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Do you love detective stories but hate cops?

Do you love gay detective stories and hate capitalism?

Like disabled main characters who's disability actually comes up?

Like characters of color but not in the mood for stories on racism?

Tempted by the thought of romance at ages of 30+?

Does the idea of stories so queer you'll hesitate before calling any character a "man" or a "woman" make you think "Ah, yes pronoun shenanigans, just like my discord used to make"

And you into an abundance of strong, diverse female and nonbinary characters?

Do you fight for women's wrongs?

I know rep-only recommendations can be annoying, but I'm trying to grab your attention to promote some Indie media. Luckily, though, this post isn't rep-only!

To read my full reccomendation and review of Three of Hearts, click below. ♦️♥️♣️♠️

And if you aren't in the mood for a new thing right now, consider reblogging! Maybe even ping a friend who might be into this! You love supporting queer indie creators!

i want all my friends and followers and mutuals and acquaintances to know from the bottom of my heart: i don’t respond to your messages because i’m an insane person, i am insane medieval hermit software running inappropriately on modern queer hardware and social media scares me. it is not your fault

when i get a notifications on my phone i try to kill my phone with a rock

TOP 10 PODCASTS ON AO3 BASED ON NUMBER OF FANWORKS (2013-2022)

  • To make this bar chart race, all series titles in the Other Media Category on November 6 (or the closest date to it if unavailable) of every year were copy-pasted from Wayback Machine to Google Sheets, rearranged according to number of fanworks, and manually filtered since not all podcasts were marked as such. Then I inputted all the top 10 data to Flourish to turn into a bar chart race.
  • Some web series like Critical Role and Dimensions 20 released audio-only versions of their works too, but I left them out since they were listed was a web series on ao3 and more known as one too. 
  • Similarly, radio shows which only had podcasts years after they started are not included. That means Cabin Pressure, which I accidentally added in the 2022 Top 20 ranking last week, is not included here because it was only rereleased as a podcast in 2019, and 90% of the fanworks it has now are from before 2019.
  • All nonfiction podcasts have also been excluded (Not that there were many), because with RPFs, it’s hard to tell if the fic in question is just based on the podcast or because of the things the person has done outside of it. 
  • The bar race starts on 2013 because there were no podcasts in the Other Media category before that year.
  • The first podcast fandom to post on Ao3 was We’re Alive on January 1, 2013, followed by The Thrilling Adventure Hour on January 27, 2013, and then Welcome to Night Vale at June 2013.
  • In 2014-2016, Sparks Nevada Marshal on Mars, a segment from The Thrilling Adventure Hour, was also in the top 10, but I didn’t included it since it’s not its own podcast.
  • Thanks for understanding and hopefully I didn’t miss anything! Apologies for any mistakes, I’m still a podcast noob.🙏

WEBSITES FOR WRITERS {masterpost}

  1. E.A. Deverell - FREE worksheets (characters, world building, narrator, etc.) and paid courses;
  2. Hiveword - Helps to research any topic to write about (has other resources, too);
  3. BetaBooks - Share your draft with your beta reader (can be more than one), and see where they stopped reading, their comments, etc.;
  4. Charlotte Dillon - Research links;
  5. Writing realistic injuries - The title is pretty self-explanatory: while writing about an injury, take a look at this useful website;
  6. One Stop for Writers - You guys... this website has literally everything we need: a) Description thesaurus collection, b) Character builder, c) Story maps, d) Scene maps & timelines, e) World building surveys, f) Worksheets, f) Tutorials, and much more! Although it has a paid plan ($90/year | $50/6 months | $9/month), you can still get a 2-week FREE trial;
  7. One Stop for Writers Roadmap - It has many tips for you, divided into three different topics: a) How to plan a story, b) How to write a story, c) How to revise a story. The best thing about this? It's FREE!
  8. Story Structure Database - The Story Structure Database is an archive of books and movies, recording all their major plot points;
  9. National Centre for Writing - FREE worksheets and writing courses. Has also paid courses;
  10. Penguin Random House - Has some writing contests and great opportunities;
  11. Crime Reads - Get inspired before writing a crime scene;
  12. The Creative Academy for Writers - "Writers helping writers along every step of the path to publication." It's FREE and has ZOOM writing rooms;
  13. Reedsy - "A trusted place to learn how to successfully publish your book" It has many tips, and tools (generators), contests, prompts lists, etc. FREE;
  14. QueryTracker - Find agents for your books (personally, I've never used this before, but I thought I should feature it here);
  15. Pacemaker - Track your goals (example: Write 50K words - then, everytime you write, you track the number of the words, and it will make a graphic for you with your progress). It's FREE but has a paid plan;
  16. Save the Cat! - The blog of the most known storytelling method. You can find posts, sheets, a software (student discount - 70%), and other things;

I hope this is helpful for you!

(Also, check my gumroad store if you want to!)

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Hi hello, I saw read through your fic, it's absolutely lovely, the Jim hurt/comfort is so good!!! I think a fic centering around Jim trying to take care of/do acts of service for Olu/the rest of the crew in turn and maybe their potential self-esteem issues surrounding that? They weren't exactly raised to have gentle hands. Thanks for your lovely writing :)

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Hello!! Oh gosh, thank you so much!! I'm glad you're enjoying it so far <3

I love this idea. I've been meaning to do a hurt Olu fic for the series, so this fits perfectly - and the idea has morphed into a bit of a "everyone gets sick and Jim caretakes despite their belief that they aren't good at it", which will be fun (and hopefully will fit the care-taking aspect for you!)

I've been holding off on responding to this until I had a bit of a snippet/solid idea for a ficlet - it's very far from being finished, but here's a little snippet from the fic!

Jim slid closer, pressing their side against the edge of the bed. Oluwande’s hand lay limp on the covers, skin too warm when Jim curled their fingers around it. He didn’t respond, didn’t move.
“Please wake up,” they whispered, trying to swallow the lump in their throat. They picked up his hand, clasped it between both of theirs. Pressed their lips to his knuckles, a silent benediction. “Please, Olu.”
The only response was the deep rasp of his breathing. Jim’s eyes burned. They squeezed them shut, pressed their forehead to Oluwande’s limp hand. It didn’t stop the slow trickle of tears down their cheek.
“Please,” they whispered, as lost a cause as their prayers always were, “I don’t think I can do this alone.”

Thanks so much for the prompt!! When the fic is posted on ao3 I'll tag you on the tumblr post for the chapter :)

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!!! this is WONDERFUL, can't wait to see read the full version!! thank you!

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image 1: a black and white drawing of a person sitting in a wheelchair in front of a door. there are two steps, a few shoes have been put on the floor. the person is wearing socks, and is leaning forwards. above the drawing, it says “did you know...” and below it “... some of us couldn’t even enter our own houses?” image 2: a black and white drawing of a crowd of people clamouring to get into a train. at the back of the crowd, and emphasised with some lines, is a person in a wheelchair, seemingly sitting still. above the drawing, it says “please be mindful...” and below it “... of those who can’t ‘push’ their way around!”

image 3: a black and white drawing of a person in a hijab and glasses leaning down over a reception counter to talk to a person in a wheelchair. the person in the wheelchair is pointing upwards with their right hand and straining to make themselves taller. the reception desk has a plaque on it that is blocked by the person in the wheelchair. it reads “kaunte [illegible]ertany”. above the drawing, it says “simple things like...” and below it “...reception desk height actually matters a lot!”

image 3: a black and white drawing of a person in a wheelchair in a toilet. there is a little pictogram of a wheelchair user fixed to the door, and the person, wearing a pushed back basecap, is looking at the viewer. the door is leaning against the wheels of the wheelchair and the person is already as close as possible to the toilet seat. it reads “it is as if...” above the drawing and below it “... some doors aren’t meant to be closed!”

image 4: a black and white drawing of a wheelchair user racing down a ramp. they are holding onto the handrails of their wheelchair and have pressed themselves against its backrest, leaning back. there are several lines to indicate speed. it reads “did you know...” above the drawing and below it “... that many wheelchair ramps are steeper than recommended?”

image 5: a black and white drawing of a person in a wheelchair. they are wearing a headcovering, glasses and plaid trousers. they are curently putting covers on the wheels of their wheelchair, looking down at what they are doing. their feet are bare and the door they are currently in front of has a pointed arch, indicating that they are about to enter a temple. it reads “wheelchairs go everywhere...” above the drawing and below it “... but we can provide wheelchair covers for special places.”

image 6: a black and white drawing of a parking lot. on the far left, a car has parked, same on the far right. in between them, there is a sign indicating that this spot is for the disabled. a motorcycle is parked in front of the sign. a person in a wheelchair has exited the car on the far right while a person on crutches is looking angrily at the motorcycle that is blocking the back door of the car. above the drawing, it reads “there’s a reason why...” and below it “... certain space is alloted at disabled parking lots. and no, it’s not for your bike!”

image 7: a black and white drawing of an automatic door labelled “exit”. two people are currently waiting in front of it: a child waving their arms, and a wheelchair user, who is sitting in their wheelchair without moving. their posture is slumped. the child is wearing a dress, their hair is about shoulder length. above the drawing, it reads “notice that sometimes...” and below it “... automatic door sensors are a bit ‘short’?”

image 8: a black and white drawing of a bus stop. the bus stop is elevated, but there is no ramp to access it. a bus has stopped, and the ramp at the front door has been let out. in front of the step that is almost as big as the person is tall, there is a wheelchair user, rubbing their neck and staring at the height difference between the bus stop and the sidewalk or the street. above the drawing, it reads “are you aware that...” and below it “... despite the upgraded buses, the bus stops need upgrading too?”

image 9: a black and white drawing of a person in a wheelchair using an atm. their hand is on the number pad and they are leaning forwards. their hair is short. above the drawing, it reads “in case you’re wondering...” and below it “...why the new atm machine designs are lower and slightly uncomfortable to use while standing up...”

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some additional things!

most sideways hang. significantly. when i first started pushing my boyfriends wheelchair around, my right arm hurt for days on end

a lot of the time in museums or older publically accessible buildings, there is an accessible toilet! you just have to go to the front desk to ask someone to get you the removable ramp! in one notable case that ramp was up a couple of stairs. in another extremely notable case they moved the ramp away when we were still in there

i know its on all of these posts but dont you fucking DARE grab someone’s wheelchair. yes, even if you think you’re helping. unless you have offered help and they have accepted, you keep your fucking hands to yourself.

a lot of doors are exactly wide enough for a wheelchair to fit through - if it is pushed. if the person is driving themselves (i.e. using their arms) they literally would not fit through that door. ever.

sidewalks. on every corner of a sidewalk, you either have to tilt your wheelchair up or turn all the way around in order to be able to get on there. which is, as you can imagine, exhausting and annoying.

if you see someone pushing a wheelchair, and you’d like to interact with the person sitting in the wheelchair, i am going to give you two guesses who you should talk to. hint: its not the person pushing. “oh what does he want” HE has a mouth and a voice and can tell you

this should be a no brainer but like. don’t do the staring and pointing thing. it’s fucking rude.

another one of my favourites: this house is wheelchair accessible! we just have ten stairs leading to our elevator you can’t avoid!

finally: cobblestone. really really pretty. really really annoying to try and keep a wheelchair steady on. my bfs wheelchair lost a wheel on cobblestone before because it was so bumpy and the wheel took so much strain.

I grow our own vegetables. Many hybrid and heirloom varieties are bred for flavor rather than for commercial appeal and travel. There are entire species on the allotment that you can’t easily buy in stores because of this - like salsify, a root vegetable that tastes of fish and shellfish. Our neighbours happily take it to make vegan latkes of alarming similarity to fishcakes. You cannot sell it in stores because - despite looking like a white parsnip - it turns brown when you pick it if you scrape/bruise/cut the white root in any way, or damage the delicate little hairs, for some reason, it BLEEDS RED and is very upsetting to look at.

There are whole classes of foods like this. Foods that just don’t ship well or look good on supermarket shelves. Forbidden fruits. Vegetables that bleed and taste like meat. Sorry about this

This website is one of my fav places to find interesting heirloom stuff! I ordered a bunch of seeds to try growing next year I’m really excited about! 

Apparently at least some salsify flowers also look like giant dandelions, which pleases me.

hold on hold on hold on. that's edible and tastes good???? this stuff has been growing in our garden for years and i've always thought it was a fancy dandelion week so never paid much attention to it? it's already out of season, but man don't i need to remember this for next spring...

CW-- TMA callout post that talks about mental disorders and will make you feel called out. that's the point.

"I'm a web avatar" just say you struggle with your parents and regain power over your life by making people do what you want and having so many layers of personality you dint actually know who you are and go

"I'm a buried avatar" Just say you never had a sense of privacy as a child and so you take solace in locking yourself in the dark under covers and go

"I'm a spiral avatar" Just say your expectations as a child were too high so now you actively seek outrageously and youthful experiences to make up for lost time and go

"I'm a flesh avatar" just say you've struggled with disassociation and body dysmorphia (because not being allowed to explore yourself as a kid) and seek extremes such as fictional gore as solace and go

"I'm a corruption avatar" just say that you've been through so many toxic friendships you doubt you're capable of healthy ones so giving up your anatomy and sense of self for unending affection feel like an improvement for you and go

"I'm an eye avatar" Just say that you were a gifted child who's seeking the high of praise, but more deeply than that, the idea of knowledge is so ingrained into your sense of self that is has a heavy hand in your relationships with others to the point where you struggle with academic pretension and go

"I'm a dark avatar" just say that you've witnessed one or many things you'd rather not have seen and believed that dreading forever would be better than the effect that knowledge has had on you and your life and go

"I'm a hunt avatar" Just say you feel residual guilt over your non-committal nature, have a hard time deciding on a calling, and pride yourself over your ambition because you don't feel pride over any other part of yourself and go

"I'm a slaughter avatar" Just say that from either your stature, disability, naturally kind nature, etc, you're tired of being treated as insignificant after realizing your self-worth and are moving the hatred you once aimed at yourself at others through forms of activism that may not be entirely healthy and go

"I'm a lonely avatar" Just say that you've grown comfortable in you depressive isolation in a way that is deeply unsatisfying but you fail to see how the discomfort of sociability can grow satisfying for you over time despite what everyone else says and go.

"I'm a desolation avatar" Just say you have concentrated anger towards specific people or groups who have done you wrong and feel guilty to admit that seeing their pain would be the most satisfying thing in the world for you and go.

"I'm an end avatar" just say that you have no deep emotional connection to people, places, or objects after getting these repeatedly taken from you in a turbulent childhood with distant parents caused by their job and you pride yourself on adapting to anything but fear you are incapable of love and go

"I'm a stranger avatar" just say that you fall in love easily and notice time traits in people to a point where it causes you to distress over your identity in relation to others and you've fallen in love with something to do with long-distance travel, cars, the feeling inside a plane, the concept of American highways, and lay awake at night dreaming of escaping your life via this system and go

"I'm a vast avatar" Just say you have trauma dealing with the touch of another person and a rich inner life rooted in your escapism habit that's gotten so intense that you can distract yourself without mental stimuli for ages, and that you feel the call of the void very intensely when looking over the edge of high places and go.

"I'm an extinction avatar" Just say that you live as a minority in a harmful area and read deeply into the most negative news that you often believe that people are inherently evil and have a hard time pulling yourself out enough to make meaningful connections and are skilled in manipulation to make up the slack and go

edit: many people have said in the tags that the stranger isn't accurate to them, and I agree! here's the updated version:

"I'm a stranger avatar" Just say you were told once that you shouldn't like who you see in the mirror and you started changing yourself but by bit until your definition of being "sincere" or "Genuine" is warped, seemingly beyond repair. If you have one, you keep thinking you finally opened up to your therapist, but there are always more layers

(is that good?)

I make things with clay, right? It's a decent coping mechanism and an even better hobby. It's one of those things, like fandoms, like music, that I just fell into, not on purpose.

My favourite things to make are sea creatures. Weird and complex as they are, they provide a little challenge to stick the simple shapes together as well as possible. And I am rewarded with a little friend, a stingray to watch over the sea of paper on my desk, or and painted anglerfish with bright orange eyes watching me as I sit at my desk. And they're not perfect, of course, this is but a hobby and I'm always trying to improve.

I was running my fingers over the ones I choose to display. The stingray and a one sided seahorse. (I don't usually make them flat or one sided, but I was tired when I made it). And my fingers fit into the pieces. Every line or shape or bump I pressed into a shape felt so comfortable, so real.

The manta ray has a cephalic lobe, which are two shown as two little nubs on my clay piece. The space in between them both fits the tip of my index finger and makes a comfortable pinch with my thumb. The other nub, too. I must have used my index finger to make them.

The tail of my seahorse hooks well around my left middle finger. Maybe I used it as a guide.

What I'm trying to say is that my mark is on these things and it comes in the size and proportions that fit my hands. I and only I can tell that I made these, and the proof is in how the small, handmade details that rest perfectly in between my fingers. There's a little bit of me in these figures, in a different way, a way I don't really have control over, weather I like it or not. (And I'm fortunate I do)

The Penumbra Podcast and the Case of (Accidental) Racism

That’s right folks, I’m here to discuss racism today. Shout out to the Penumbra server for having a discussion about this with me and adding additional details that I’ve included in here. Also, warning this is Long, so get ready.

First off, we’ve got the nearly all white cast, especially the main ones who show up a lot. You might already be going “But what about Anjimile, Simon, etc? They’re POC!” and yes they are, but I refer mainly to the core cast such as Noah, Josh, Kate, Stefano, etc. who are the most reoccurring cast members.

The fact that the cast of Penumbra has the only POC playing minor, usually one-time characters conveys the message that POC are insignificance in narratives especially queer ones. Though no one likes to admit it, white queer people can be the most harsh and oppressing of POC. Many people are so easily ignoring of this, especially in media such as Penumbra, though because of what I consider pinkwashing. Pinkwashing is mainly used in the context of Israel at the moment, but the basic definition is “The practice of… presenting… as gay-friendly and progressive, in order to downplay… negative behavior.” [x]

I’m sure it’s not intentional, but it often feels like people overlook the lack of true diversity in Penumbra because they’re so distracted by all the LGBTQ+ representation. And it’s fantastic, really, as a queer person myself, it’s so exciting to see. However, no level of “everyone’s gay” can hide the fact there’s hardly any brown characters or actors around.

And with that lacking representation within the Penumbra universe, it helps support another racist viewpoint, that POC don’t exist in Sci-Fi/Fantasy (beyond the occasional “look at this exotic non-European” which is terrible). You might be thinking, “Ly, but Sir Caroline is dark and Juno is almost universally HC’d as Black especially after Mikaela’s art!” to which I say, but it’s not explicit in canon. In fact, nothing really is, when it’s not about queer people. Sure the whole “race is no longer relevant” schtick is going here, but that’s not really the point. It’s basically the equivalent of “oh I don’t see color :)”, which dismisses the real life significance and sweeps the issue under the rug of queerness super lazily. If you can make ways to explicitly have queer characters, it doesn’t take much effort to put the same energy towards including POC (and properly, might I add).

Even with the current “rep” from the fandom view, it’s not really that great. For one, with the Juno as Black HC, and therefore Sarah Steel being Black, it fits into some pretty harmful tropes you might not even have considered. Dour, grumpy Black man (who is then contrasted with happy, nicer and lighter Peter Nureyev, but that’s for another time) who came from the Bad Area and tends to get hyper feminized? Just a thought. And particularly towards Sarah, by having her subsequently being Black helps play into the “crazy Black person” stereotype that’s often cast onto real Black people with mental health issues, the idea that Black mothers abuse their children (or, if HC’d as non-Black, the “non-Black guardians who abuse Black children” pattern), and that she’s that “tragic Black woman who thinks she’s better than everyone else but isn’t.” (Disclaimer, I am not Black and cannot provide any further commentary towards this particular area.)

There’s also small details within the podcast that really don’t bode well with me. For one, a lot of people in the Cerberus Province and their accents were… kind of racist. I understand the need to portray that they’re in someplace that’s Other, but poor people and “bad guys” all talking in those accents and with grammar like that doesn’t sit right. You know how people mock immigrants whose first language is something else like Spanish, Chinese, etc.? Talking exactly like that. Especially the line of “learn to talk right” in Time Gone By Pt. 1, it didn’t sit right. It portrays that there’s xenophobia in Mars towards Outer Rim people, sure, but that phrasing combined with all the accents and such? Not too great. There was also that really weird bit about Jack in the “podcast” Juno listened to where skin peeled off and the skin beneath was much paler, which I suppose is supposed to help show he altered his appearance but it read more like brownface to me. No one’s perfect, of course, but catching racist undertones and actually acknowledging them is kind of important.

Along the lines of how damaging completely dismissing race, it clashes immensely with some of the themes of the podcast, particularly in the Junoverse. Class issues, ableism, sexism, the justice system, and especially homophobia have been tightly tied to people of color for a long time. It’s unfortunate but true. The biggest victims of these problems are people of color, and it should at least be acknowledged even if “this world doesn’t care about race” or whatever the excuse is. I understand that they don’t want to cross a line and try to speak for POC about issues relating to them, but the way to avoid that is not by ignoring it completely.

Sophie and Kevin have discussed how they wanted to do research for mental health topics and queer identities to portray them right, so once again I ask, why can’t you put that same energy into including Brown and Black characters?

And here, I don’t mean “look this character is randomly brown, weehee!” but actual, real POC. Not a basically white person with a nonwhite name and brown skin. Let them have a culture, do some research to make it non offensively portrayed especially with stereotypes, but at least let them exist. In podcast, in canon. If you’re just going to keep “confirming” things using the “out of pod, word of god” tweets/official art/whatever that not everyone will actually see or know about, that makes you about good as J.K. Rowling, “wizards shit their pants” or not. And no one wants to be JKR.

They’ve got a platform and they’re white— which is a pretty large platform boost since people don’t like to listen when POC say something, just when a white person regurgitates it— so why not use it to be truly inclusive of everyone? Why not acknowledge their faults and work to improve? Just some food for thought.

End notes/TL;DR

The solution here is not to “cancel” Penumbra or anything of the sort, I personally will still be consuming it for a long time. You can love something and still be able to critique it. The takeaway here is that there are some issues in the podcast, ones that some people aren’t ready to face but that we need to acknowledge. We live in a society that has ingrained so many racist ideologies into everyone— this includes nonwhite people!— and the way to make a change to it is not by vehemently denying if we’ve done something racist but doing research, having conversations, and learning. Given the heightened activity in BLM, people are beginning to pay more attention to racism in the world around us, and an important place to inspect as well is fandom and the media we consume.

As for the Penumbra crew themselves, I encourage them (even though they probably won’t even see this) to do their research and make a real effort to show that they do in fact care about people of color, particularly Black people. The explicit support of BLM was a great show of support, but it’s not enough. You want to show that you care, then directly let them exist in your podcast as well.

Disclaimers

1) I am aware that Sophie Kaner is half Japanese (?), however that does not give them a get out of jail free pass. People of color are not immune to racist tendencies, even if they weren’t aware it was even happening. Especially in East Asian culture, it’s a bit complicated.

2) I am a nonBlack person of color so please take some of what I say with a grain of salt. Don’t forget to listen to Black people, please.

3) This all does not mean I hate TPP or that you should either! I love the podcast to death, but it is healthy to be able to acknowledge the flaws in something you love.

having these conversations is good! if your first reaction is to be defensive, take a second and think through what you’re feeling and why you’re feeling it. You can love something and acknowledge its flaws.

Thanks so much, @adverbialstarlight 💜

Story Structure and Independent Media: Why the Juno Steel finale absolutely fucks (but you might have been disappointed)

The season finale of Juno Steel dropped Thursday (Spoilers ahead). Tl;dr, I loved it. The emotional payoff of Juno’s continued growth, his sense of family, and the entire crew’s faith in each other was satisfying both as a fan and as a writer. So often, a story may technically answer the questions raised at the beginning, but fails to emotionally satisfy.

Penumbra did the opposite of that.

We have SO MANY unresolved questions right now, some of which have been hanging around since the beginning of the season, and we got very few answers. We have several villains, none of whom have been defeated. If we were listening to this story as unemotional analysts, it would feel unfinished. It IS unfinished. But Juno has had a very important emotional epiphany, and that’s what Penumbra lives and dies by. Each season finale (and the season 2 midpoint, which really was a finale in its own right) have been about Juno’s emotional change as much or more than defeating the villain. It was less noticeable before, because we also had Miasma, Pilot, and Ramses to present as classic villains.

But here we are at the end of season 3, and Peter is missing, the crew is captured, and Juno is alone. We don’t know if we can trust Sasha, we know we can’t trust Dark Matters, and Peter’s creditors loom.

If I were to analyze this from a plot perspective, this isn’t a finale. It’s the dark night of the soul. It’s the moment when all is lost, 75% of the way through the story. We should have had 1-2 more episodes where Juno executes a daring rescue, pays Peter’s debts, and they kiss as the sun sets.

Here’s the thing: the Penumbra doesn’t have to do that! The Penumbra is not beholden to anyone except their patrons, and their seasons are organized by emotional arc. That’s why season 2, which was 2 seasons in length and complexity, was a single season: because it followed Juno’s emotional arc cohesively. He had a massive change in the middle (”fuck you blood chair, I want to live”) and spent the second half of the season learning to make good on that decision and how living is different from surviving. Like I mentioned above, that emotional arc matched up well with all the Ramses shit, which is how most stories are structured. The internal arc and the external arc are perfectly twined together, and one helps resolve the other. Because the Penumbra isn’t running on a network or constrained by a publishing house, they know they will have as much time as they need to resolve all the problems they have hinted at.

So to analyze season 3 from the perspective of the emotional arc, what we got is exactly what we’ve been building to. This season took a huge risk by adding rotating narrators. One the one hand, I loved it, because every Penumbra character is vibrant and interesting and the character voices are incredible. But it was a little harder to follow, because it wasn’t Juno’s story anymore, and it wasn’t about his depression. He was still depressed—a hot boyfriend and a loving family won’t cure that. But he was learning self care, and the depression wasn’t controlling his every decision anymore. Instead, the emotional arc was about the whole crew learning to trust each other. 

Each episode strengthened at least one interpersonal bond, and over and over we hear references to family movie nights and family meetings and Buddy’s enforced bonding. WLB was the culmination of that, as Juno trusted each family member to pick up his clues and plan an escape—and then when that failed, Jet put all his faith in Juno and sent him off to be a one-lady rescue team. They are separated, but they are still family.

We still have the problem of Nureyev, but his failure to bond has been an issue mentioned in every episode. He’s the puzzle piece that refuses to fit into the board. It hurts and I hate it, because I love and trust Nureyev and just want him to live a happy, debt free life watching streams with Rita and being dramatic about how strong and sexy Juno is.

It’s unsatisfying because we love Nureyev, and because it goes against the central thesis of the season.

But, I repeat, the Penumbra doesn’t have to wrap everything up at the same time! They’re playing a long game. Season 3 is over, because Juno has a family. I don’t know what Season 4 will bring (I know better than to make guesses about what Kevin and Sophie are planning), but I know it will be a new emotional arc, and I know it will involve Peter. I hope we get his POV. I’m certain he will finally become part of the family and learn to be vulnerable. Somehow, the whole family will be together again. Because that’s the second half of this arc from a plot perspective. Whatever happens in Season 4 could arguably be considered part of Season 3, but we’re getting some breathing room, and probably switching up the format and focus, and whatever happens, I’m looking forward to it.

PS: If you enjoyed this, I wrote an essay on my patreon about story structure from a broader perspective. It’s free for everyone, but if you find it interesting, please subscribe for more free essays! 

OP you’re 100% right. I saw a lot of s3 criticism and while I read it and agree with it, I can’t help but feel that Penumbra has always delivered on plot and emotional beats alike but in radically different ways. S1 was more of a classic noir, taking the usual tropes and stretching them out, but still very much working within the constraints of the genre. S2 twined together plot and character work, and was essentially two arcs in one season (which kabert said was exhausting to execute due to its length). Just because S3 didn’t resolve the questions it introduced doesn’t mean it never will, because the point wasn’t necessarily plot. The season had a macguffin for a reason. It’s all about characters and their relationships and growth.

Especially since the point of the season isn’t peter, it’s the family and how they interact. What lies beyond delivers PERFECTLY the driving theme of family and vulnerability. And something I love about the Penumbra is that it takes risks. This season was amazing and I can’t wait to see where it goes next

You’re not derailing at all! You’re right that every Penumbra season takes a different tone and approach, and that’s one of my favorite things about it. Kevin and Sophie are willing to take risks and combine genres in unexpected ways, and that keeps things surprising without ever feeling like they threw in a cheap twist.

I’m wondering if they were intentionally light on the Peter content, because he’s so intentionally holding himself back. It’s hard to show him and Juno working through issues when Peter thinks he’ll have to run at any minute. But next season we might get flashbacks mixed in, once Juno finds him and (rightly) makes him open up.

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I’m loving this analysis, and I’m just gonna add:

One of the major themes of this season was the interplay of who-you-were and who-you-are. One of the huge arcing conflicts of the finale was in Sasha assuming Juno was the same lady she left in Oldtown, while Juno communicated with his new family specifically by speaking to their old selves– his remarks to Vespa and Jet in particular stand out– while calling on them to use those old skills in the new and coordinated ways that they’ve developed as a family.

The old self isn’t abandoned, but it doesn’t define them, either.

But they all embody different aspects of that theme. Jet feared his old self. Vespa and Buddy mourned their old selves, one running from the shame of changing and the other hiding her flaws until they almost killed her.

Rita’s relationship with all this is a bit more complex, mostly because we know so little about her.

Juno has idolized, rejected, and is slowly making peace with his old self.

Sasha allows herself to grow, but expects the rest of the world to stay still.

And then there’s Peter. Who is constantly on the run from his past but terrified of changing. And he wants to. Juno had showed him what that looks like, and he wants to join him there. But failing to change is itself an aspect of change that’s explored as a theme. Even more so when Peter’s transformation– or lack thereof– is being constantly debated by the people around him.

It’s not just Sasha who projects onto the people she loved, after all.

But unlike Sasha, Juno is by now strong and stable enough to survive and forgive that kind of disappointment. And that’s its own kind of transformation.

All this beautiful @jonsimsandcats day art has me thinking about that bit in MAG 149 where Georgie tells Martin that Jon used to go on about him a lot. It's already delightful to imagine Jon going on about Martin to his ex, but I'd like to propose:

Georgie overhears Jon going on about Martin (a lot) to The Admiral. Jon on the couch, wrangling the admiral in his lap, getting himself lazily bopped in the face as he recounts the entirety of their relationship.

Jon: but why would he be so nice to me if it wasn’t all a murderous ruse?

The Admiral: mrrmowm

Jon: your insights are always appreciated

First Time Walking-Stick/Cane Users Tips

I’ve seen a post about first time wheelchair users guide. Since I’ve been using a walking stick for a while now, I thought I’d make one specifically for these types of aids. These will be in no particular order– they’re just things you probably don’t know about using a walking stick.

- if you’ve hurt you left leg/ect., hold the stick in your right hand (if possible) and if you’ve hurt your right leg/ect., hold the stick in your left hand. Trust me, your shoulders and back will thank you

- the pad of your hand will hurt– it just will. You’ll get used to it and your hand will develop more protection there eventually. To start out, look into a pair of fingerless gloves. 

- a fold up/collapsable stick is good for beginners because you can take them on public transport/cars without too much hassle (they also fit nicely into desks and under chairs).

- When you’re using your stick, you only have one free hand. This may seem obvious, but it really impacts your every day life. Practice for a while around the house, so you get the feeling down.

-there are a lot of different types of walking sticks: fold up, one leg, two legs, three legs, etc. 

(these are only a few of the many designs)

-if possible, go to a shop that specifies in walking sticks. ask to try a few out, they will also help make sure that you’re using on that’s the right height for you.

- a height adjustable walking stick is a miracle, especially if you want to wear high heels to an event.

- you don’t need a prescription to get a stick in most regions (but in some cases they may help get a discount)

- getting a stick that is the right height for you if very important (even with an adjustable one). Too short, and you’ll hurt your shoulder. Too tall, and you can’t put weight on it properly. The correct height is when the highest part of the handle reaches your wrist when the stick is standing straight up, as shown in this image.

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- if you’re young (under the age of 60) people will stare, often they wont mean to– it is annoying but you’ll get used to it. 

- again, if you’re young, people will ask why you’re using the stick, all. the. time. Even strangers will sometimes ask. You can use a really simple answer like “medical condition” and if they pry further, you can say “That’s all I’m comfortable saying”. If they don’t know you, or don’t know you well, they really have no business asking.

-Children will ask, a lot. Please be gentle with them, especially if they’re really little. I know it’s annoying but you can give children reallllllllly simple answers like “I just need it to help me walk” and most of the time they’ll be perfectly content with that and won’t ask more.

- don’t be afraid to use more advanced mobility aids if needed on bad days, or when readily available (eg. at a supermarket, when they have motorized wheelchairs for customers)

- You don’t have to use your stick every day for you to have a disability or for you to own a stick. Even if you need it once a week, once a month, you can still own one. You’re not less worthy or a mobility aid than those who need one everyday. 

-Use backpacks, the ones with 2 well-padded straps that go over your shoulders evenly. Use them as much as you can. Bags that you hold in one hand or have one strap make you unbalanced or take up your only free hand. 

- If you want to, decorate your stick, go all out. 

Even if you don’t need/use a walking stick, please reblog this to let those who do, know this information. 

a few months ago i made a compilation of all the times in the podcast where tim says "sasha" and i never thought i’d update it but the mag fluff proved me wrong....... so here we are