It's strange, while I'm definitely a "bird fan" but I don't think I would actually consider myself a "bird watcher." So my response to seeing a rare bird much flatter than even I expected.

This happened the other day

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It's strange, while I'm definitely a "bird fan" but I don't think I would actually consider myself a "bird watcher." So my response to seeing a rare bird much flatter than even I expected.

OuiOui Dango

Thinking about a post I can't find that goes something like "Wish researchers would stop trying to find a "cure" to autism and instead focus on actually helping people" because I would like to not feel pain anytime my daily routine changes thank you!

Folks online talk a lot about sensory pain, which is good! but I barley hear anyone talk about the pain that comes from routine changes, besides maybe from a last minute cancellation. The pain that comes from a major change in routine like the transition from school to summer break can be agonizing, even through I am anticipating it and ready for it!

My current transition is very difficult in part due to the grief of two family members I am also dealing with, but even without that I would describe the pain caused by routine changes being similar to the pain of grief. I hesitate to make such a loaded comparison but I do think the pain stems from a similar place. The only emotional pain really talked about in society is the pain from grief, heartbreak, and betrayal. I hesitated to share my feelings in the past or ask from help with them because "the transition from school to summer causes me almost physical pain" is vague and hard to understand for allistics. I hope "major changes in daily routine causes a pain similar to the death of a love one or a bad breakup" makes my pain and feelings more understandable to those around me.

It is difficult to find resources and advice for dealing with major routine change and grief in general for autistics. Even in adult autistic spaces I have trouble finding help. Most common advice is "wait it out!" (so be in agony for one to two weeks..), "create a new schedule similar to the old one" (difficult to do when the routine change is major and I'm also dealing with typical school burn out...), and "try recreational drugs" (not actually advice but how many people deal with emotional pain; I don't want to do this).

Best advice I got was the only resource I found on grief for austitics by an austistic person. "Autistic Grief Is Not Like Neurotypical Grief" suggests learning something new or taking up a new hobby to help process the change and overwhelm. After I learned my grandfather was diagnosed with terminal cancer I dove headfirst into learning about how to sell and manufacture products with my artwork. I learned I liked making stickers at home and thought cutting them by hand by relaxing. Even at my lowest points today I found respite by looking at vograce and thinking "hmm the prices for keychains are lower than I remember..."

Funny now that I think of it, before reading this article I was already self regulating by getting into new things. It's basically tradition at this point that I always get a new game (or get back into minecraft lol) at every school break. I thought I was just rewarding myself for a job well done at school, I didn't realize I was self regulating!

I had to go to my grandfathers funeral last weekend, it was incredibly difficult. But a couple days before I had downloaded Dragon Quest Monsters 2 3D and that game ended up being the only consistent comfort during that whole ordeal...

I would still like researchers to look into why people like me have such an intense reaction to routine change and how to alleviate the pain in a consistent way. But I guess buying a new $10 indie is not the worst way to deal with it for now...

Thinking about a post I can't find that goes something like "Wish researchers would stop trying to find a "cure" to autism and instead focus on actually helping people" because I would like to not feel pain anytime my daily routine changes thank you!

Folks online talk a lot about sensory pain, which is good! but I barley hear anyone talk about the pain that comes from routine changes, besides maybe from a last minute cancellation. The pain that comes from a major change in routine like the transition from school to summer break can be agonizing, even through I am anticipating it and ready for it!

My current transition is very difficult in part due to the grief of two family members I am also dealing with, but even without that I would describe the pain caused by routine changes being similar to the pain of grief. I hesitate to make such a loaded comparison but I do think the pain stems from a similar place. The only emotional pain really talked about in society is the pain from grief, heartbreak, and betrayal. I hesitated to share my feelings in the past or ask from help with them because "the transition from school to summer causes me almost physical pain" is vague and hard to understand for allistics. I hope "major changes in daily routine causes a pain similar to the death of a love one or a bad breakup" makes my pain and feelings more understandable to those around me.

It is difficult to find resources and advice for dealing with major routine change and grief in general for autistics. Even in adult autistic spaces I have trouble finding help. Most common advice is "wait it out!" (so be in agony for one to two weeks..), "create a new schedule similar to the old one" (difficult to do when the routine change is major and I'm also dealing with typical school burn out...), and "try recreational drugs" (not actually advice but how many people deal with emotional pain; I don't want to do this).

Best advice I got was the only resource I found on grief for austitics by an austistic person. "Autistic Grief Is Not Like Neurotypical Grief" suggests learning something new or taking up a new hobby to help process the change and overwhelm. After I learned my grandfather was diagnosed with terminal cancer I dove headfirst into learning about how to sell and manufacture products with my artwork. I learned I liked making stickers at home and thought cutting them by hand by relaxing. Even at my lowest points today I found respite by looking at vograce and thinking "hmm the prices for keychains are lower than I remember..."

Thinking about a post I can't find that goes something like "Wish researchers would stop trying to find a "cure" to autism and instead focus on actually helping people" because I would like to not feel pain anytime my daily routine changes thank you!

Folks online talk a lot about sensory pain, which is good! but I barley hear anyone talk about the pain that comes from routine changes, besides maybe from a last minute cancellation. The pain that comes from a major change in routine like the transition from school to summer break can be agonizing, even through I am anticipating it and ready for it!

My current transition is very difficult in part due to the grief of two family members I am also dealing with, but even without that I would describe the pain caused by routine changes being similar to the pain of grief. I hesitate to make such a loaded comparison but I do think the pain stems from a similar place. The only emotional pain really talked about in society is the pain from grief, heartbreak, and betrayal. I hesitated to share my feelings in the past or ask from help with them because "the transition from school to summer causes me almost physical pain" is vague and hard to understand for allistics. I hope "major changes in daily routine causes a pain similar to the death of a love one or a bad breakup" makes my pain and feelings more understandable to those around me.

Thinking about a post I can't find that goes something like "Wish researchers would stop trying to find a "cure" to autism and instead focus on actually helping people" because I would like to not feel pain anytime my daily routine changes thank you!

Folks online talk a lot about sensory pain, which is good! but I barley hear anyone talk about the pain that comes from routine changes, besides maybe from a last minute cancellation. The pain that comes from a major change in routine like the transition from school to summer break can be agonizing, even through I am anticipating it and ready for it!

Monster Party OuiOui

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Teeny Sanguini fanart + Slime burger

Teeny Sanguini fanart + Slime burger