so cute yet fierce, is she from hell?

I think I was wrong earlier the only real benefit I get from being an anime drawer is I get to draw ppl with big shiny eyes I could honestly reach the same level of expression with better skill no matter which style I’m drawing in hdhdjdhksgsjdh

Ough the realism mines

I also just took my last Ketotifen as my online pharmacy says it is waiting for stock and I’m just like ok I REALLY hope it’s actually coming in bc I don’t wanna go off it for a long time again this month has been so good to me…

Mostly I’m trying to get myself ready to spend time on realism today and suddenly being aware I don’t want to bc it’s hard lmao if only I could draw my little creatures forever but alas!!!

A benefit I get from being an anime-trained artist is it gives me a little more permission to be “off model” if I think it will Sell an expression or image a little more. That’s a problem I’m running into in my Very Realism work atm; it sometimes feels flat to me to edit the work towards exact proportions and shapes. I know realism isn’t actually less expressive that would be insane how do we witness the emotion originally otherwise but I keep wanting to fudge the rules for the sake of expressiveness and keep having to reel it back in. Ultimately I think it’s partly about not being skilled enough to have both but I think my learned preference speaks to wanting to emphasize one set of ideals over another, for better or for worse

Inspires by drawing furries yesterday but I think a lot about how I feel like the furry artists I’ve watched in general over many years seem to have such a stronger understanding of planes in perspective than I do, or other artists who started primarily on human subjects. Since animal heads are more varied (more than one type of animal!!) and more clearly broken into large disparate planes has always been my assumption. Meanwhile anime-trained me has been trying to fit all facial features onto entirely flat planes like texture packs for 20 years hdjsgjdhdjj

I find furries “easier” to draw than humans and I know the only reason is because my eye is untrained on animal shapes and too trained on human shapes. So I can fuck up the same amount on each but the one I have practiced less will end up looking better TO ME but I genuinely don’t think I’m actually very good at drawing animals LMAO so it was kind of relaxing not trying to draw perfect human faces all day, and it helps that the references since it was fanart were also cartoony. I’m in for a shock when I go back to Full Realism Human Child Face for work tomorrow.

Omg I drew so much today in what was roughly what I’d consider “my old style” even tho it was furry characters and it felt so natural and fun. I think all this studying is really paying off. Ahhhh fun.