Meditation, eye roll

Recently, my emotional and mental landscape had become so overruling / overwhelming I began trying meditation through Headspace.

(mainly because my job offers it as a benefit + it was more easily accessible than requesting medical leave, applying for short term disability, and going to mental illness summer camp)

If considering the possibility that meditation may be an effective tool for the mental distress you are experiencing makes you cringe or maybe even irritated, I felt the same way before desperation had me grasping for straws.

Two weeks later and reporting that even in this short window of consistent effort, the benefit that keeps me showing up is that I have noticed I feel better equipped to control my emotions - rather than let my emotions guide my body and actions without consultation or consent.

I'm feeling more in control when entering environments where, inevitably, I of course am not able to control every variable and how they will make me feel. Historically, I have been vulnerable to spiraling - feeling like I was just at the mercy of however my brain chemicals might fire per setting.

Would love to know your thoughts on mindfulness and meditation <3