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Sensory Prompts

  1. cold, smooth slate
  2. smell of smoke in icy air
  3. a shimmer of water droplets in the sun
  4. mint leaves
  5. cold mud
  6. the squeak of an old wooden staircase
  7. paper tearing
  8. light on the bottom of a clear pool
  9. radio static
  10. wind chimes
  11. light reflected on puddles
  12. the green iridescence of a beetle’s wing
  13. slipping into warm water
  14. a glow stick being snapped
  15. night wind carrying the scent of freshly baked bread
  16. wet, rotting leaves
  17. dice against a table
  18. the taste left in your mouth after a dentist’s appointment
  19. a bite of an apple
  20. people talking a room away
  21. walking barefoot on sidewalk
  22. dark, bitter chocolate
  23. dryer lint
  24. plucking a peach off the tree
  25. calloused palm
  26. pine needles
  27. aloe being slathered on a sunburn
  28. eggshells cracking
  29. a dog’s cold nose
  30. porch light in the distance
  31. pouring something into a glass
  32. soft cat feet
  33. scraping at a scab
  34. a deer darting away under the trees
  35. jumping into a cold pool
  36. a paper cut
  37. a too-rich dessert
  38. putting on clean underwear
  39. an unpleasantly damp handshake
  40. sweaty socks
  41. the soft fur behind a dog’s ears
  42. crunching ice at the bottom of the glass
  43. licking your fingers while eating Cheetos
  44. fighting against the urge to cry
  45. floating on your back in water
  46. soreness after exercise
  47. the smell of an elderly relative’s house
  48. bowling alley carpet
  49. fresh paint
  50. fireworks close enough to feel in your chest
  51. the radio playing in the background at a restaurant
  52. watching aquarium fish
  53. a toilet flushing in a public restroom
  54. your breath coming out in clouds in the cold
  55. putting accidentally way too much salt on your food
  56. poking at a bruise
  57. rain on a metal roof
  58. scent of a damp basement
  59. the weird green afterimage after coming in from the snow
  60. getting scratched by briars
  61. a popsicle stick against your tongue
  62. opening a window
  63. walking on gravel
  64. cold pizza
  65. blowing out a candle
  66. a swallow of a carbonated drink
  67. packing peanuts
  68. a bleeding mosquito bite
  69. trying to fall asleep in a too-warm room
  70. loud laughter somewhere else in the neighborhood
  71. a round rock in the palm of your hand
  72. putting your hair in a tight ponytail
  73. steam rising from a bowl of soup
  74. gum with all the flavor chewed out of it
  75. the feel of banana peel
  76. heavy boots
  77. latex gloves
  78. cold coins
  79. an earthworm squirming in your palm
  80. someone pulling away from a hug you wish would last longer
  81. cloudless summer sky
  82. ripping up a tuft of grass
  83. getting water in your eyes
  84. clean sheets
  85. the packaging of snack food you’re eating late at night
  86. cold water down your neck
  87. nasty-tasting medicine
  88. cleaning dirt from under your nails
  89. holding your breath underwater
  90. flies buzzing
  91. thick fog
  92. aluminum foil
  93. the smell of stagnant water
  94. the light of a full moon
  95. bending a green twig in your hands
  96. another person touching your skin with cold hands
  97. motion sickness
  98. tufts of shed fur
  99. hard candy dissolving in your mouth
  100. a feeling of acceleration in your chest
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book recs in the time of the coronavirus

by popular demand! (i count six people commenting on my post as popular demand). remember to try to find these digitally at your local library, or maybe ORDER THEM FROM YOUR LOCAL INDIE? they’re coming on hard times my friends. i suggest indiebound if you dont wanna look up what your local indie book store is. let’s try not to give amazon anymore money, yeah?

so you’re living during an pandemic. do you want to read…

BOOKS ABOUT PAN/EPIDEMICS? yes you do, here’s my rec list for that

  • wanderers - chuck wendig. don’t follow this dude on twitter he’s so fucking annoying but he’s a good writer. this follows a group of people whose family members/friends have been struck by a fast-spreading sleepwalking disease that causes them to all move towards the same mysterious location. it’s a big book at around 800 pages but it’s good as hell
  • wilder girls - rory power. a young adult book that’s like annihilation meets lord of the flies, where a disease called the TOX has ravaged what could be the world, but all we know is the isolated maine island where an all girls boarding school once stood. wildly grotesque, creepy, and gay as fuck. had a good time with it!
  • the southern reach trilogy (annihilation, authority, acceptance) - jeff vandermeer. don’t watch the movie it fucking SUCKS. this maybe pushes the term pandemic/epidemic, but the series broadly follows a group of scientists trying to figure out why there’s a spot in the world called area x is transforming nature, and it is creeping forward, ready to swallow the earth whole. 
  • a people’s history of the vampire uprising - raymond a. villareal. what it says in the title! told in an oral history format, through interview transcripts, newspaper articles, radio interviews, etc. has been compared to world war z but for vampires, but i’ve never read that so you know, do with that what you will. 

SO YOU DON’T WANNA READ ABOUT DISEASES? FINE THEN. 

SCIFI

  • the vanished birds - simon jimenez. this book made me WEEEEEP. whew. talk about the power of chosen families. it’s hard to summarize, but generally the book is about a boy, with a power that is connected through music. and it’s about a woman, who takes him in and raises him and loves him. and it’s about another woman, brilliant and callous and terrible, whose love for another woman saves her in the end. 
  • the luminous dead - caitlin starling. creepy and fun! it follows a woman named gyre who is hired to explore a cave. of course, all is not what it seems, and the only person she has to help her is em, the woman in her ear guiding her through each level of the cave. it’s gay, it’s scary, it’s weird! 
  • this is how you lose the time war - max gladstone and amal el-mohtar. a thrilling and beautiful novella that takes place during a strange scifi world where red and blue, two enemy combatants, fight and fall in love through letters. 
  • bonds of brass - emily skrutskie. this is that finnpoe book people on twitter were freaking out about. it comes out in april, and it is escapist fun nonsense. i read it in two days and my roommate read it on our first quarantine day and thoroughly enjoyed it. it is about a hotshot pilot whose in love with a prince, and a scrappy slip of a girl who latches onto them both.
  • red rising series - pierce brown - now ive only read two, but i did enjoy them! it’s very epic scifi that has to do with how being from a different planet is dependent on your class system and those from mars are all fucked. and our intrepid hero is from mars and they decide to use him as a weapon to destroy the entire class system. it’s fun!

FANTASY

  • the starless sea - erin morgenstern. i have talked this up a lot on here. so quick summary, a book about books! a book about stories and libraries and a boy who falls into the lush, imaginative world of stories within stories, and who falls in love with a beautiful, broody storyteller.
  • silver in the wood - emily tesh. an extremely short novella about the wild man of the woods and the beautiful folkorist named silver who falls for him, and the creature of the woods who threatens to tear them apart.
  • lost boy: the true story of captain hook - christina henry. what if captain hook was peter pan’s first lost boy? that’s the premise of this wonderfully grotesque book, where peter pan is more like a god than a playful child, cruel and compelling at the same time.
  • gods of jade and shadow - silva moreno garcia. when a young woman accidentally wakes up the mayan god of death, she binds them together (also accidentally) and must accompany him to take back the throne from his twin brother
  • robbergirl - s.t. gibson - based off of…a fairytale i do not know, but it’s a super charming f/f novel about the princess of the robbers and a charming girl-witch she tries to rob, but then gets drawn into helping her find her missing brother
  • the girl who drank the moon - kelly barnhill. this book still makes me just feel so WARM when i think about it. it is such a lovely piece of fiction about magic and family and love. there is a witch in the woods, so everyone says, and once a year a baby is sacrificed to her so that the town does not fall into bad luck. but all is not what it seems, and we get to see one of the sacrificed babies grow up, and the real truth about the witch in the woods and the town behind the wall.
  • the devourers - indra das. gay werewolves in kolkata. a woman getting revenge on her rapist. earthy, gorgeous writing that makes you feel like you can smell everything that’s happening. what’s not to love?

LITERARY FICTION

  • home fire - kamila shamsie. a modern retelling of antigone that takes place in great britain during the height of islamophobic hate. i love retellings of greek shit but i dont actually know the source stuff very well, so if you’re like me you’ll probably love it! if you are very into the source material, you might like it less!
  • less - andrew sean greer. a middle-aged gay writer living post AIDS crisis has no idea how to get old, since all the older gay people he ever knew died. when his ex invites him to his wedding, he’s basically like, fuck THIS, and cashes in on all the invitations he has ever received to travel away long enough that he misses the wedding. i found this book just really beautiful and achy and stunning. 
  • the house of broken angels - luis alberto urrea. this follows the dying patriarch of a mexican-american family who wants to celebrate one last birthday before he goes. really really loved this book.
  • melmoth - sarah perry. probably more gothic than literary but i dont read much gothic so it’s going in here. it follows a creature who roams the globe, haunting those who have been complicit in tragedies big and small. it chronicles four stories, the main one being in prague. unsettling and wonderful.
  • the water cure - sophie mackintosh. fragmented, non-linear, and horrifying, this chronicles the story of three sisters raised in isolation with their cruel father, and complicit mother. one day their father disappears, and men wash up on their shore, and these sisters find their presence both disturbing and thrilling. it’s a fucked up look at abuse in the hands of men and the women complicit in it.
  • naamah - sarah blake. the untold story of noah’s (of the biblical ark and the floods) wife. follow her journey in isolation, her strange relationship with an angel who may or may not be real, her struggle to keep a level head for her family, and her fragmented feelings about god. super weird but i loved it.
  • on earth we’re briefly gorgeous - ocean vuong. a poet’s debut novel, definitely semi autobiographical, but it tells the story of a boy we just know as little dog. it is told through letters to his mother, his mother who cannot read. it talks fraught familial relationships, budding sexuality, and that good old immigrant trauma
  • bunny - mona awad. this literally defies genre so i’m putting it here. it’s like if stephen king and donna tartt had a baby, and that baby smoked crack and wrote this. it follows a girl getting her mfa in creative writing, and how she falls into this group who calls themselves the bunnies. that’s like….all i can say lol it is fucking WILD

MEMOIR/NONFICTION

  • crux: a cross border memoir - jean guerrero. follows a journalist as she tries to figure out why her dad is the way he is, and how to find him. it took me a long time to read this but i found it extremely compelling.
  • the undocumented americans - karla cornejo villavicencio. out 3/24! this is about the undocumented immigrants nobody talks about. not the dreamers, not the model minorities, but the regular people. the construction workers, the delivery people, the hair stylists. it talks about the undocumented people who were on the front lines helping at 9/11, during hurricane sandy, in flint, michigan. definitely a book to read
  • in the dream house - carmen maria machado. heavy trigger warnings here bc it is about domestic emotional abuse. it chronicles machado’s relationship, and her first one with a girl, and the severe emotional abuse she experienced during her time with her. it’s written in experimentally and i loved all of it.

SHORT STORY

  • sabrina & corina - kali fajardo-anstine. stories that all center chicana indigenous women in colorado, written by a chicana indigenous woman herself. not a bad story in here
  • lot - bryan washington. somewhat interconnected stories that all take place in houston and center around afro-latino men dealing with poverty, gentrification, machismo, and sexuality.

HISTORICAL FICTION

  • the mercies - kiran millwood hargrave. a tale based on the true story of a town where every single able-bodied man died during a freak ocean storm while fishing, and the women learned to care for themselves. they sent a man to the town, a god-fearing man to save these women from the devil, which leads to a horrific time of witch trials and burnings, and one of the town girls and the man’s wife fall in love. just. really stunningly written
  • cantoras - carolina de robertis. i have shoved this into so many people’s hands at this point. READ IT. it centers five uruguayan women who call themselves cantoras (which was slang for queer woman). they come together to buy a beach house on an isolated island where they can be themselves, and the book follows their lives as they get older, always coming to that beach cottage as a touchpoint. IT’S SO GOOD.

ok that’s all i got for now. go forth and have fun!

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who am i?

I think the worst part about me is that I never know who I am. I constantly switch up my appearance and seek new experiences that can ultimately lead to my downfall.

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Unrequited love in a library

I dont want to know

If shes making you lose control

I dont want to know

If shes the one you're taking home

But I just want to say

I wish it was me

That you loved so completely

Wish it was me

That you wanted to read

Not a book on what love means

To a girl more fiction than a dream

By someone who is not me

Guess I'm holding myself down

With the weight of the truth

My back up against the shelf

Cos you'll never ever check me out

Someone will always hold me

Read that I'm everything they could want

And take me home for a day

But even when you're far

Even when I think you're gone

And I am falling for another star

I find you're always the one I want

I'm haunting this library

Cos I dont want to leave

Without you perusing me

I just want us to meet

Like two books in a library

But I'm poetry

And you're fiction

We could never ever be in the same section

Even when I'm put in the wrong place

I'm never ever seen beside your face

You prefer the paper mache shape

Of a piece of fallacy

Just cos shes a recommended story

I'm the best selling poetry

But it means nothing without you wanting me

- nail-in-the-wall (I think I like myself a lil more after writing this cos it took me 20 minutes and it is genuinely so original and beautifully poetic. P.S. This is about a figment of my imagination.)

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loviely
It’s going to hurt
It’s going to hurt when you realize it’s not me
It’s going to hurt when it stops being us
And it starts just being me
And then you
I’ll only know a time in my life of what it was like with you and what it’ll be like after
And it’s going to hurt when someone asks me about you and I’ll only have memories and maybe your favorite color will change and you won’t tell me
So I won’t know
And my best friend will say “do you miss him?”
And I’ll lie and say ‘no’ so it hurts less
But I’ll miss you every day
I miss you now and you aren’t even gone yet
And I’m going to try to enjoy it because it’ll be a memory soon and I hate looking into the future
But everyone leaves
And everyone includes you.

Will she be prettier than me? Will she love you more? If it’s not me, then who?

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naming characters

reasons why writers choose the character names they did:

  1. they’re named after the writer’s idols or favorite characters, or friends
  2. it actually has a well thought out, deep meaning that will have the reader connect the dots at 2 am three weeks after having finished the book and have their minds blown
  3. it sounds cool :)

all great, of course. but consider the following:

  • having like, three characters all share the same name because duh, there has to be popular names in your world. i mean in highschool there must have been like, at least four sams in each grade level (bonus points: being able to casually describe the character when explaining which sam you’re talking about. ex. “ya know sam?? the girl one, with brown hair?” “there’s two girl sams with brown hair tho” “no, i mean the straight one”)
  • their name is a subtle (or not-so-subtle) pun. example of a subtle pun: violet parr can turn invisble, just as ultra-violet rays are invisble to the human eye, vs. an obvious pun: dash
  • aNAGRAMS
  • anagrams, but better. taking a long sentence/a bunch of words and run them together, taking out or adding in some letters as you please. actual example: diagon alley (diagonally), grimmauld place (grim old place). how to do it: Innocent Ray of Sunshine = InnocentRayofSunshine = InnocentRayofSunshine = IRayine = Irayine. voila you have a character/setting name
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“I don’t know how to write love letters,” Frida Kahlo wrote in 1946. “But I wanted to tell you that my whole being opened for you. Since I fell in love with you everything is transformed and is full of beauty… love is like an aroma, like a current, like rain.”