, the traitor, had left to partake in an arm-wrestling challenge -  Thor was laughing along as Fandral floundered through a mead-addled memory.  His brother himself, though, was not as drunk as was once his wont.   It unsettled Loki, this stranger that was no stranger.  He made up his mind to leave, but as he pushed back his chair, a messenger, with the quick stride that signaled important news, approached the high table, slapping a fist to her chest.

Both Thor and Loki tensed; news was rarely good any more.  She spoke only a few words, pitched so that only the high table could hear.  A moment later, she bowed and stepped aside.  Tyr and Odin rose.   Tyr stalked out with his rolling gait.  Odin thumped Gungir on the ground and a thrum of power rolled down the aisles, clearing away the din and drunkenness.

“Honoured guests – “ Odin’s voice, when projected, was like an echo in high mountains, “The duties of Asgard call, and we must leave you.  But I bid you remain and fill our absence with your revel.”

He swept out of the room.  On his way, his gaze found Thor and Loki and he gave them a slight nod.  Loki knew it for what it was: a summons.  This much at least was familiar and unchanged.  He and Thor exchanged a look and in it Loki felt the echo of memories, of a time when speech had been unnecessary between them.  They took their leave with few words and less ceremony, their friends long familiar with the calls of duty, and made their way to Odin’s study.

"Can you not use a spoon and spare us the flavour of your fingers, Volstagg?" Loki protested, shuddering  as Volstagg licked mashed potatoes from his fingers.

Volstagg grinned as he chewed open-mouthed.  "That is what you get if you dine in the troughs with the pigs, my prince."

"Speak for yourself, your swineness," said Fandral, swiping at his mustache with a napkin.  "Some of us put our neighbours’ sensibilities before our stomachs’!"

"Some of us," retorted Volstagg, waving a dripping turkey leg at him, "Were raised nearer the stables than the palace, with hungry siblings at our backs instead of servants.”

It was almost a month before Loki ventured outside of the palace.  At first, Eir forbade him, and then once he was well, his de facto status as a prisoner limited him, and at last when he was reinstated as a prince of the realm, it was his courage that failed him.  He did not want to face others, afraid of what he would find.  Eventually, however, he was enticed out by the lure of a warm spring afternoon and the need to escape Thor, who had been persistently mulish and increasingly determined to haul him out of his hiding spots to spend time together and then would sit there awkwardly, not saying a word, which was odd and un-Thor like and beyond his ability to cope with. 

Thor, grunting with the effort, hacked at the training dummy with his sword.  The sweat flung from him.  The dummy cracked and listed to the side and, with one final blow, crumpled.

Breathing hard, Thor wiped the sweat from his eyes and thrust his sword at one of the yard boys who, with one look at his glowering face, scurried away to clean it.  Thor grabbed a towel and dropped onto one of the benches.

The healers were cleaning up at the end of the day: washing the bowls, topping up the bottles, scrubbing the counters, and folding the linen.   Hilga let out a wistful sigh.  "Did you see the bow he gave her on the way out?"

The 'he' was Fandral, who had been discovered and shooed out by Eir.

"I did," said Hanne, "And the smile that went with it."

"It wasn't his smile I was looking at," said Ina with a wink.