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Nadja. She/Her. Writer from Germany. Battling Anxiety and Panic Disorder. Autistic. Likes villains. Multifandom and Poetry. ~ Links: AO3 ~ Twitter ~ Langblr Sideblog ~ Goodreads ~ Medium
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*URL changed: stories-in-howls > words-in-starless-skies* About me: I'm a teacher and writer from Germany. I'm autistic. I've been battling anxiety and panic disorder for most of my life. After therapy and a lot of hard work, I'm finally at a point where I can deal with it in a healthy way most days. This blog is multifandom, but I'm also posting my poems here from time to time. You might encounter triggering topics like childhood trauma, abuse, etc. But I'm usually tagging everything. Should I forget a tag, feel free to remind me to add one!

Current Writing Projects:

For me, writing is a form of therapy and part of my recovery.

I'm currently writing a lot of fanfiction again. Blame Shadow and Bone / The Grishaverse for it. It became a hyper fixation.

Meanwhile, I'm working on two poetry collections: One for poems about anxiety / trauma / recovery and one about the different kinds of loss one can experience in life.

I'm also writing a collection of short stories about what it feels like to grow up feeling different.

"Dear Anxiety"

One of my goals is to talk about anxiety as much as possible because that's often seen as taboo and because there are many misconceptions about anxiety disorder (or it's simply not noticed or not taken seriously enough, because it's not a "visible" disorder). For this, I created a publication on Medium, called "Dear Anxiety", where people can share their experiences with anxiety and panic disorder. If you want to check the website and the publication out, it's here: Dear Anxiety – Medium

#writeblr#multifandom#writer intro
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my real opinion is that if you feel like you have to write a paragraph of apology on a public social media site because you were offline longer than eight hours, because you accidentally reblogged something, or because you’ve changed fandoms or anything of that ilk, then your experience online is not healthy for you. you don’t have to hold yourself to imaginary standards set by strangers that you’ll most likely never interact with. if it gets to that level, step away from being online. find yourself again and do things that aren’t digital validation. i promise you it’s a thousand times less stressful and better for you to learn how to manage your online presence properly.

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Neil Gaiman and the Good Omens team deserve so much better than to have something like this spoiled. It's one thing for Amazon Prime to accidentally spoil something, but it's entirely something else for "fans" to keep sharing the photo/video around.

It's just over a month to wait. I'm sure you're capable of waiting that long. Aziraphale and Crowley waited 11 years to see if their plans worked out, you can wait a month for season two.

And, no, I won't give context if you don't know what I'm talking about. Keep it that way. Show the show some respect.

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This.

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To make it clear, I'm not upset with the fans, whether they shared anything or not, although I would greatly prefer that the leaked stuff goes away, or at least is tagged in ways that allows people who don't want to be spoiled to avoid it, and would request that you don't further share it.

#thanks amazon and tumblr 😑#something so nice shouldn’t make me so grumpy#good omens spoilers
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sowhatnotcreative asked:

You (a male) was made uncomfortable by women defining women as female? The misogyny is staggering.

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neil-gaiman answered:

Oh, bless your transphobic heart. I'm not made uncomfortable by anyone defining anyone as anything. I'm saddened by anyone adding to the pain and grief and suffering of this world, and I feel that transphobic definitions of gender, forcing people born female to identify as female, forcing people born male to identify as male, forcing intersex people to identify as whatever their families or doctors decide to impose on them, just adds heartbreak to an already difficult world.

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If you are ever thinking of an autistic person and say to yourself "I never really have to make any/many accomodations for them."

Yeah.

That is because WE are the ones making the accomodations for YOU.

You always hear about how we need all this support and patience but no one ever talks about the sacrafices ASD people make for he NTs in our lives that they never even see or know about.

Oh, you think I am "well spoken?" Thats cuz i spent a ridiculous amount of time rehearsing my lines and facial expressions to make sure they meet your liking.

I don't seem to have any sensory issues? My guy, i have nerve damage from raw dogging the pain. You ever watch a lactose intolerant person eat dairy? They aint gonna shit their pants in front of you. You dont have to follow them into he bathroom to believe them.

Oh you mean you dont remember me ever having a meltdown? I locked myself on the bathroom to have my "temper tantrums" in private since i was 5 years old.

You think I dont stim? Let me roll up my sleeves and show you the gashes and scars from clawing myself under my shirt. The inside of my mouth looks like a crime scene. I can taste the blood. You cant. I would much rather be "squirming" or wearing very strong perfume but i know that bothers people so i find another way.

You think i am "smart?" Yeah i might be, but that is because i am constantly using my problem solving skills to quietly and covertly solve problems i am not "supposed" to have. Problems that would never even occur to you. Problems you would never even know about because i am fucking terrified of what people would say if they knew it takes me 3 hours to get dressed and shower sometimes.

I have given myself perminant nerve damage just because i was afraid to make other people even a little uncomfy.

You understand body language because it comes naturally to you.

I understand body language because it comes naturally to you.

We are not the same.

#yeah...#autism#you become a pro in masking#you have to
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Happy Birthday, Dear Ghost

Sunday summer phone call comes to nothing all this futile beeping probably won’t reach you till fall again I offered you refused now I’m being ghosted but you’re the one haunted by the past I imagine you drowning in dust trapped in all the cobwebs you collected when you said nothing ever changes well I do won’t wait whole days for you to call back not anymore it’s not my task to keep this relationship alive I’m too busy growing and collecting sunshine go and haunt yourself till eternity if you must happy birthday dear ghost I have enough

#poem#poetry#poets on tumblr#poetry on tumblr#spilled ink#original poetry#my writing#recovery poem#ghosted by my own mother lol#six months gone without a word and i have enough of being the one always reaching out