Have you ever been held like this by anyone? Not physically, but having a soul wrap around you like a warm blanket?
Music by Daniel Robinson.
I wanna hold you when I'm not supposed to, when I'm lying close to someone else. You're stuck in my head and I can't get you out of it. If I could do it all again, I know I'd go back to you...
thinking about how i’m going to be an absolute whore for the next person privileged enough to get me in bed
I can see that you're still adding songs to that spotify playlist that you created for me. It's been over a month since we last spoke to each other. I won't deny it, I fucking miss you. There are times when I just can't help myself but think about all the good things we shared. We were so good together. But I have to stay away so I can keep myself at peace as we do not have the same values when it comes to relationships. I totally respect your preference. It's just that I will not sabotage my own sanity in order to be with you. I chose myself over you. So selfish of me huh?!
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To that stupid naive girl I fell in love with I stil check for a good morning text from you and every morning I cry a little inside for it.
“Cause you never think the last time’s going to be the last time - you think there will be more. You think you have forever, but you don’t.”
— Meredith Grey, Grey’s Anatomy.
“I don’t know if people like me ever find love. I think I’m just the kind of person who loves. I’m always the one who loves without being loved in return.”
— unrequited love is my destiny
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““So you left me because I loved you too much? You won’t speak to me because the most poisonous thing that came off my skin was care? I loved you. I loved each and every part of you. I’m sorry I loved too much. I’m sorry I cared too much. I’m just plainly so sorry for all the fucked up things I did. But you know what I am the most sorry about? You know what makes me feel the worst? How I still love you just the same. It hurts thinking about you and looking back on what we had, it’s hell. But every day is going to get a little bit easier, at least that’s what I’m telling myself. And if that’s what it takes for me to slowly get over this I swear I will. Because I shouldn’t ever have to apologise for loving too much. There are so many people who love me and care about me and just because you don’t doesn’t mean you have the right to take away my will to love and show people how much I love them. But I am done with feeling bad for myself because of it. Because you lost someone who loved you to pieces. And what’d I actually lose? Someone who just didn’t care enough to stay.””
— B.L letters I never sent
Tonight is one of those nights where I am missing you like crazy, so much that I feel sick because that’s how much I crave you. I can’t stop thinking about how badly I want you. Not in a sexual way. I can’t stop thinking about your wavy hair and your beautiful brown eyes, I want to tell you how unbelievably beautiful you are. I can’t stop thinking about how badly I want to cuddle with you, I feel so safe in your arms. And how I want you to tell me about all the things you’ve been up to, it doesn’t matter if it’s nothing new. And when you laugh unexpectedly at something I say? It’s one of the best feelings ever, I can’t believe I made you smile. I hate clicking photos but I want to click silly and cute photos with you. I want to take you to my favorite place in the city and kiss you there. I want to send you memes and random messages, no thinking a hundred times before sending a hi. I want to buy you cute gifts, write you love letters, go stargazing, watch the sunset, oh god the list is never ending. I want to play with your hair, I want to hold hands and I want to do every one of those corny romantic things from romcoms. And most of all, I want you to want me too.
But you don’t want me and loving you is making me sick.
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You don't want me and loving you is making me sick but i can't let you go because i love the way it hurts. Self-destruction so beautiful.
DAAAAMN!!!!! 😭
I haven't heard anything from you again. It's been 4 days now. I am patiently waiting for you to call me or even text me a simple 'hey'. I guess you've met somebody else. That's ok. I understand. I just wish you told me that you no longer want me. But it's fine really. I guess I'm back to my old ways. Just to let you know, even if you suddenly text me in the middle of the night after months of no communication, I will still reply to your message with the same enthusiasm that I had when we first messaged each other.
No, letting him use your body isn’t going to help fill the void when he says he doesn’t want to love you. Unless you’re doing it for you, it’s doomed from the start. Don’t let people use you if the feelings aren’t mutual.
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Do you ever get the thought that you need a friend? You have people around and you maybe even have fun but at night when you lay in bed you have so much on your mind and you wish so bad for someone you could share these thoughts without getting judged? There are people around, you might even call them „a friend“ but you know deep down that you couldn‘t tell them the deep and sad things that goes through your head.
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No regrets
You know, for a long time I focused on myself. I thought I would never want to be in a relationship again. But then, one day, I thought maybe it's time to love again so I thought I should give it a try. Searched thru Bumble and Tinder but to no avail. Acquaintances trying to enter my life but I know they're up to no good so I did not let my walls break. Then I met you. That night, I truly felt happy. Akala ko magiging masaya na ako until a random thought hit me while you were asleep beside me. You are just too precious. You are just too precious to be with me. You can't be with someone like me. That's why I told you we should stay as friends and I don't want anything else. I fooled myself. I truly want to be with you but I'm a mess and I don't want to drag u down with me. Remember when I said I just want us to be fwb? Fuck that. I've had enough of that shit and this time I really want something real and that's the problem. I don't think you feel the same towards me but that's ok. Still worth a shot. All my life, I kept my mouth shut about things that kills me and just this once I want to be able to say what I feel. I don't want to regret things in the end. I've decided to tell you this cos ayun nga, I don't want regrets. You are a good person and i love you. Ganito lang ako the nonchalant cool girl but deep inside i'm just like any other girl, looking for validation. You don't have to respond to this, you may be confused rn and don't know what to say. But pls, just let me say this to you without you judging me. After you left me sa jeep, I felt sad kasi i realized I shouldn't have said that to you. That thing about me wanting us to be just friends cos in reality, that's the last thing I want. I really thought I could start something with you but I guess Im just unlucky. But hey, I'm still thankful to have met you that night. There, I said it. Okay na ko
#noregrets