Walking for your mental health is great and all but nobody tells you how to keep your brain working when we live in a world that's literally on fire and the outside is actively hazardous to your physical health
marlena by julie buntin
[Text ID: i want to go home, i want to go home, but what i mean, what i’m grasping for, is not a place, it’s a feeling. i want to go back. but back where? /End ID.]
Does anyone else's anxiety manifest is super weird small ways? Like I ALWAYS buy rings a size or so too big because I get really anxious about not being able to get them off. And the thing is I KNOW I do this, I KNOW I need to get a size smaller than what I think I should in order to have rings I can actually wear but in the moment I can never convince myself to buy the correct size.
I want to see characters being taken care of in an explicit and worshipful way. Home-cooked meals. Hair brushed and braided by gentle hands. Little gifts just because.
I want to read about characters who are not used to kindness being bombarded by acts of service. This trope works romantically and platonically. Give me found family and acts of service - all the ways a character is wrapped up in wordless, explicit care after years of cruelty and having no idea how to handle. I need it.
I love the time of year where if I don't get enough time outside I get even worse brain fog but when I do spend time outside I immediately get an intense sinus headache from allergies and also brain fog
Not many people talk about how deep emotional neglect hurts you.
I’m afraid to want things. I’m afraid to ask for help. I’m afraid to tell someone something if they seem in a bad mood. I can’t process when someone is nice to me. I can’t handle rejection, but my brain literally short circuits if someone gives me a compliment to the point where sometimes the rejection is better.
There are lots of overlap with emotional abuse, but emotional neglect hurts just as much. And it’s even worse that it usually goes undetected, so a lot of people can’t tell they’re being neglected until it’s too late.
Oof I didn't realize how much yelling was a trigger for me but I was just watching an actual play where the DM unexpectedly started shouting (in character) and it really got to me. I legitimately had to stop watching and go do some calming exercises. Something else to bring to therapy.
can someone please be proud of me like fuck I’m trying
reblog to let prev know you’re proud of them
Like social media envy is a normal thing but I don't get jealous about people going on vacations or partying or whatever. I get jealous when my friends send me snapchats of them successfully completing tasks. Like how do you just get up and do that???
im like an absent father in my own life I'm uninvolved af
Between working from home and masking and everything I've sort of forgot that being normal sick is a thing. I was feeling lousy and muscle fatigue all day and my brains first thought was "is this some new period bullshit?"
#lol yeah im probably just Sick lmao#idk if its covid or not#all the home tests i got when you first could are expired#ill just stay home anyway#no point in giving anybody any kind of sickness germs if i can avoid it#(okay my first thought was Symptom but thats my hypochondriac anxiety brain thinking not me thinking)
Even saying ”I’m so sorry, I completely forgot” sounds marginally better than ” I’m so sorry, I didn’t completely forget, I actually completely remembered. I thought about it the whole time and it stressed me out so much my brain built an insurmountable wall around it.”
I have a longer than normal period cycle, typically closer to 50 days, and today I started my period again after 40 days and audibly screamed "what the FUCK"
Shout-out to everyone out here doing this on the normal schedule idk how y'all get through it
There's something that maybe doesn't get talked about enough in regards to former "gifted kids" or just generally former smart kids and struggling with being bad at things.
When you're a smart kid the adults around you tend to stop teaching you things in your day to day life. Not intentionally or with malintent, but because they genuinely forget that just because you're good at school doesn't mean you know everything. So you mess things up because you were never properly taught the right way to do them, and then the adults in your life get frustrated with you because how dare you not know this thing that I assumed you knew? Pretty soon you develop this intense anxiety about doing something wrong because you never know when you were supposed to already know something and get yelled at for it.
big ole comic about adult ADHD diagnosis + big feelings + making sure childhood me is okay
drinking a can of soda is better than not drinking anything at all. “junk” food is better than no food at all. just rinsing your mouth out with mouthwash is better than no oral hygiene at all. changing into a different set of pyjamas is better than not changing at all. getting up just to sit down on the chair across the room for a bit is better than not getting up at all. changing just your pillowcase is better than not changing your bedding at all. cracking a window open is better than getting no fresh air at all.
if you don’t have enough spoons for full tasks, smaller adaptations are better than nothing at all. it’s okay if you don’t have the energy to actively fight today. just staying afloat is enough. you are enough.
#not me being like#why the fuck am i hungry i ate SO much today#and then realizing i had#1) a shaken espresso#2) A muffin#3) 3 pieces of licorice (the fruity kind)#4) Half a veggie/hummus wrap from trader joes#5) a blueberry cream popsicle#like???#of course im hungry!!#thats (barely) two meals and its almost dinner time#and also babe wheres the fuckin protein??#me @ myself like: girl i love you but youre a mess#this is a lot compared to the last couple days tbh#but i gotta stop getting mad at my body for appropriate hunger fr fr