I’m the prettiest but I’m also the fucking saddest

I smoke cigarettes when I’m alone

That balcony patio of ours.. I laugh while I cry

I don’t know if anyone will ever love me that bad again

I wonder if you ever think about them too

Too many moments I wish I could touch again

I’ve cried too much tonight

I’ve realized too much lately

Mostly about myself

But you too

I want whiskey on the rocks @ 13555 Gateway Dr

Nothing aged me more than the nights of crying

I wish you knew where I’ve been and what I’ve seen.

Seaminglessly effortless

My ptsd and demons havin a hay day in my head these past two days and I would really love to isolate and cut everybody out. But I know next week I’ll regret it.