im 'ok'

apparently I can't breathe anymore without someone calling me a god damn slut all the time. it fucking sucks because all I wanna do is fucking change and I have and then all of the sudden these guys that I honestly couldn't give two shits about come around and call me a slut. I hate them, I hate myself, I hate fucking life and now all I wanna do is die. it's time to take me god because im done trying.

the fact that my mom just walked in on me last night and didn't realize that i was balling makes me break inside even more.