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here’s the thing:

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Writer, she/her, lesbian, pretty deaf. ThatAloneOne on AO3. Ask me to tag anything.
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i avoid printers at all costs but deep down i think i should've been a printer. life so easy. i sit there all squarelike and when someone has a minor task for me i goFUCK YOU

I mean, obviously House is a horrible boss but at least he's an equal opportunities horrible boss. Most horrible bosses will treat you like shit but THEN talk to you about "disrespect" when you try to stand up for yourself.

When House's employees drug or stalk or blackmail or insult or physically assault him right back, he just goes "Great game, guys!" at the end of the episode and high-fives everyone.

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windows is a grift designed to get you to use bing by accident. every ui element is a will o the wisp trying to lure you into the bing bog

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Remind me to make a longer post about this later, but I think there's an interesting similarity in the way nonbinary (or genderqueer people in general) talk about the nuances of their gender and how people really big into specific music scenes talk about the nuances of the genres they listen to. Like there's the description you give other people in your community, and the "normie" description you give to people who aren't as familiar. And "genre" and "gender" are both constructs in similar ways too. Just my little binary observation tho.

I'll expand more on this later. But anyway, start asking people what genre they are and what gender of music they listen to.

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here's that longer post, but keep in mind i'm halfway through a bottle of soju rn

so as a binary trans person, i often had a difficult time understanding the really specific genders and gender identities i'll see. obviously i'll still support them, but i had trouble understanding. and that's just because my gender journey has been different.

sometimes (in less than positive circles) i'll see bad faith arguments against people with these genders like "the census isn't going to mark you down as 'catgender' lmao" which is annoying because i've never seen anyone say that?

the thesis of this post started to prickle in my head when i saw genderqueer mutuals of mine reblogging that post that was like "what is the gender identity you describe yourself as around cis people, and what's the specific one you actually identify as?" reading through people's responses and the way they described the nuances of their genders made me go

"oh shit, it's all music"

because if i'm listening to altar of plagues and my coworker asks what kind of music i'm listening to, i'm just going to say "metal". and if my grandma asks, i'll just say "rock". but if i'm talking to another person who i know is familiar with metal, that's when i feel like i wouldn't be wasting my breath going into specifics. because i know they'd know how describing a band as "black metal" is different than describing one as "power metal" or whatever.

that's what a lot of bad faith arguments around nonbinary genders don't seem to realize. they're not for the cishet majority to understand. i'd even argue that they're not for binary trans people to understand either, considering it took me this long to understand.

but it seems like when people talk about their gender through the lens of anything that goes beyond just male, female, or even strictly nonbinary, it comes from a place of wanting to discuss the nuances of gender identity.

like here's an interaction between two hip-hop heads that has never happened:

person 1: i like memphis rap -- specifically horrorcore.

person 2: okay, i have no followup questions. let's talk about something that has nothing to do with rap or music.

like if someone is coming out as cloudgender to you, it's because they think you're someone who can hang and talk about what that means. what does "cloudgender" mean to you? is it the constantly-shifting state? the association with the weather? the moodiness? the same way two people could have a 6 hour heated discussion about the differences between delta blues and hill country blues, but if you played a charley patton song back to back with an rl burnside song, some people who aren't familiar with blues won't be able to tell the difference. you might as well play the same song twice. so if someone identifies as a demigirl in some circles but to you they just say they're nonbinary or even just "female", they clocked you as a gender normie lol.

and just like gender, genre "doesn't exist", but it still has societal impact. a lot of the blues i listen to wouldn't sound out of place next to country artists. where are the lines? race? class? culture? all of the above? and this becomes muddier when you look at marketing. being plastered with a specific genre can be the kiss of death for your mainstream career, or the thing that pushes you to the top. it's a social construct, but we are social people.

anyway, i hope this makes sense. as a binary trans person i'm not sure where i fit in this analogy. maybe it's like i listened to a bunch of specific subgenres and went like "yeah these all scratch the same itch for me". but if people find meaning within the nichest of niche genres, i think that's amazing. you are an onion and you just kept peeling. when i see people with identities like bloodgender or flowergender, i see someone with a much more nuanced and complex relationship with their gender than i ever could have. i see poetry. i see music.

the booze is catching up with me.

someone mentioned it in the notes but ‘genre’ is gender in french, they are the same latin word. this concept is not just similar or analogous - it is literally the same concept

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This is an amazing way to think about it, and it feels exactly how I feel about what words I use in what context about my gender

AOS Spock *speaking at TOS Spock's funeral*: I was like a father to me. I don't mean that while I was growing up I had to parent myself because my father sucked, which is also true, but no. I'm taking about Spock Prime. Who was a better father to me than my sucky, sucky father. Who, Spock Prime informed me, sucked in his universe as well.
Sarek: I know, but hey.

Babygirl I go through spoons faster than you can even imagine

Everyone tagging this "I thought this was about spoon theory": that works too. Here, you can have this post. It's yours now. If you need me I'll be emptying my ungodly overfilled cutlery bin from the dishwasher.

Why is it just canon that regardless of light or darkside ending, Bastila spends the rest of her life trying and failing to answer the question “How did you two meet?” first before Revan smoothly, casually cuts in with “I won her in a swoop race”.

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Tried to think of a word for a post not associated with fandom shit and instead of the obvious “non-fandom”‚ my brain spat out “secular”

professors who have only interacted with other academics for years: “what do you MEAN you don’t know multi-variable calculus yet??”

professors with small kids: “thank you for not putting the lab equipment in your mouths when I turn my back”

Bringing this back to share that one time I slept through part of a zoom meeting with my PhD advisor (who has a toddler) and he told me it was fine, that just meant I was a good sleeper

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Made myself laugh over the idea of the next doctor picking up Donna as a companion again because "this life will be about owning my past and that means fixing mistakes instead of running".

Of course she has no idea how to easily fix the meta crisis issue, but figures if Donna is in the Tardis the Tardis will guide them to help eventually.

Yaz reminds the Doctor of the potential that remembering could break Donna's mind but the Doctor waves her off citing the following reasons.

1. Donna travelled with a male doctor who wasn't nearly as emotionally mature (Dan looks at the camera like he's in The Office)

2. The Tardis looks super different to how it did back then (especially if it's had another console change with the new regen)

3. Before it was the DoctorDonna, this time it'll be DoctorYazDanDonna, and that's way too much of a mouthful to be part any time converging prophecies

4. She has an awesome costume idea to help separate the mental image of the old doctor and Tardis from the new ones in Donna's mind, just as an extra layer of separation to keep things safe.

Anyway, some random morning in 2022, Donna Noble is putting her bins out only to find a strange woman with a fake moustache, standing with two thoroughly resigned looking people, next to a big blue box that's parked right where her bins need to be for pick up.

The blue box also has a fake moustache stuck onto it.

You ever think about how Hondo and Darth Vader may have met at some point and how Hondo wouldn’t have been able to shut up about how he’s captured a Sith before and how he can do it again –

Pan to an angry Vader

and how he also captured two Jedi, one was a little young so it wasn’t that big a deal

*Heavy breathing*

and the other eventually became his best friend

*incomprehensible rage*