I want to finish my books but there is something that prevents me and honestly I don't know what it could be.

Quiero terminar mis libros pero hay algo que me lo impide y sinceramente no se que pueda ser :(

How can I be happy?

Quisiera gritar todo lo que siento y sacar todo lo que me tengo guardado pero no puedo, soy cobarde y no me atrevo a hacerlo.

Vida de mierda simplemente

What the hell am I doing with my life?

Estoy en la universidad y no se que hacer con mi vida, me gusta lo que estoy estudiando pero no me siento feliz.

A veces me preguntan mucho del porque no me doy la oportunidad de salir o estar con alguien y es como ¿Cómo te explico que no salgo con nadie porque he estado enamorada de la misma persona de hace 4 años y nunca hemos sido nada?, aunque ciertas veces lo hemos intentando pero no surge nada.

FUCK.

I am overweight and my self-esteem is down to the ground, I started doing exercise since my birthday is approaching and I want to keep a skirt, it required vomiting and doing the exercise at an extreme level, I know it's not right but I really want to lose weight , I have been so traumatized with this, since even my parents themselves say that I must stop my mouth and stop eating sweets and others, I lost 4 kilos in two days and now it went up again and traumatized me. I do not know what to do.

I'm no happy with my life.

Intente ir a mi realidad deseada pero hubo un momento en que no senti mi cuerpo y me espante, se que eso es normal en el shifting pero tuve miedo y en pleno cambio de realidad abrí los estupidos ojos.

I tried to go to my desired reality but there was a moment when I did not feel my body and it scared me, I know that is normal in shifting but I was afraid and in full change of reality I opened my stupid eyes

I was not accepted in the career that I really wanted and now I will have to study a career that you can be honest if I like it but not completely, although I still do not know if I will stay in the university, I do not want to take the exam again and I hope I do not know I filled the university quota to be accepted automatically, I hope only that, and next year I will take the entrance exam again for the career that I was rejected this year.

The ideologies that exist today after machismo is common, although the mentality of people so retrograde I do not understand how it is that although a thousand years pass these ideologies will never end that by the inclusion of being women we can make food and men not because it is. Fuck those stupid beliefs. We are in 2021, in the 21st century, not in the 19th or the time when our parents were relatively raised.

#machismo #mexico #feminist #fuckmachismo

I am a little grateful that things are already looking up for myself and my family.

I am worth nothing.

My grandmother died yesterday and today we are taking her to the cemetery. My head has already had a lot these last few months and now the death of my only remaining grandmother has made my head collapse.

Does life hate me? because I think so, it was not more than 2 months since my cousin died, and now my grandmother has been very serious in the hospital, she has been ill since December but things cannot be worse. My family has already been through a lot in recent months, and I don't want to have one more death in my family, especially my grandmother who is the only one I have now. I ask God to please help us. But he never seems to hear me.