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the hardest part of having breakdowns is having to clean up all the loser depressing msgs after its over and pretend nothin happened it’s so awkward?? Like “oops sorry I sent that 10 sentence message about how much I want to die, im ok now so how are u lol” 

this is me atm

you don’t need me in your life anymore. you’ve got her and she’s got a way better body than me and probably a better personality too. sometimes I picture you two together watching a movie on the couch or out bowling and to be honest it makes me feel sick even though i swore to god I was over you. i guess with distance I’ll stop missing this game we played but more likely I’ll just get more nostalgic and you’ll just get more indifferent and i hope it’s not gonna stay like this. i hope we don’t ignore each other forever.

sorry for the radio silence today, I think the last gift you want is a message from me– lily rain (via wont-time-love-us)

he says “its okay I like sad girls” and i think about telling him about the breakdown I had in French class but I don’t because it wasn’t pretty. it was me sitting on the floor with my head in my hands quietly crying and everyone pretending they couldn’t hear me. it was curious looks in the hallway when the bell rang and me ruining a maybe relationship before it ever started. unstableness isn’t art it’s just constantly shaking underneath your skin it’s not speaking a word during lunch its paranoia it’s paranoia it’s paranoia. so tell me again how you like sad girls. tell me again how you can fix me.

SHE SAYS “SORRY YOU’RE SO UNGRATEFUL” I SAY “I’M JUST TRYING NOT TO JUMP OFF A BRIDGE”– lily rain (via wont-time-love-us)

I’m so detached and distant and cold at times, but I swear if you spark my interest, I can become so clingy and you’ll become so important to me and I will put so much of my time and effort towards you. But then you’ll get tired of me.