lovers while we sleep

the thing about being an ex-suicidal person is that those thoughts never really leave you. like now whenever i get mildly distressed my brain is like “maybe we should get in the sea and never get out” like bitch NO!!!! we dont do that anymore!!!!!!!

girls be like, "why do i have such high standards in men?" my sister in christ you read Jane Austen

Rainer Maria Rilke, Letters of Rainer Maria Rilke, 1892-1910

im going to come out and say it: isolating is a self-destructive behavior. it might not be as obvious and immediately self-destructive as say, impulsive spending, drug use or risky behaviors, but it gradually decays relationships and can deepen your mental health issues. often, our impulse is to retreat from others and responsibilities for “self care” or to “work on ourselves” and obviously sometimes we need mental health breaks, but there’s a line you cross from “taking a break” to full on neglecting your relationships with others and your social needs that can be incredibly damaging to yourself and others over time

Rebecca Solnit, Recollections of my Nonexistence.

Even medieval monks complained about their jobs!

There is no bitching like bitching in enormously expensive creations. 

Oh, my hand.

I have probably reblogged this before but WHO CARES

IT’S STILL HILARIOUS

This is why I love people. Every time I think I hate everybody I should remember that people have been being PEOPLE for so long and it’s brilliant and I should embrace it all.

Shoutout to the last dude, having an existential crisis in the middle of work. Relatable.

— Frédéric Chopin, from a letter to Auguste Franchomme wr. c. August 1848

Teofil Kwiatkowski - Chopin On His Deathbed (October 1849)

Died on this day…

Adaptations have two types of Heathcliff:

- Brooding and slightly evil English gentleman

- Absolutely wild agent of chaos that eats mud and drinks raindrops and can’t function in society

Sometimes a Heathcliff in a movie will be a mix of both.

The actual Heathcliff from the book is neither of these things. He is a surly and rude rural landlord that can perfectly function in society on a normal day and is fairly capable of doing things that he sets his mind to do but he is also very authoritative, not really educated and capable of getting very emotional or angry when his buttons are pushed. He is a functioning human being up until the very end and is composed enough that someone like Lockwood can consider him to be a potential friend and be very surprised when he reveals that he believes in ghosts, but he is also very much devoid of politeness or refinement of any kind. He is not Sir Laurence Olivier but nor is he a crazy wild child.

(Douglas Jefferson, Irresistible Narrative: The Art of “Wuthering Heights”)

Sometimes you struggle to remember what any of your teacher's or classmates faces looked like. Other times the right Linkin Park song lines everything up and you experience every bus ride you've ever been on simultaneously

‘relationships are work’ means ‘you have to put effort into loving each other intentionally & learning how to love each other and communicating properly’ not ‘your relationship makes you feel stressed and sad most of the time & the other person disrespects you and treats you bad but you stay anyway’

friends to enemies to lovers is actually something that can be so intimate. i know you i know everything about you i have told you all my deepest secrets and you have told me yours and now i am trying to kill you literally or metaphorically because hate and love are separated by a very thin line and i don’t know which side i am on

“Oh, we’ll still hate each other, my dear, we have hated each other too long and too passionately to stop… but my bones will rest easy next to your bones.” Harrow the Ninth, Tamsyn Muir

sometimes im like…..what is the point of all this ??? and then i hang out with the people i love, and for a brief moment, i see

bro oh my god … vanilla extract

vanilla extract smells wonderful but tastes horrific on its own. but mixed with sugar and flour and cream it tastes just like it smells. we need the support of others to reach our full potential

no man is an island everyone is vanilla extract

Yves Olade, from When Rome Falls; Bloodsport, 2017

We’ll never die

Do you like enemies to lovers because it’s hot or do you like enemies to lovers because you think of yourself as unlovable & unworthy of love and therefore like the idea of someone seeing all the worst in you right away and still falling in love with you anyways