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Ash

@yukkikatsuki

this profile picture comes from the wonderful @rukitastic thank you again for letting me use it. Sometimes I live blog whatever I'm watching. They/Them 23 feel free to call me queer. I'm on a monster of the week podcast contact me to learn more. I rarely if ever look at the profiles of people I reblog the stuff of, I focus more on what's being said in the post itself. I also block liberally not personal (however if you are a hateful person yes that's why I blocked you) but sometimes people are just annoying and I want to curate my online space and that's what blocking is for. ALSO minors my blog is not inherently minor friendly, I'm not going to be reblogging porn to here anytime soon but I do frequently reblog mature content and horny jokes their will be dick jokes their will be mentions of sexual activity and I'm shit at tagging things so please don't go interacting with mature content just keep moving.

Apparently bios are malfunctioning for some folks, so in case you can't see my bio right now, Hi I'm Ash I'm 23 and use they/them pronouns. If you want me to tag something let me know and I'll try my best but I have poor memory and will fuck up so if that's a deal breaker for you it's best to just not follow me. I rarely ever look into blogs involved in a post and focus more on the content of the post. All this said minors this bits for you. My blog is not inherently minor friendly I wont be reblogging porn or anything of that sort but I will be reblogging mature conversations and adult humour. I am going to trust y'all to use your brains, if I was reblogging porn or smut this would be a different story and y'all would be blocked on sight. on that topic I block liberally it's nothing personal (unless your an asshole in which case I probably saw you acting like an asshole and decided I didn't want that in my life) it's just how I moderate my online experience to be healthy for me and I encourage everyone else to do the same(especially minors please if you see something you don't want to see block the tag and or the person involved I've been online since I was relatively young and occasionally I saw things that freaked me out I left the spaces I saw those in and never went back and that's how I stayed safe on the internet) on a final note for any minors who might read this, as someone who spends a lot of time lurking in fandom spaces and has seen a rise in this behaviour if anyone and I mean anyone of any age fellow minor or an adult tells you they are part of the safe ones to interact with or worse one of the only safe ones to interact with run in the opposite direction so fast there are to many people in those spaces trying to use perceived safeness to get way to close to minors if an adult ever discusses anything 18+ with you stop talking to them immediately and tell a trusted person, please be safe the internet is simultaneously safer and more dangerous than it used to be use your head use your common sense and be safe.

hot take but none of you are allowed to use deer/antler imagery when working with cannibalistic themes anymore. you need to be honest with yallselves on WHY you're associating deer/antler imagery with cannibalism. just because you aren't naming the name doesn't mean that the original anti-indigenous racism isn't still inherent to what you're doing.

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For those who need more explanation, a well known (but often misunderstood) figure in Algonquin and Aanishinabe culture is the wend*go.

No, I'm not fully typing out the name cause we don't say that name and don't want to attract its attention. Yes, all of this is taken very seriously by us Natives.

The problem is that this very serious figure isn't taken seriously at all by non-Natives and, instead of respecting our culture and the fact we don't even say its name, its perceived as this cool monster to add to movies, video games and cool edgy OCs.

And, as with all thing Native being used and abused, misunderstood, and transformed by non-Natives, we are tired of that. It's not okay, it's not respectful.

You want a people eating monster in a story? Use anything else.

As someone who's absolutely guilty of this shite on this account...yeah you have the right to spitroast me for that. Fair is fair.

I do hope we can use creepy deer aesthetics on and about other mythological/fiction monster villains tho. As someone who had a deer almost kill their dog, I just find deer creepy and unsettling regardless.

first off: You are the single person who has responded to this post admitting some variant of having done this that actually listened to what was being said, acknowledged that you did such things while you didn't know any better, expressed an intent to never do it again, and asked for clarification on whether or not "creepy deer aesthetic" is completely off-limits with that in mind. So with that said, I want you to know that you're one of the very few folks in this post I respect sincerely.

To that end: While obviously I can't speak for Native America as a monolith, it would be my opinion that no, creepy deer aesthetics as a concept are fine. Deer can be fucked up and weird. There is a fundamental lure to the idea of a large prey animal behaving as a predator or in ways anathema to our understanding of prey. That juxtaposition and irony has a lot of narrative potential and for good reason--it fucks severely! I don't want to see it go away! It fucks hard, for Christ's sake!

But it is my opinion that the use of deer aesthetics within the specific context of cannibal themes isn't able to be used anymore. The well has been poisoned too deeply. I never said once the specific being I was referring to in nearly any of my responses, but everyone knew exactly what I meant. Even trying to purposefully distance the racism from the imagery would be useless, since the racism is baked in to the assumptions by now. Reclamation may be able to happen in the future, but first we need to accept that setting it down completely is the right play for a while. You can distance racism from creepy deer stuff by purposefully and actively distancing it from Native America and cannibalism--if it becomes a recurring imagery on its own throughout multiple types of horror, rather than being innately tied by implication to the winter hunger, that's when we could maybe begin talking about whether or not to start re-examining our relationship with it.

I cannot put into words how much I Fucking Loathe the fact that when you search something on youtube now it will randomly intersperse blocks of "people also watched" and "for you" into the results. That's not what I searched for, youtube. I typed in a search query because I wanted to see search results, not random unrelated garbage you have placed in my way apparently to either inconvenience me or force me to scroll further for actual results. I despise your wretched little games and every time I see it I can only instantly close the tab as I am overcome with the urge to burn something down.

"I despise your wretched little games" perfectly conveys how I feel about the entire algorithm/attention economy

They also refuse to actually show the parameters you searched for. If you sort by “upload date,” the first few videos might be more recent ones by upload date, but anything past that you’ll find a video that was uploaded five years ago, then five months ago, then three years ago, etc, which—NO! That’s NOT WHAT I ASKED FOR!! PUT THEM IN ORDER!!!

Also sometimes the “people also watched” bullcrap will not only be entirely unrelated, it will also be videos with violent, sometimes outright triggering thumbnails. I’ve gotten some AWFUL unrelated video thumbnails just when searching for video game music videos.

for anyone too young to know this: watching The Truman Show is a vastly different experience now, compared to how it was before youtube and social media influencers became normal

before it was like, "what a horrifying thing to do to a human being! to take away their autonomy and privacy, all for the sake of profits! to create fake scenarios for them to react to, just to retain viewership! to ruin their happiness just so some corporate entity could harvest money from their very humanity! how could anyone do something so evil?"

and now it's like, "ah, yeah. this is still deeply fucked up, but it's pretty much what every influencer has been doing to their kids for a decade now. probably bad that we've normalized this experience"

Instagram and TikTok have successfully created the Torment Nexus from Jim Carrey's iconic work, "Don't put people in the Torment Nexus"

Tumblr is unique bc like. It's collaborative shitposting and you can't opt in or out. You can just say something about your day then an evil wizard shows up to turn your post into something humorous

Every other site is just one and done, but here a post is a welcome mat to be funnier than you

yeah or sometimes you’ll see a post that hacks into your brain and forever rewrites your instinctual reaction to seeing a pineapple explode

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I love good maple syrup but I don't use it very quickly, so it has a tendency to crystallize in my fridge. This can be solved by refilling the bottle with whiskey and then setting it in hot water to let the sugars melt.

And then, of course, you let the whiskey cool, and you drink it.

To those asking--yes. Once opened, real maple syrup should should be refrigerated. It can spoil or mold, and the fridge reduces the possibility of that.

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You are the Protector of the Small. You see real people in the humans and animals overlooked by your peers. There will always be work for you.“—The Chamber of the Ordeal to Kel 

Keladry of Mindelan from Tamora Pierce’s Tortall series. Finished this one up a month ago but have been slow to post. I think my favorite part of this one was painting the birds and the rough thumbs, she was fun to pose out. The patterns in the bg were influenced by Japanse patterns since Kel is from the Yamani Islands. Next one on my list is Daine, hopefully will get that done soon! 

oh seems very suspicious to see the barbie movie tumblr pop up on my dash after the strike. maybe it was made before, but I’m actually seeing it now

remember:

there’s no boycott on going to see new media

but there is a promotional blackout

don’t do the studio’s marketing work for them

I just checked their archive. They created it Today, July 17th.

prior to the strike they did not have an official tumblr lmaoooo

don’t reblog their shit

Where am I

Sobbing, crying, shitting, etc

Ok I'm sorry for shoving this in your face again but like. He didn't just say that trans men and women are real. He didn't say there were three genders. He didn't do that, he said there was a spectrum. He insisted it was a spectrum, and he's fucking right.

Did he do actual damn research??? I would assume that this isn't basic common knowledge to a guy like him. He legit took the time to research this, and is still a huge piece of shit afterwards. What the fuck. What the FUCK.

IS HE GETTING A GODDAMN REDEMPTION ARC

"trans women are women and they belong IN THE KITCHEN"

did you really ask if the man on trial for sex trafficking and rape is getting a redemption arc because he said water is wet

Still got lots of prints left of all of these. They come signed, 8x10, $30 each. I need some money to pay my tattoo licensing fees, which in Minnesota, is a lot, lol.

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Some ya’ll who are younger need to google Frank Serpico and read about his time in the NYPD and what the cops did to him and attempted to do to him up until the late 90′s. He literally had to go into hiding in Italy and Switzerland and multiple times people tried to kill him. He only came back to America after the mafia (who hated the NYPD a lot, obviously) said “you’re under our protection.”

Damn, NYPD is so bad, Mafia started protecting good cops

For anyone who saw my last post about Gideon his last dose of painkillers was yesterday morning and he's still acting like himself and hasn't had any litterbox issues so I think he's going to be alright. We are still supposed to schedule a follow up to take another look at his bladder but behaviorally he's acting comfortable and like himself which is all I can ask for.

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fuck everyone who made me feel like I needed to have a professional diagnosis to be autistic btw it's doing nothing for me except looming over my neck like a guillotine ready to drop at any moment

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can't even get disability benefits and my rights can be taken away at the convenience of whoever wants to treat me as subhuman what is even the fucking point

So I shouldn’t get the diagnosis?

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when people talk about autism diagnoses they leave out a lot of the negative impacts and risks, if it's the right thing for you then it's the right thing for you but I'd definitely look into what the benifits are for you other than just having it

I can't really think of anything positive it's really done for me except for letting me wear pajamas in high school? other than that I was still told by my mom not to go on T until I was 25 because I'm autistic so I might just be a confused little girl and harassed at my last job for being trans + disabled. I didn't need it for my anxiety meds prescription either so for me it's kinda just sitting there, menacingly. the current political climate is what has me really scared though

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some of the negatives of an official autism diagnosis include: not being allowed to foster/adopt kids not being allowed to immigrate to a significant number of other countries access to healthcare being taken away greater risk of discrimination by doctors Having an autism diagnosis can help if you are high support needs and need access to things like a group home for autistics or some sort of other aid from the government (but even then just because you have the diagnosis doesn't mean you'll get that help), but for middle support needs and low support needs it's a much more nebulous thing.

somehow instead of saying "as a treat", I've started using the phrase "for morale", as if my body is a ship and its crew, and I (the captain) have to keep us in high spirits, lest we suffer a mutiny in the coming days.

and so I will eat this small block of fancy cheese, for morale. I will take a break and drink some tea, for morale. I will pick up that weird bug, for morale.

I'm not sure if it helps, but it does entertain me

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Oh ho ho Universal Pictures might have some tree law troubles >:)

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If you, like me, are deeply concerned about this out of season pruning of LA street trees, why not fire up your ol' email browser and shoot a message over to the good folks at LA's Urban Forestry division (san.trees @ lacity.org) and let em know your concerns about how pruning at this time of year might lead to unseasonal growth spurts that can cause freezing damage, as well as how it might delay or damage the tree's dormancy period. Just really worried about those trees and the health of these trees, this has nothing to do with wanting to make sure these evil bastards get punished for their fucked up bullshit. Just pure tree health concerns over here at maeamian dot tumblr dot net.

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Two updates, first, LA Controller Keneth Mejia is on the case (thank you if you joined me in voting for him), secondly WGA is asking people to sign this petition because the same fucking studio is doing a construction project that eliminates the sidewalks and has not properly set up barriers to protect the sidewalk leading to a real bastard of a public safety hazard that has already seen two writers hit by cars. Pretty fucked up, if you ask me.

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Hey hey great news, LA's Urban Forestry Division is also Officially Looking Into It, issuing a statement that roughly amounts to "We did not authorize this and will be looking at fining them" All those emails did the trick everyone great work! If you're still looking to help out, that petition about the OTHER public safety hazard hasn't been addressed by anyone with the authority to make the necessary changes, so give that bad boy a signature.

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*chanting quietly* tree law tree law tree law tree law

TREE LAW TREE LAW

TREE LAW TREE LAW TREE LAW

Apparently they claim that they do this every year to prepare for the windy season. I cannot imagine a worse excuse. But I also REALLY want to be a fly on the wall in their media room right now, because if this was the BEST they could come up with as an excuse I really, really want to know what the other fucking options were.

they fuckin' lying like there ain't phOTOS