Growing
12.02.23
You make me soft
You make me humble
Without you I am shallow
You grow my flowers
And cut my thorns
For I do not cut
Neither you nor them
Nor myself again
And so I adore you
Because there is no
Life worth having
Titles or prestige aside
If you are not by my side
Can you believe it?
20.06.23
Delighted to have met
Some very bad people
When I was younger
I write in summer heat
At peace and home
Learned some lessons
About people and me
And so I am free today
To be grown up and
More whole than ever
Some might say a
Healthy and happy person
More or less I might say
Simple
24.05.23
And just like that
You love me
Plea
20.06.23
Being queen of suppression
With thirteen was fine
Our radius of action nonexistent
But being queen of suppression
With almost thirty today
Not cute anymore and you
Might lose him or worse yourself
And you have lost me at some point
Face the dark or light escapes you
I am nonetheless sorry all happened
Make me better
19.06.23
2am and we stood there
Watching, waiting
Just making sure
As sure as I was grumpy
But fuck it: you asked for it
And you were right, make sure
Everyone is fine and then
We can sleep sound again
V
16.06.23
The cruelest act is disregard
Being spoken to but not responding
Imagining the world and its residents
A certain way but never speaking mind
Knowing that someones longs for it
Waiting for an explanation always
The only way to break it is to give in
You may think no one is listening
Well, you never spoke, so yes, silence
Can become too loud to keep listening to
To Prado
16.06.23
Too clear to not write
Not clear enought to find the right ones
And doves land and drink
It is a piece of heavenly earth
Or earthly heaven, at least it is with you
Sharing, loving, becoming
Not solely thinking and writing
Makes a life whole I believe
Alternative endings
11.06.23
I dissect words, take them apart sometime
Look for their roots and layering for fun
Quite like a doctor looks below surface
Or a sociologist behind social curtains
It is a romantic character trait I feel
Takes some times and some space
Within the endless well of thoughts
Most humans do not submerge too far
There are many things beneath water lining
Some can bite, I know and understand
All the things we could have been too
And will never be and then search words for
I am quite happy with my designations
Humble
11.06.23
What should I tell you
I fear the words; I fear the silence
And children do things they giggle about
Again and again, looking for that rush
Hedonistic to their mark and I
Search it too but boredom
Becomes one of the great enemies
They talk of intelligence
And I do recall it in you friend but
My mother said a thousand years ago
If you are bored find something to do
Quite a strong existentialism
Although she would then and now
Have no idea what I mean by that
And is Satre something to eat
Well, I read against boredom, waiting
For the times to leave for good
And only return on my terms
What should I tell you what happiness is
Not priming you too far; being judgemental
It is different for anyone at anytime
Still I feel it being one with a moment
No will to be somewhere someone else
Might it be help enough for you
Finding your own steps to that place
♾
08.06.23
We become strangely impatient
We can be one already, moreso we are
Still you and me want to share the symbol
Binding you to me and me to you
For all of time for two circles form ♾
Dream of you
04.06.23
There is a dream of you
An echo in the dark
Of your silhoutte coming nearer
Warmth, skin, hair and breath
Radiating off your being
The dream of watching afar
Never to be touched but think
Of you endlessly and more
The pedestal to put one on
It is the height of romance
Me saying: you are not perfect
But perfect to and for me
Keep that dream of you
Inbetween our white sheets
Inbetween everday life and other
Quite real promises of rings
Keep that dream but see more
There is pink and there is colour
And dangers kreeping nearer outside
Untouchable within our cloud
High, oh so high above in the sun
Timeline 18
17.05.23
I chose to go
Turn away from bad
I chose to go
Ran from toxic before
I chose to go
And find me somehow
Then you found me
Now I choose to stay
Because of you
Just you
And we
STOP WARS
17.05.23
Three times
'STOP WARS'
Three times
To set me free
Three times
'STOP WARS'
Three times
.
And my heart was calm
Alas not much had changed
And I did not know I needed it
But in my mind I've run it over
One hundred times or more
That sign from me at least and
Particular Mahnmal for you
Nothing further
14.05.23
All we learnt
And all we've been taught
Was effort
If you exert well
You will suffice
This could not
Be further from truth
To love
To truly love
Means no effort
You breathe
And I love you for it
Nothing else
Which one
18.05.23
And just like that
That that that
You tell me what
What what what
I could not believe
Letter of love
12.05.23
You kiss even better in the dark
When you hold me and we giggle
So small and so strong together
You kiss even better in the dark
Being just us without the noise
Of the day and of tasks
We kiss and we transform
Questions to answers
And love to magnificence
Effort
11.05.23
It is a question
Of who you want to be
And where do you come from
But for me it cuts deeper
It is a question of good life
And only health for health's sake
Is not sensible to me
I want to feel alive
Does not need to be bungee jumping
Also I am afraid of heights
But an inner satisfaction
Of taking up space in this world
Which is overcrowded anyhow
Not sure if you got that
Looking at only the green
Not seeing the beauty of flowers
Resembles
28.04.23
I echo you
In my face
Mimic you
Subconsciously
Like a faint idea
A wave arriving
Through time
Creating prods
To be closer
To you with me
Or to resemble
Unwillingly
And try to change
