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Never Alone

Billy Hargrove x Eddie Munson x Fem!reader

A/n: Sorry for the longe wait. This chapter is pretty short but I'm still happy with it. Still not sure where this story is going or hoe it will end but I like where I'm taking it. Thanks for the love of this series. More to come.

Part 4

Y/n’s Pov 

Darkness. That’s all I saw around me, total darkness. It felt like I couldn’t feel my own body as darkness surrounded me. I screamed out to the void not getting a response, I don’t know here I am or what happened, but I didn’t like being here. “Eddie! Billy! Hello!” Nothing but a dark black abbas giving me no sense of direction. I was lost, alone and scared. I felt my heart rate pick up as my body began to shake as I screamed out for the two people that mean the world to me who can possibly save me from this void. “HELP!!” I fell to my knees in despair just wanting to go home. Then something in the void changed, I heard something in the distance and began to follow it. The sound became louder as I moved farther into the darkness. Once I was close enough, I could finally hear Eddie and Billy’s voices but not just them talking, they were singing. Singing my song. I felt tears leave my eyes as I began running to their voices hoping to come across my boys in this darkness. Their voices were fading in and out, but I could still hear them. “Eddie, Billy! Can you hear me? Hello? Help me!” The sound of them singing was then behind me which made me turn around. Behind me was a big blue door with a silver handle, I slowly walked towards it cautiously not knowing where it would take me but knowing my boys were in this direction. 

I place my hand on the handle opening the door. The sight that I walked into was hard to take in, it was a hospital room all around the area was still in a black void but the hospital bed, monitor and my boys sitting at the end of the bed remained. I walked through the threshold of the door and began to feel tears in my eyes as I listened to my boys sing my song. I was about to speak to them when I finally noticed who was on the hospital bed. I then came face to face with myself sleeping soundly but breathing rapidly, I sat on the bed looking at myself not believing what I’m seeing but not questioning it from how much we’ve all been through these last few years, with the upside down and Vecna, I’m glad thats all behind us and we can move on. I looked back at my boys where they came to the last verse making me smile at them and place my hand on both of theirs. The second they finished the song all my worry was gone, and I was happy to see them again. My body finally stopped shaking and all the monitors stopped beeping wildly and went back to normal. “She’s ok Ed’s” I smile at hearing their voices “Yea wait till she finds out we know her favorite song.” I laugh along with Billy “Yea will never hear the end of it.” I nod “No you both wont.” After they spoke their voices disappeared and a bright light was coming from the door I walked through. I warm feeling came over me as I walked closer to it, I wasn’t really paying attention to what I was doing or where it would go until I heard my heart monitor beep slower, and I immediately moved away. I tested it by walking back to the bed hearing the monitor go back to normal. I realize that wherever I am is giving me a choice to either stay or leave. A big decision I never thought I would have to make. If I leave and say goodbye to my boys forever or do I stay with them but must deal with this town and Jason that caused all this to happen, not only that but by now I assume the doctors would know my real age and take me away anyway. It’s a lose-lose situation. I move away from the door and sit back onto the bed where Billy and Eddie sit, I watch as they look after me while also looking stressed out themselves. Would it be easier for all of us if I just accepted what happened to me as a sign to just give up? Billy and Eddie would have normal lives again, be able to do the things they want without me stopping them. But if I stay, will everything change or be the same? Would the doctors have someone take me away right away or give me time? Not that I own anything anymore, it's all gone. Nowhere to live, nothing but the clothes on my back, I know the boys would just have me stay with them, but I couldn’t ask them to do that. I don’t want to be a burden. I got out of my head looking at my boys talk amongst each other never taking their hands away from mine, knowing that they would do anything for me. And I know they wouldn’t want to give up, especially not on us. I can feel the pull from the door beckoning me to enter and leave for good, but I can't not with so many people who care about me. I stood up from my seat and came face to face with the door giving myself a big sigh “I can’t I’m not ready.” The door then immediately shut, and the pull was gone. 

I turned back to the bed and saw my body was glowing a light blue and beckoned me to it. I took one last look at my boys knowing that I made the right choice, we would be better if were together. So, I took a deep breath and placed my hand onto my own which sent of a bright like taking me into darkness. The feeling of air coming back into my lungs hit me like a train as my eyes shot open making me see nothing but blurry images and hearing soft voices. I felt feeling come back into my body as I moved all my muscles and took a deep breath which caused me to cough a little. My eyes finally adjusted to everything around me, and I found myself in a hospital room surrounded by people I love including my boys. Tears suddenly left my eyes as they both looked in my direction, all I remember is Jason leaving me to die and thinking I would never see them again but seeing in front of me brought me to realize that everything was ok. I was ok. But I still ended up asking. “Are you real?” Both boys came to my side and held my hands “Hey, baby its ok we’re here we’re real.” Billy wiped my tears away as Eddie kissed my head “I thought I’d never see you both again.” They both smile my way as Eddie spoke “It’s ok Y/n, everything's ok now.” I smile but then shake my head “We’re in the hospital, aren't we?” They both sigh and nodded knowing what I was going to say. “That means my age. They're going to know and when they do, they will.” Before I continued both boys reassured me that I wasn't going anywhere, and Hopper spoke “They are going to give Eddie and Billy a chance to take you in and take care of you.” I looked at them both in shock, were they willing to take me in? I shouldn't be surprised they’ve been trying to get me to move in with them for months. I smile there way “You would really do that?” Billy laughed “Darling is that even a question? Of course, we would.” I smile and then notice the bandages on both their hands and the soot in their hair and clothes. “Why are you guys dirty?” Before they could answer the doctor walked in asking if he could speak to Hopper and Joyce, leaving us alone for the first time.  

“Boys? Why are you dirty and smell like smoke?” Then I realized there not telling me because I already knew. I remember seeing the boys in my room, which means they went in after me, they risked their lives to save me. “You both ran into my house to save me?” They both nodded as tears fell down my face “Then I owe you both my life, without either one of you I wouldn’t be here, so thank you to the both of you.” They smile and both kiss my cheeks. “We would do anything for you sweetheart.” Before we could continue talking a commotion caught our attention from outside the room, Billy was about to investigate when the door slammed open revealing a woman I never wanted to see again. My mother. “Get back from my daughter the both of you, you are not family, you are not allowed in here.” I was verbally shaking as Billy spoke “I’m sorry but who gave you the right to be here?” my mother barked back “I am her mother, and I suggest young man that you step out of this room along with your friend or I will have you removed.” Before Billy could say anything back the doctor walked in with Hopper, so my mother thought they were here from her call “Finally Doctor remove them from this room immediately Officer I suggest by force they seem aggressive, and when can my daughter be allowed to leave for home?” I was shaking in fear and not knowing what to do or how I could get out of this, I can't get home with her, I just can't. But the doctors might side with her since she's my mother and I’m only eighteen. I can’t breathe. “Ma’am let's talk about this out here Y/n has been through a lot tonight, so I suggest giving her some rest.” She laughs “Do you really think I’m going to leave my daughter in this room with two men? You have another thing coming. Remove them now or I will have you lose your job.” Hopper only laughed as he grabbed my mother's arm escorting her out. “Like I said ma'am let's talk out here.” “Unhand me.” But he pulled her out of the room none the less, telling Billy to keep an eye of me and he’ll make sure she won't step into this room.

Never Alone

Billy Hargrove x Eddie Munson x Fem!Read

A/n: Another part bites the dust. I’m so glad you guys are enjoying this stoy. It’s ine of my favorite stoy I’ve written. I’m not sure how its going to end because I’m still writing it. I hope you enjoy this next part. Thank you :) 

P.S. the Y/n (you) is revealed as a younger age if you’re not that age its just goes with the story line so I apologize :) 

P.P.S if you haven’t listened to this cover of Carry on my wayward son then your missing out. Give it a listen you won’t regret it. 

Part 3

https://youtu.be/qKvj12YTtI4

Eddie’s Pov

Hospitals. Not my favorite place to be especially when someone I care about is in a room. I followed Billy as we both rushed to the receptionist. Before we got there Joyce called our names down the hall and we both ran in her direction with a million questions. “Boys!” We both stopped talking and waited for her to speak. “Y/n is stable they have her on oxygen to stop her throat from swelling, but they said she’s going to be ok.” I took a sigh of relief as Billy asked, “can we see her?” She sighed “I told them you both were married to her it was the only way you both can see her, she’s down as Y/N Munson Hargrove I know you boys are the first ones she would want to see.” I can’t believe Joyce would do this for us we both embraced her at the same time almost making her fall over, “she's on the second-row room 304 but I should warn you boys she may not look the same.” We both nodded and ran for the elevator, wanting to be with our girl. Once we got to the door I held onto Billy’s hand, we looked into each other's eyes and took a deep breath as I reached out and opened the door.

Joyce Pov

I watched as they ran to the elevator with worried but relieved expressions. I noticed both their hands were bandaged and could only assume the worst. A few minutes later Hopper walks in and walks in my direction when he sees me. “Everything ok?” he asked “yea she stable and the boys just went to see her. Is everything ok on your end?” he sighs but nods “I’ll explain everything later.” Before he could say anything else a doctor called for our attention. “Did you two come in with Mrs. Munson Hargrove?” We looked at the doctor and I responded “Yes, she's with us. Is everything ok?” He placed his clipboard to the side and spoke “Are you aware that her last name is L/n, and she is 18 years old?” Hopper and I looked at one another completely confused “look I gave you the wrong last same so her boyfriends could see her, but you must be mistaken she’s 25 not 18.” he shook his head and grabbed the clipboard handing it to Hopper “our records show otherwise. Y/n L/n is 18 years old she’s from H/s and ran away from home 5 years ago, we contacted her parents, but they seem not to care of her whereabouts and said for us to take care of her, and since she is 18 years old and nowhere to go, she must be put into the system.” I tried to prosses everything he said but was confused by it all, she always told us her parents were dead and now they want to take her away from us, away from Eddie and Billy. “Hold on a second you can’t just take her like that she has a place to go, plenty of places.” the doctor sighed “if you’re suggesting yourself or Mrs. Byers, you both aren’t qualified.” I looked at him shocked “What does it take to be qualified? You don’t know anything about us.” “This hospital investigates people who bring in a non-family member and we’ve seen both your files; Jim Hopper is the officer in town, and can barely take care of himself and Joyce Byers already has enough on her plate with you two sons and an alcoholic husband, so in conclusion, you work to much Jim and Joyce has enough kids to worry about.” Before I can yell into his face Hopper jumped in “fine you looked into us but her boyfriends what did you find on them?” The doctor looked at Hop like he was crazy “you’re not suggested I leave her wellbeing with two boys?” I interrupted “they’re not two boys they’re two men who have taken more care of her then her own parents obviously. If you investigate them, they both have well-paying jobs and a nice house in a nice neighborhood just talk to them please you can’t separate these three you just can’t.”  

Our conversation was interrupted by a nurse who said there was a problem in Y/n’s room. We immediately followed the doctor down the hall towards Y/n’s room hoping she’s alright, the nurse spoke on the way “her heart level has risen, could be a panic attack but I wasn’t too sure, those two boys are still in her room.” Hop then got in front of the doctor before he can walk into Y/n’s room “Wait don’t go in there.” The doctor then yelled “what are you doing get out of my way.” “It’s not what you think she has these episodes all the time it's not something you can help only those two boys can.” I then walked in front of the doctor as well blocking the door “we can prove those boys are all she needs just trust Hop and don’t go in there, just wait.” The doctor was about to tell the nurse to probably call security but stopped the second we heard noise come from Y/n’s room. But it wasn’t just noise, it was singing.  

Billy’s Pov

I held onto Eddie’s hand as tight as possible when he opened the door, I know Joyce warned us, but I still wasn’t prepared for it. Y/n was laying on the hospital bed with wires connected to her arms and a tube under her nose alowing her to breath properly, seeing her in this position brought me to tears. Eddie let go of my hand and ran to her side and grabbed her hand trying to get a response out of her but by the look on his face he got nothing, “I’m so sorry sweetheart please be ok.” Eddie whispered as he kissed her hand. I walked to the other side of her bed slowly placing my hand on hers trying to get reaction but there was nothing. All my thoughts were racing trying to figure out what we could have done different to provent this from happening, maybe I could have stayed with her while Eddie went to work or vice versa anything could have been done to keep her from ending up here. Maybe we need to leave Hawkins? Like Jason said he will try again, maybe the only way to keep her safe is to get her out of this town. I looked in Eddie’s direction noticing he’s thinking as well. Then we both spoke at the same time “what if we all left?” He made eye contact with one another as we prossed what we both said, “It could be safer for her, we wouldn’t have to worry about Jason and Tomy if they didn’t know where she was.” Eddie sighed “but is that what she wants? We can’t keep running Billy.” I thought about Eddie as well Jason and Tomy want to hunt him too all because I love them “there going to keep trying to hurt you and Y/n Eddie, I don’t know what else we can do.” Eddie reached out and placed his hand on mine smiling “We protect her and each other,that’s what will do; they’re looking for Tomy now and once they’re both dealt with then everything will be ok. We have a life here and no ones going to take that away from us.” I smile his way “You’re right Ed’s I’m sorry I’m just” “Scared.” I nod and bring his hand up to my lips.  

Our conversation was stopped after the sound of Y/n’s monitor beeping loudly her hands then squeezed ours as she started to panic, small cries started coming from her and then she called for our names. This isn’t new for her Y/n would often have these nightmares that would cause her to not sleep for days and scream out to either Eddie or I and sometimes both; we would often wake her up but in this situation, it might not be possible not in her state now so Eddie and I have to think of something fast. Eddie tried everything we usually did to get her to wake up, but nothing was working “Y/n wake up please, its ok your safe, we’re here.” I tried to think of anything that will work cause if the doctors come in, they’re only going to make things worse. Then something hit me, Eddie and I have been practicing a surprise for her for years and she may hear it or not, but it could work. “Eddie” he looked at me frightened “her song, we have to sing.” he looked at me shocked “you think it will work?” Y/n then screamed out our names louder causing Eddie to immediately start singing Y/n’s song  

“Once I rose above the noise and confusion. Just to get a glimpse beyond this illusion, I was soaring ever higher then I flew too high.” Y/n’s monitor was still going haywire, so I joined in with Eddie “Though my eyes could see I still was a blind man though my mind could think I still was a mad man I hear the voices when I'm dreaming, I can hear them say.” I grabbed Eddie’s left hand while his right was holding Y/n’s and my left holding Y/n’s other hand, when she heard both of our voices the monitor slowed down as we continued “Carry on my wayward son there'll be peace when you are done.” Her breathing started to turn back to normal. “Lay your weary head to rest don't you cry no more. Masquerading as a man with a reason my charade is the event of the season.” Her eyes stayed closed as her tears began to dry and her shaking slowly stopped. “And if I claim to be a wise man It surely means that I don't know on a stormy sea of moving emotion tossed about I'm like a ship on the ocean I set a course for winds of fortune, but I hear the voices say.” Y/n whispered our names softly as her grip released slightly from our hands. “Carry on my wayward son. There'll be peace when you are done. Lay your weary head to rest. Don't you cry no more. No more, no more Don't you cry no more.” The monitor began beeping normally as her heart rate slowed. Eddie and I looked into each other's eyes as we sang our favorite part of the song. “Now your life's no longer empty, but surely heaven waits for you.” We both sang our hearts out wanting her to hear that we were here, and we weren’t leaving her side ever again. “Carry on my wayward son. There'll be peace when you are done. Lay your weary head to rest. Don't you cry no more.” She then brought out a big sigh before the monitor beeped normally, her shaking stopped and she was back to being peacefully asleep, which brought Eddie and I a sigh of relief. “She’s ok Ed’s” he nodded “yea, wait till she finds out we know her favorite song" I laugh with him “yea will never hear the end of it.”

Hopper’s Pov

I watched the Doctor stare at the door and back at the nurse’s iPad showing Y/n’s vitals were all ok and back to normal. I know he’s thinking about what I said that he can’t separate those three and if what just happened didn’t prove that I don’t know what will. “You see Doctor, they need each other, she needs them as much as they need her and if you tear that apart she’s not going to survive especially with the reputation she has around here.” The Doctor knew what I was talking about hell the entire town has heard the rumor of Y/n being a Witch, who knows who she’ll end up with the people alone would kill her if they wanted too. “Please just give them a chance.” Doctor looked at his nurse for her opinion “the vitals that I was getting weren’t stopping until those boys' voices reached her, in my opinion Doctor, I say you give them a chance, the love they have for each other you rarely see now a days.” I was surprised by her response but waited for the Doctors answer. “Will give them a week before we send an inspection crew to check the house and once that’s settled, they can look after her, I hope your boys are up for that task.” I smile “trust me they are, thank you doc.” He nodded and walked away with the nurse walking behind him. I then followed Joyce into the hospital room ready to give the boys the news. Thy both look our way as we walk in, they once again thank Joyce for making sure she got here ok. “So, we have somethings to talk about with you boys.” Eddie then spoke “like what?” Joyce looked in my direction hoping I would say something, “did you guys know she was 18?” they both froze but Eddie looked like he wanted to punch a wall while Billy was ready to fight anyone that would go near Y/n “does the Doctor know?” Joyce spoke “Yes so you both knew about her age?” they both nodded “she told us a long time ago, she had an episode when her parents called, we were over at her place. I guess her parents found out where she lived and called her house phone, she had a panic attack in front of us after that she told us everything.” Eddie then spoke “We told her we didn’t care, and we still loved her, is the Doc going to try to take her from us, because they can try but they’ll have to go through us.” Joyce immediately calmed them down when she spoke “No I promise she’s not going anywhere, we convince him to give you guys a chance, they're going to give you a week before they inspect your place to make sure its ok for her to stay.” They both gave a big sigh of relief. “Hey, we believe in you guys you’ve got this. She needs you both now more than ever, and we both know she’ll be perfectly safe with you two.” They both smile our way and said at the same time “thanks guys.” We were all silenced by the sound of small crying we all turned our attention to the hospital bed to see Y/n’s eyes open and she was crying while looking at both Eddie and Billy. “Are you real?”

Never Alone

Billy Hargrove x Eddie Munson x Fem!Reader

Part 2

A/N: This is defiently the best/favorite fanfic I have writtien. Thank you for liking it as much as I do. Not sure how many parts are going to be in this story because I’m still writing this story but I will post what I have and see where it goes. Thank you all for the support again I love you all :)

Warnings: Language, bondage, injury, blood

Immediately Billy’s tone changed when he spoke “Where are you, darling?” I whisper back as the footsteps were getting closer “my bedroom bathroom it's the first thing I thought of doing but my record player is playing and there bound to get in here soon.” I can hear him running around the shop probably getting his keys “Y/n it's going to be ok I’m on my way darling stay hidden and quiet for as long as you can.” Now I heard two different footsteps heading to my bedroom and started shaking “please Billy hurry.” The sound of my bedroom door being kicked in caused me to drop the phone, possibly hanging it up I didn’t even touch it the second I heard voices outside the door. “She isn’t here Jason” the voice I recognized immediately was Tommy Hagan the Tommy Hagan who I was told moved to California what's he doing here with Jason? What's Jasons plan for me now? “Let not give up just yet Tommy she’s here keep looking.” The sound of my record player smashing into the ground made me cover my mouth afraid I would let out a sound. The two boy's footsteps moved around my room tossing thing left and right, “I know you’re here witch, we’ve been watching the house for weeks we know you’re here, just make it easier on yourself and come out and talk to Tommy and I.” Jason speaking mad me shake with tears falling down my eyes the sound of footsteps stopping in front of the bathroom door made my breath hitch. A shadow appeared under the door then before I knew it the bathroom door was kicked in and standing before me was Jason and Tommy. “Get her to the bed Tommy.”  

Billy’s Pov

Adrenaline coursed through me as I jumped into my car flooring it down the street to Y/n’s place. I immediately called Eddie hoping he would answer. “Come on Eddie pick up.” The phone rang three times before he picked up “Hey handsome on intermission” I didn’t let him finish as I spoke frantically “Eddie you must get to Y/n’s house someone broke in I don’t know who, but I have a suspicion it has something to do with Jason.” I heard Eddie arguing with his manager saying he had to go and wasn’t going to argue with him “I’m on my way Billy, I’ll meet you at her house it's going to ok.” I wasn’t sure if he was assuring me or himself, but I hung up and dialed Hoppers number. The phone rang and rang but no answer, I called again but still the same outcome “Where the hell are you Hop!?!” I then thought of him possibly being out with Joyce, so I called her next still speeding down the road. Joyce answered on the first ring making me sigh in relief “Billy?” “Joyce, is Hop with you? I need you to put him on the phone!” She must have handed him the phone saying it was me. “What’s so important to interrupt on my day off Hargrove?” I was shaking with anger and anxiety trying to calm down and not insult Hopper knowing he doesn’t know the emergency “Hop I need you to get to Y/n’s house now someone broke in she's in trouble.” Without question Hopper said he would meet me there and hung up. I was a few blocks away when I saw smoke and smelled it as well hoping and praying it wasn’t Y/n’s place. I drove around the corner only for my hoping and praying it wasn’t her place to fade away until it was staring at me right in the face. Fear, anger, anxiety all mixed into my emotions as I parked and jumped out of my car seeing with my own eyes that Y/n’s place was on fire.

Y/n’s Pov

A blinding headache was what I felt the second I opened my eyes, everything around me was blurry and hazy but it was all becoming clear when I felt my legs tied together and my hands. I tried to move and get up but to no avail, I tried to speak as well but something was covering my mouth making me panic. Once my eyes adjusted to my surroundings, I was laying on my bed with my hands handcuffed to the headboard and my legs taped together with my room illuminated with candles making the room look dark and red. I tried to break out of my restrains as much as possible and scream out for help but the tape on my mouth kept it all in. The sudden sound of someone walking into the room made me freeze and look to see Jason and Tommy both smiling my way. “I wouldn’t try nothing if I were you.” I started shaking with fear when Jason kneeled beside me smiling “its ok Y/n this was bound to happen sooner or later, people fear you some want you out of town and some want you dead. Turns out no one can decide what to do with you but, I’ve decided to take matters into my own hands. You turned my best friend against me, you turned the town freak into a popular rockstar.” Jason then got up and moved around the room while speaking. “The spell you have Billy under will disappear the second you’re gone, and everything will go back to normal, Billy and I will take care of the freak ourselves. Witches belong in hell, which is where you're going to go when Tommy and I are done with you. I stuck with Tommy’s threat to you back in high school burning you at the stake, but I had a better idea.”  

In my panic I didn’t realize that around the room besides the candles were propane tanks and gas tanks and the smell of gasoline hit my nose so hard my eyes started watering. They were really going to kill me all because of a rumor that Jason started. “Don’t worry all the gasoline you smell is downstairs we wouldn’t want to you die quickly now would we.” Tommy spoke “will start the fire downstairs it will burn everything there then work its way up to your bedroom then blow up, not unless the smoke kills you first.” I screamed and pleaded with him through the tape to let me go but nothing was getting through, and I knew that. “Freaks hang and Witches burn, I’m sorry it had to come to this Y/n.” The boys then walked out of the room leaving me handcuffed to the bed screaming at them to come back. But I knew they wouldn’t there determined to kill me, to finally kill the Witch of Hawkins and then hang Eddie “the freak” Munson after. I pulled on the handcuffs trying desperately to escape, the sound of glass breaking downstairs warned me that the fire had started so I only had so long to break out of my situation. I immediately start scooting up to get the tape closer to the handcuffs trying to rip it off.  

I ignored the sound of things breaking and burning downstairs as I finally got the tape off my mouth, breathing in the smoke that was gathering on the ceiling, the burning sensation in my throat caused me to cough and panic at the same time. The cuffs were tight and restraining me from moving as much as I wanted to, I pulled and as much as could, but the cuffs just kept sinking into my wrist causing me to scream out wanting so desperately to break free, to live, to be ok but the cuffs just wouldn’t budge. I yanked and pulled on the cuffs a few more times before the smoke was getting too much into my lungs and causing my eyes to water and become blurry. The smoke was getting darker as well, letting me know it was getting closer to my room, who knew how much the fire destroyed downstairs and how much time I had left till it got up here. The cuffs were staying and so was I, I excepted my fate now. The fate the entire town wanted, for me to burn in hell. The thought of dying this way, the thought of never seeing my boys again brought tears to my eyes as I pulled one last time as hard as I could on the cuffs hoping the headboard would break. I watched as the blood dripped from my wrist not caring and just hoping I would be free but to no avail. I let my arms fall back down onto the headboard as tears continued to fall down my face as I let out a bloodcurdling scream.  

The smoke was getting to me too much now that my vision was fading in and out, as I was coughing every five seconds. The smoke in my lungs was causing me to have a headache and possible hallucinations because the next thing I knew I was looking into the eyes of Billy, my Billy. “Darling, can you hear me?” His voice was fading in and out as he was so I knew he wasn’t real he couldn’t be, I had to be already dead. I then saw Eddie fading in behind him trying to get my attention as well “Billy? Eddie?” They both tried speaking to me, but I couldn’t hear them. “Handcuffs, headboard” was what I could get out “Eddie” Eddie faded away assuming he had disappeared along with everything around me, but I then felt my arms finally fall from the headboard and someone pull me into their arms. The visions talked more but nothing was getting to me, I then felt the metal leave my wrist and someone whisper “stay with me Darling.” I think I was being carried but it also felt like floating, I couldn’t tell what was happening, what was real but the warmth I was feeling wrapped around me just brought me safety and comfort and I didn’t want to leave it. Different things happened at once warmth turned to cold the second, I was gone from whatever gave me comfort and safety. There were bright lights all around me as I felt I was swaying back and forward like in a boat. My vision was nothing but bright and smoggy not knowing what I’m looking at and where I was, with so much happening my body finally gave into it tired state and I sighed excepting my death, and never seeing my boys ever again. I hope they know how much I loved them and wished our time together lasted longer than it did. My body finally relaxed as everything faded away.

Billy’s Pov

Fire. That’s all I saw when I stepped out of my car. Y/n’s house was a blaze with people surrounding the area, mostly her neighbors. I couldn’t take my eyes off the blaze as I heard Eddie’s van tires screeching to a halt next to my car. I then saw Hopper and Joyce pull up in Hopper's car on the other side of the street. Hopper was talking to his radio, probably calling for the fire department. Eddie was now beside me looking at Y/n’s house as shocked as I was, we both looked at each other knowing what we had to do and before Hop or anyone could stop us, we were both running into the house to save our girl. The smoke and fire were all around the Livingroom destroying everything in its path, boards were falling off hinges. “Billy her room” the fire hadn't reached the stairs yet, so we had to hope she was up there okay. I ran up the stairs with Eddie right behind me. The smoke is much worse upstairs, but we keep going. Once we get to her room the first thing, we see is a bunch of propane and gasoline tanks surrounding her bed with Y/n handcuffed and legs tapped together, the anger was boiling inside me, but I put it away the second I moved to her side trying to get her attention “Darling can you hear me?” she looked at me but it looked like she wasn’t there, her face was pale and eyes red from the smoke but she spoke to me “Billy, Eddie?” I nodded and Eddie spoked “we’re here darling we’re going to get you out of here.” The next thing she said confused us “handcuffs, headboard” it was like she was here with us, and she wasn’t. Eddie moved instantly to the left side of her and started to kick the headboard in until it broke away dropping her hands onto her lap.

I scooped her into my arms and her head fell into the crook of my shoulder, as Eddie cut off the tape from her legs. I looked in Eddie’s direction as he looked at the state of our girl whoever did this will be dead where they stand, Eddie pulled his lock pick out of his pocket “I got the cuffs.” They clicked off her wrist and Eddie ripped some of his shirt wrapping the pieces around her injuries. “We need to get her out of here Ed’s” he nodded “the fire hasn’t hit the stairs yet if we make it down before it does, we should be able to get to the front door.” I nod and lift her up “I got her, lead the way, Eddie.” He walked out the door as I followed, just having her in my arms still breathing gives me hope that she’ll be ok, we just needed to get her to a hospital. The hallway was covered with smoke, but we moved fast enough to not breathe as much in. We moved fast down the steps heading for the front door when the threshold came crumbling down blocking our way out. “Shit, Billy the side window.” I saw Eddie running to the window, but I turned around to notice the fire trailing up the stairs making me follow Eddie faster. “You first Ed’s then I’ll pass her to you but quick the fire heading to her room.” He nodded and moved through the window making it to the other side and encouraged me to hand Y/n over to him which I did slowly, once Eddie had her I jumped through the window knowing her house was going to blow any minute. Eddie gave Y/n back to me as he went to get the attention of the ambulance, and I took her far from the house.  

I yelled at Hopper and Joyce and everyone around to get back, so they did, halfway to the ambulance the house behind me exploded making Y/n’s house completely collapse leaving nothing but fire and wood piled into one. Eddie came back next to me with the paramedics who took her out of my arms and placed her in the gurney leading her to the ambulance. We both followed about to jump into the ambulance, but they stopped us “Sorry family only.” I looked at them angrily “sir we’re all she’s got please.” but they wouldn’t let us, so Joyce offered to go and said she would keep an eye on her, she told them she was her adopted daughter, so they let her on. Eddie and I watched the ambulance take our girl away hopefully to help her. Hopper and Steve who probably showed up when Eddie and I went to get Y/n. “What the hell were you two thinking running into a fire like that, you could have been killed.” Hopper yelled moving us away from the house to his car, he continued to tell us that it was reckless to do that while Eddie tried to defend us both, but my attention went elsewhere, my attention was to the man hiding in the shadows of the forest.

Jason, Jason fucking Carver. I knew he was the cause of all this, and I was not about to let him get away with it. Jason walked into the darkness of the forest causing me to shove passed Steve and Eddie call after me. Assuming Hopper was following me as well I picked up my pace towards Jason hoping Hopper won't stop me from killing him. The second I was close enough I grabbed the back of his collar turned him around to face me and pinned him to a tree “you mother fucker.” he then laughed “nice to see you to best friend.” I shoved him even harder to the tree “I'm not your friend, you almost killed Y/n tonight, and you don’t get to live after that.” Eddie then came running through the trees seeing I had Jason pinned to a tree he immediately turned from confusion to anger. “Oh, look whose joined the party, king of the freaks.” Jason yelled in Eddie direction making me punch him hard in the face breaking his nose “call Eddie a freak again I dare you.” Eddie walked up next to me; I moved aside giving Eddie enough room to watch him knee Jason in the stomach. “You touched our girl, you layed your hands on her, almost kill her tonight and for that, for that Carver you’re going to pay.” Eddie then kicked him in the head as I kicked him in the stomach. Eddie then took out his knife ready to use it when Hopper yelled at us to stop but we didn’t want to we couldn’t he had to pay, he had to fucking die. Hopper pushed me away from Jason, while Steve held Eddie back. “This won't fix anything. This won't change what happened boys.” Eddie spoke before me “It may not but it will make me feel so much better.” Hopper picked up Jason and had him leaning on the tree behind him “you both do this; you kill this boy you end up going to jail and what do you think will happen to Y/n? She’ll have no one she already lost her house don’t have her lose you both too.”

Eddie and I looked at each other knowing he was right, Eddie pushed Steve off him while I backed away from Jason and Hopper. Jason then started laughing which got all our attention. “Is something funny Carver.” He continued to laugh as he spoke “you all, so eager to protect the Witch when she’s poisoning you all.” Hopper's expression changed instantly the second he called Y/n a Witch “what did you say?” Jason then laughed harder as blood was trickled down his nose “the Witch may have survived today but there's always tomorrow and the next day. I won't stop until her spell is broken on this town, me and Tommy will end it.” Anger boiled in me by the mention of Tommy’s name “you got that psychopath to help you!?!” he laughed more “he wanted her to burn since he met her.” Hopper was face to face with him “are you admitting to trying to kill Y/n tonight.” He laughed again making me want to wipe the grin off his face, Eddie noticed and grabbed my hand making me calm down instantly. “Maybe I am maybe I'm not but whatever happened she dissevered, and if you arrest me my father will just bail me out and I’ll try again.” If that didn’t convince Hopper I don’t know what will. Hopper pulled out his handcuffs and yanked Jason away from the tree he was leaning on. He then led him to a smaller skinnier tree putting one handcuff on and slamming his back into the tree. Hopper put his arms behind his back handcuffing him to the tree which left Eddie and I confused. “Hey sheriff what the hell are you doing?” He ignored Jason and walked up to Eddie and I smiling. “Jason Carver will be put away for a long time I'll make sure of that but his injuries I have no idea where they came from, you do what you both have to do.” We looked at him and smiled while Jason screamed out “whoa wait you can’t do that Sheriff.” he turned back towards him “I can and I will because the girl you’re talking about is my adopted daughter and I will not have you around to harm her anymore, so boys.” he looked back at us with a serious expression, “I give you full permission to beat the holy hell out of him.” he then walked away from us saying one last thing “I’ll arrest him when you’re done.” Steve followed Hopper back to his car as Eddie and I faced Jason ready to avenge Y/n. Jason looked our way terrified “let's get things started shall me.”

By the time we were done with Jason, you could hardly recognize him, he had cuts and bruises all over his face along with a black eye and a broken nose than he already had. We agreed with Hop that we wouldn’t kill him, but it was very tempting Eddie got one last hit in before he pulled out his knife and placed it under his neck, I got nervus hoping Eddie wouldn’t do what I know he’s thinking “Ed’s?” Jason began laughing again “looks like the freaks got some balls why don’t you do it Munson end my life see where it gets you.” I slowly walked towards Eddie trying to get his attention “Eddie put the knife down don’t do it.” Eddie was shaking then still having the knife pressed into his neck “we could do it Billy we can end this right now, Y/n would be ok once he’s gone, she would be free of him.” I then was right next to Eddie seeing the fear and pain in his eyes I know he just wanted to keep her safe as much as I do, but we can't do this it would ruin the both of us and Y/n. “you’re right we could end it right here right now kill him and don’t blink an eye, but Eddie Hoppers right think about Y/n.” he interrupted me “I am thinking about her, I’m thinking about her safety he goes to jail Billy he’s only going to get out and harm her again maybe even kill her the next time and we can’t take that chance.” I placed my hand on his holding the knife “Eddie, this will only make it worse we kill him we go to jail and Y/n is alone forever she has no one and now nowhere to go we’re all she has left, please baby put the knife down and let's go see our girl.” His stayed forward never tearing his eyes away from Jason as his hand shook letting everything, I said sink in. Finally, Eddie’s hand lowered down placing the knife back in his pocket trying to keep his composure “let's go love.” We both walked away ignoring the sounds of Jason screaming at us to come back, leaving him for Hopper to deal with.

We walked back out of the forest seeing Y/n’s house finally out from the fire department, Hopper walked over to us asking if he was still alive, we told him yes and that we were heading to the hospital. Steve said he would take Eddie’s car back to his house while Hopper was going to stay and see if he could find any of Y/n’s things left in the debris and bring it to the hospital. Eddie followed me to my car, but I stopped him before we can get in “stay here.” I opened my trunk pulling out my first aid kit and telling him to sit on the hood “I’m fine Bill’s we have to get to Y/n.” I reach out my hand for him to give me his he gave me a look but did what I said, “I’m going to take care of you, so Y/n won't kill me. This might sting.” I poured peroxide on his hand as he hisses “what about your hand, it's as bad as mine.” I laugh “I’ll take care of that myself you and Y/n are my first priority.” Eddie smiled my way while saying “you’re our priority too you know.” I laugh “yea I know.” I then wrapped his hand with a bandage and then told him to get in the car as I took care of my hand. I jumped into the driver's seat, starting up my car and drove Eddie and I as fast as I could to the hospital hoping and praying that Y/n is ok.

Eddie’s Pov  

So much was flashing through my head. Fear, anxiety, anger it was all hitting me so fast I had nothing on my mind but Y/n. She was in the hospital because one person saw her different saw our relationship different called her a Witch called me a freak. One rumor started it all for her and I wish I could change it. I wish I could go back and make sure none of this happened at all. But that would mean Y/n, Billy and I not being together, and I didn’t want that I never want that I love them both and I would do anything for them even if it means leaving their side to make them have a better life. Maybe if our relationship stops, she would be ok he would be ok I may be alone again but maybe it's for the best. “I know that look” I looked towards Billy and saw him looking my way as well “whatever you’re thinking about won't change anything Eddie what happened; happened and we can’t change that, if you’re thinking about leaving us, I won't let you it's not going to happen.” it's crazy how well Billy can read me and know exactly what I’m thinking “Y/n needs us Eddie and I’m not letting you walk away.” I spoke loudly “what if it’s the only way to keep you both safe, this is all happening only because you’re both with me the Witch thing didn’t start till, she was with us. What if it all ends if we let her go?” Billy sighs and glares my way “and what if it doesn’t what if we leave her go to the jobs that want us mine in California and yours who knows where and this entire town kills her anyway, it's not just Jason who thinks she’s a Witch this whole town does and we’re the only ones keeping her safe from everyone. I love you Eddie and I know your scared for her and for us but if you ever think about leaving us again, I swear I’ll kill you; you understand me?” I know he was angry with me hell I was angry with myself for even thinking about leaving either one of them. “I’m sorry Bill’s, I just want you and her to be ok.” I then felt his hand on mine squeezing it tight but still looking at the road “I’m here Eddie and so is Y/n and we’re going to be ok as long as we’re together, I promise.” I smiled his way and brought his hand to my lips kissing it softly as he drove faster to the hospital.

Never Alone

Billy Hargrove x Eddie Munson x Fem!Reader

Eddie, Billy and Y/n are in a relationship together that the town of Hawkins doesn’t understand. They don’t care about anyone else as long as they have each other. Their relationship is put to the test when Jason becomes more of a problem and a danger to them all especially Y/n.

  Warnings: Language

Part 1

Are relationships strange, yes? Are they supposed to be normal, no? Does a relationship have to be with one person? Yes, or no? Well, mine defiantly isn't. I have been in a relationship with Billy Hargrove and Eddie Munson for three years now. It is called polyamorous of course no one understands it except our friends but the whole town is against it. Not that I care but the bully from Jason has gotten out of hand especially towards me. He would call me a witch behind my back and start rumors that weren't true about me, Billy has wanted to put Jason in his place as did Eddie, but I wouldn’t let them, Jason needs to know we’re no longer in high school and he needs to grow up. Billy now owns the only car shop in town and Eddie has gigs in town with his band Corroded Coffin. They are well known in this town and have made successful music/albums in the past few years. Eddie has been offered shows and tours out of Hawkins but declines every single one because of me, I’ve told him to go but he always says no. He can’t leave me and never will. Same with Billy, his friend has a popular car shop in California that he offered a full-time well-paid job to him he would only need to move back to California but declined the offer for me. These boys mean the world to me, but I always feel I’m holding them back that they will forever be stuck in Hawkins, Indiana because of me. Sometimes I think breaking up with them will make them leave but to do that to them would break me as well. We needed each other, I knew that, and so do they things change in the future, but towns do not and neither do people. We must leave somehow, someway but we needed to leave. Sooner or later. 

Today marks our 4-year anniversary of being together. To celebrate we invited all our friends out to lovers' lake for a swim day. Lovers Lake was the place I fell in love with both boys and them vice versa. Steve invited Robin and I out to Lovers Lake with everyone else, I declined at first knowing I’m not good at meeting new people, but Steve insisted that I’d come because he wanted to introduce me to the two new members of the group which were Eddie and Billy. Dustin brought Eddie and Max brought Billy. It was hard for me to trust new people and to let anyone in, it took me a whole month to finally let Steve and Robin in and even longer for the kids. My past, my parents, they made me not trust people easily, they made me suffer for twenty years under their roof when I got the chance to move away to make my own life in Hawkins, I took it without hesitation. I told myself to never trust too quickly, never let your guard down around anyone. But that all the changed the day I saw both boys messing around with the kids laughing, living just free. They opened a new world for me, a world where I can be myself and love whoever I want and not care what anyone thinks. Our first meeting turned into multiple meet ups alone just us. They both understood what this was, what relationship we were creating, and they both didn’t leave, they both loved me and I them and were willing to share with no argument. They both could take care of me and I them. I love them and no one is ever going to change that, and I mean no one. 

Robin and I showed up at Lovers Lake just after Steve who already had a BBQ going with Dustin, Will, Mike, El, Lucas and Max already in the lake splashing around. Eddie was on his way and Billy had work, so he wouldn't be by till later. All the kids cheered and hollered when they saw Robin and I walk up “Hey ladies weren’t sure if you were going to show up” Steve mocked, I shook my head and laughed while setting down my bag “And miss out on all the fun that I planned no way.” Steve rolled his eyes and grabbed the food from Robins hands “So, where’s your boys anyway?” Before I can answer the sound of Eddie’s van rolled up making me smile “well there's one.” I turn and walk towards Eddie’s van, meeting him halfway. He smiled and pulled me into him spinning me around as I laughed “Happy anniversary sweetheart.” He set me back down on my feet and I wrapped my arms around his neck “and to you too my love.” He kissed my cheek and looked around at what everyone was already doing but I know who he was looking for “He had to work again but he said he be by later, he promised” Eddie smiled my way seeing the slight sadness in my eyes “and you know he keeps his promises sweetheart, he’ll be here.” I smiled as he put his arm around my shoulder leading me to the others enjoying our time all together.

We had food, music, lounging, Eddie brought the hot dogs Steve asked for along with some alcohol. Nancy and Jonathan showed up an hour after Eddie, all the boys started talking to the kids while Nancy, Robin and I talked around the fire as the sun began to set. Billy texted me not that long ago saying he was on his way which made both I and Eddie smile like kids making everyone else laugh our way. Steve brought out the Smores making all the kids run out of the water and gather around the fire, the kids made Smores while the adults talked, ten minutes later the sound of a car pulling up got all our attention, but I know Billy’s car and this sure wasn’t it.  

A white Porche 944 pulled onto the dirt road parking behind Eddie’s car, immediately Eddie, Steve and Jonathan all stood up as Jason stepped out of the car walking towards us. Everyone had their attention on Jason as he spoke “I heard there was a celebration down here, didn’t expect to see the freak and the witch hanging out with you all.” Eddie spoke before anyone else “Call her that again and see what happens.” Jason only scoffed in his direction turning his attention towards Steve “what happened to you Harrington, you used to be as popular as I was now look at you hang with children and nobodies.” I then got his attention standing up and standing beside Eddie “What do you want Jason?” His eyes were red and bloodshot, and he was swaying back and forward like he had been drinking “Just thought I’d wish your boys a congratulations for sticking with you for so long especially after what everyone says about little miss Y/N.” Eddie glared Jason’s way “you better choose your next words carefully Jason.” He then got in Eddie’s face yelling “you think I’m scared of you freak? You're about as threatening as a skunk.” Before Eddie could do anything, Steve got between them and pushed Jason back “get out of here Jason before you do something you’ll regret.”  

Jason stumbled back a little smiling “Fine, fine just let me talk to Y/n first then I’ll be on my way.” I froze when he mentioned my name. What on earth does he have to say to me? “Like hell” Eddie went to lunge at Jason, but Steve stopped him. “Jason whatever you have to say you can say here, don’t think for one second I’m stupid enough to be alone with you.” I spoke as I placed my hand on Eddie’s arm calming him down, “Well the others might not like what I have to say, but if you insist your relationship with Hargrove and Munson is a sin. Whatever you’ve done has Billy against me and the freak no longer a freak, everyone knows him as the lead singer of Corroded Coffin like he was never the leader of the Cult in high school. You’ve done something from the help of the devil and soon I will rid you of the spell you have on my best friend and on the freak's status just you wait.” Everyone was speechless from what came out of Jason’s mouth he basically threatened to murder me in front of everyone, his words had me shaking in fear and Eddie knew it but before he could do anything a deep voice startled everyone a voice I recognized immediately. “What the hell did you just say to her Carver?” Jason did a quick turnaround coming face to face with an angry Billy. Jason began to laugh seeing his old best friend ready to kill him. “She done something to you man, something that I’m trying to break you out of, there is no way you would date something like her let alone this freak, Hargrove you need to wake up!!” Jason was scaring me, scaring everyone and Billy knew that, and he wasn’t having it, “I’m going to give you five seconds to get out of here before Eddie and I fucking kill you.”

Jason had a broken look on his face like his whole world was falling apart, he took one last look at everyone before turning back towards Billy with a disappointed look on his face. “Fine stay here with the lowlife for all I care, but you haven’t seen the last of me.” He bumped shoulders with Billy as he stumbled back to his car, he then slammed his car door then stuck his hand out the window flipping us all off as he sped off back into the woods. With Jason finally gone everyone relaxed as I started shaking, everything Jason said sat in my mind making me feel sick and start rapidly breathing. So much was happening in my head I didn’t even realize Eddie and Billy were trying to get my breathing back to normal. “Baby look at us.” “it's ok he’s gone.” “Your safe love.” I looked around and noticed the others were gone probably to give us space as Eddie and Billy both wrapped their arms around me placing me in between them as I relaxed into their arms. My breathing became calm as Billy kissed my head and Eddie hummed my favorite song in my ear everything around me came back to normal, I didn’t realize we were on the ground and there were tears falling down my eyes.  

“We’ve got you darling.” I sigh in relief being in the arms of the two men I love “I’m ok, sorry” Eddie laughed next to me and placed his hand on my chin, so I’d look at him “there is nothing to apologize for sweetheart he scared you and that’s ok, but I promise we got you.” Billy then spoke “He’s not going to touch you with us around.” I nodded and finally told them I was ok, and they helped me up. I noticed the others were farther down from our last spot “we moved farther down in case he came back.” I nodded and kissed both their cheeks making them both look in my direction “thank you boys” they both looked at each other confused then back at me “for what?” I smile at them “for everything, for not giving up on us even with the whole town against us, you boys mean everything to me, and I know you already know that, but I just wanted to let you know, I love you both.” They both laugh and smile “we love you too Y/n” I kissed them both and walked hand in hand with them back to our friends, our family. 

                                                    One Week Later 

A few days have passed since the incident with Jason, I’ve put it behind me as well as everyone else, but Eddie and Billy still looked out for him. They refused to leave my house till they knew he wasn’t going to try anything let alone break into my house. They took shifts staying at my house with me when the other had to work. Don’t get me wrong, I love having them around, but I need my space, once I finally convinced them that nothing was going to happen, and I was fine they both finally went back to working and their own places. Eddie had a concert today and Billy worked late so I was home alone all day getting my house cleaned up and catching up on my shows. Billy and Eddie both promised they would come by for a visit when they were done, which I didn’t mind waiting. I was just happy to have the house to myself. I did know that Jason has been telling more rumors around town about me, everyone but my friends, Hopper and Joyce believe that I am a witch or spawn of satin who would cast a spell on you just by look at you. I know it's gotten worse because getting a job here was impossible for me, they seem to be interested in me until they ask for my name and they either hang up or tell me they have someone else for the job, I’m so used to it that I no longer look for work, Eddie has tried to get me to work with him but I’m too shy around crowds to even try singing in front of people. The boys and my shower walls are the only ones who know I can sing and I’m keeping it that way. The sound of my phone ringing next to me brought me out of my thoughts, on the screen showed Eddie and I wrapped in each other's arms smiling at the camera with Metallica's Master of Puppets playing in the background. I smile and pick up as fast as possible not to worry him “hey Ed’s.”

  The commotion of people in the background and music softly playing made me know he was few minutes from his performance in the local bar in town I guess I was so lost in my thoughts I didn’t realize what time it was, the clock on my phone read 7:50pm and his performance was at 8pm and Billy was off in an hour. “Hey sweetheart how are you?” I laughed at the sigh of relief that came from him when I answered “I’m ok nothing interesting to report just a chill kind of day. Keeping myself busy and you sir have a show in a few minutes, so why you are calling me?” I heard him laugh on the other end “What can’t call my girl to make sure she’s ok?” I sigh and smile into the phone I know they are both just looking out for me, but I wish they knew I can take care of myself “no you have every right to call me, but I promise Eddie I'm ok you have a show to put on and I don’t want you to get distracted from it or not put on your best show because you’re worried about me, I can take care of myself Munson you and Billy both know that.”  

He got quiet on the other end which made me feel bad, but he spoke before I could say anything “Sweetheart we know you can take care of yourself we just don’t want you to have to do that no more, you’ve spent your entire life taking care of yourself and all we want to do is show you that we can take care of you too, You’re not a distraction and you never will be. We love you and nothing will change that. I swear to you.” I sigh into the phone knowing I made Eddie feel bad “I’m sorry Eddie, I didn’t mean to upset you I’m just” he laughed into the phone stopping me “Worried as much as we are I know if you come work with me Billy and I might not be as worried.” I rolled my eyes at his offer “Eddie you and I both know I can’t sing in front of crowds even if I tried. They probably wouldn’t even want to listen to me they’ll think I’m a siren next.” Before he could answer I heard someone enter the room on his end making the music louder in my ear, it must have been his manager telling him its time. I couldn’t hear most of the conversation, but I knew he was arguing with him “I’ll leave you to it Eddie, don’t worry I’m fine and will see you when you stop by tonight ok?” He sighed into the phone “Fine, I love you” I smile “Right back at you, go kill it Munson.” He said goodbye and hung up the phone and not a minute later Billy’s ringtone went off on my phone showing the two of us sleeping in each other's arm that Eddie snuck of us one night that I couldn’t get myself to delete. Living on a Prayer blaring in the background as I sighed but smiled and answered the phone “hey love, on break?”  

The echoing sound of machines going off in the background along with people yelling brought me back to when he first took me there to fix my car everyone was staring but were very nice especially when Billy was around, out of our relationship Billy protected both Eddie and I especially me which I didn’t mind at all “hey darling yea on my break just checking in, how are you?” I was going to say the same thing I told Eddie that I was fine and there was nothing to worry about, but I know Billy will see right through me he was harder to lie to harder to cover my fear from he would just see right by my lie “Darling?” I didn’t realize how quiet I was and finally spoke “To be honest I’ve been on edge all day today and I don’t know why. I get this terrible feeling that something is going to happen, maybe Jason and this town has got me paranoid.” He must have gone into his office because it got quiet on his end “Baby do you need me to come by because I will I’ll drop everything and leave Tony to watch the shop.” I would love to have him come to my rescue and be here to make me feel better, but he sounded busy, and I wasn’t going to let him drop everything for me “No Bill’s I’m ok just paranoid is all if I feel you need to come by early, I’ll let you know, this town is just getting to me. When the town thinks you're a witch it will get to you.” I feel his anger through the phone when I mentioned the witch thing, he and Eddie are not the biggest fans of that rumor Jason started in high school which seems to have spread through town and followed me out of it. “If I ever hear anyone else call you that in front of me again, I’m going to put them in the ground. Tommy learned that the hard way, I’m off in an hour love but call me if you need me, I’m only a few blocks away.” Tommy had lost a few teeth and almost his eye that day he called me a witch and threatened to burn me at the stake when I bumped into him walking down the hall what he didn’t know was Billy was waiting at my locker for me and heard everything he said to me, Luckly Hopper kept him from going to jail when I told him everything that happened. “I know love you’ll be the first one I call, because Eddie’s performing his heart out, but I’ll let you get back to work, I love you Bill’s.” I can tell on the phone that he didn't want to go back and wanted to come to my house and make me feel safe, but he can't, and he knows that. “I love you too, I’ll be by in an hour.” We said our goodbye and hung up. 

Throughout the rest of the night, I cooked myself dinner, watched a few of my shows and decided to put on my record player. I looked through all my music and I found the one I wanted to listen to too. The beat of Running Up That Hill filled my house, I never really got into this music till Max introduced me to Kate Bush, Eddie and Billy both despised this song but listened to it anyway for me. I believe I caught both humming it a few times which brought a smile to my face. “It doesn’t hurt me. Do you want to feel how it feels? Do you want to know, know that it doesn’t hurt me? Do you want to hear about the deal we’re making? You, it's you and me.” I danced through my house singing along to Kate Bush making my worries fade away “And if I only could I’d make a deal with God and I’d get him to swap our places be running up that road be running up that hill be running up that building. Say if I only could oh.” The record machine was at full volume as I danced around my room enjoying my time alone until the sound of something breaking downstairs caught my attention, I froze for a second keeping the record going so whoever was in my house didn’t know that I heard them, hell it could have just been in my head. The chorus was back on when I leaned against my door, opening it slightly to see down the hall towards the stairs.  

The sound of footsteps walking up got me silently shutting my door and running to my bathroom locking it with my phone in hand and sitting between the toilet and the shower. I immediately dialed Billy’s number because I knew Eddie wouldn’t hear his phone in the busy bar, the phone rang and rang sending me to his voicemail after the fourth ring, I knew trying again wouldn’t do me any good, so I called the shop directly. The footsteps from the stairs were now down the hall searching through all the rooms upstairs Luckly my room was the last one down the hall. The phone only rang twice when a man's voice answered the phone and recognized it was Tony “Hawkin's repair shop how can I help you?” I spoke as quiet as possible but enough for him to hear me “Tony its Y/n can you put Billy on the phone and tell him it's an emergency, please.” Without hesitation Tony called out to Billy who must have been working on a car to not hear his phone, the second I heard his voice on the phone I broke down “Billy, someone's in my house.” 

Huntress Past

Dean Winchester x Reader

Another story I have saved in my files and I wanted to see how it would do. Its completed but I’m posting it into parts. Enjoy

Life as a hunter is never easy especially for Y/n L/n, she grew up into in after the death of her parents, she now live with the Winchester brothers finally having the family she deservers but will it all be torn away when her past comes back to haunt her.

Warnings: description of Rape  

Hunter. That’s the first words to describe my life. I’ve been a hunter for as long as I can remember. When I was eighteen my parents were killed in front of me by a werewolf and ever since then I’ve been hunting it down. I came home from a situation that haunts me to this day finding blood on the floor and a giant beast tearing my father apart. When I was twenty-three, I finally tracked it down, but it captured me and had me locked up in his basement for weeks. That was the moment I knew I was going to die, and soon the torture would stop, and I would become its next meal. That was until I was saved by other hunters. The hunters known as the famous Winchester brothers. The werewolf was killed before I could do anything, but I was alive that’s all that mattered. The Winchesters took me in after that and I didn’t mind at all. Sam was more of an older brother to me but Dean. Dean was a different story.  

After a couple months with the Winchesters my hunting skills have improved. As time went on, I started developing feelings for Dean. It started out a simple crush and light flirting, of course I didn’t think he felt anything towards me at least not as much as I felt for him. Sam of course new my feelings towards him and encouraged me to go for it but what if he doesn’t feel the same? Or is the thing that haunts me holding me back? I don’t think I could take rejection. Sam and I were sitting in the bunker waiting for Dean to be done getting ready so we can head to a case close by, just a simple salt and burn case. Sam then pulled me out of my thoughts “so did you tell him?” I rolled my eyes his way “no Sam and for the last time it's not going to happen.” he stood from his chair and leaned onto the war table “come on Y/n.” I sigh “I just don’t want to ruin anything Sam, Dean means everything to me and I don’t want to lose that.” Before he could answer Dean came around the corner in his usual red flannel, black shirt and blue pants “you guys ready?” Sam and I both nod as we head out the bunker to Baby not knowing what really awaits us on this simple hunt. 

It all happened so fast, a simple salt and burn turned into something much bigger and more dangerous. We were scoping the house that the witness told us that people were missing from. One body was already found a few miles out of the way from this place but people kept saying it was in this house where people would go missing. Sam, Dean and I decided to split up to cover more of the house. I decided to head to the basement while Sam went upstairs and Dean on the first floor. The second I opened the basement door the smell of sulfur filled the air and I knew this was not a ghost case. Before I could call for the boys something grabbed onto me and threw me down the stairs. The basement door was then shut as I crumbled at the bottom of the stairs hearing a crack from my leg. I screamed out in pain, but sat up quickly to see what I'm dealing with. 

My gun was a few feet away from me so without thinking I tried to reach for it but to only get it kicked away and a black boot stomped on my hand “oh look what we have here, a little defenseless huntress.” I look up to see a man dressed in all black smiling down at me making me glare his way. “Took you hunters a while to get here, we demons are very impatient.” His eyes then turn black as he smiles my way. “So, you planned this whole case to get us here? The three best hunters in the business in one house, pretty stupid if you ask me.” He then picked me up and pinned me against the wall with his powers making me scream from the pain in my leg. “Yes, but you know what's fun about you hunters you don’t leave one another behind and I'm guessing once the Winchesters are done with my friends upstairs, they’ll come looking for you and when they do, I'll be waiting, but in the mean time I might as well enjoy myself.”  

The demon then pulled out a knife and began to trace it softly along my chest making me shiver from the touch of the blade. “Where should I start sweetheart?” I glared his way and spit in his face as my answer. Wiping his face, he then slashed my arm with the knife making me yelp in pain. “You humans so naive yet so fragile.” He then sliced across my chest slowly. “Why can't you see how useless your species is? All you do is rob.” Cut. “And kill.” Cut. “Even though you do all this to each other, you still want to protect them.” He cut along my stomach making me scream out not being able to keep it in anymore. “It's idiotic if you ask me, but I do love hearing the sound of your pain.” Before I could respond the sound of the basement door being kicked in got his attention, he then stabbed the knife into my side making me scream out one last time. Dean and Sam called out my name but the world was fading in and out. I couldn’t process much of what was happening after that, I felt the feeling of falling until I was caught in someone arms by the smell of whiskey and gunpowder, I knew it was Dean. I try to say something but the amount of pain I was feeling was too much. I never got to tell him how I feel, the sound of the rumbling of the Impala brought me out of my head as I opened my eyes only seeing a blurry Dean, I can hear him softly talking to me “Y/n stay with me please, I can't lose you not before I tell you, please don’t leave me.” I then let consciousness take over not knowing if I’ll wake up.     

Wise man says, only fools rush in. I heard the sound of soft singing not sure where it was coming from. But I can't help falling in love with you. The feeling of something soft under me made me realize I was possibly in a bed, was I in the bunker? The hospital? Heaven? I wasn’t really sure but I continued to listen to whoever was singing. Shall I stay? Would it be a sin? The song was then recognized as my favorite song I tried to open my eyes but the room was too bright. Whoever was singing stopped and placed their hand on mine. “Come on sweetheart open your eyes for me.” Dean? That’s who was singing and whose room I was in. I was alive, I was ok. I was with Dean I then slowly opened my eyes to see Dean in a chair next to his bed smiling my way “hey Y/n.” I smile “please don’t stop finish my song.” he then laughed but continued for me. “If I can’t help falling in love with you? Like a river flow, surly to the sea, darling, so it goes. Somethings are meant to be.” I smile his way and placed my other hand on top of his and sang to him. “Take my hand, take my whole life too.” he then sang with me. “For I can’t help falling in love with you.” He placed his hand on my cheek as I lean into his touch, before I could say anything or do anything his lips were on mine. I didn’t know what to think or do but without question I kissed him back. He wrapped his arms around me as I sat up to kiss him more but groaned with pain when I moved. I had completely forgotten I was injured. 

Dean immediately pulled away as I hissed painfully. “I'm sorry Y/n I didn’t” but I interrupted him “no you didn’t hurt me it's fine, I just forgot I’m hurt. And if you’re apologizing for kissing me don’t, I've been wanting that to happen for a while.” He smiled my way and helped me sit up.  “What happened Dean? How long have I been out?” he sat back down in the chair and frowned my way, “you were out for a couple days, it was an ambush some demons wanted to corner us and kill us at once, I knew something happen when that demon bitch who jumped me told me I’d never see you again. She had me and two more had Sam, we fought them off and killed all three, but I was getting worried about you. I headed straight for the basement and kicked down the door.” I interrupted “that's what I heard before he stabbed my side, I knew it was you.” I looked down and saw all the bandaging wrapped around my chest, stomach and my left leg which was wrapped as well I knew I broke it. “I was fading in and out pretty badly.” he nodded “that bastard, when I was through with him hell wouldn’t be able to recognize him, Sam had to pull me off him. Once we sent him back to hell his power on you faded and I caught you before you fell. We got you quickly to the Impala.” Dean never looked me in the eyes the whole time he spoke, so I grabbed his hand and kissed it softly “Dean, what happened wasn’t your fault please don’t blame yourself, I'm fine and I'm not going anywhere.”

 He smiled my way and placed his hand on my cheek “yea I know, I just almost lost you and I don’t ever want that to happen again. You mean more to me then you know Y/n, I care about you so much.” I place my hand on his leaning into his touch “I love you Dean, more then you know.” he smiled my way and placed his lips on mine making me smile. He pulled away, “I love you too Y/n, always.” “Lay down with me?” he nodded and lied down pulling me close to him. I wrapped my arms around him as he softly and gently wrapped me in his arms kissing my forehead. “I never really asked, how bad am I?” he laughed “well you got a broken leg, a few bruises and a stab wound on your right-side Cas healed up your wounds as much as he could for now you just got to let your leg heal, so no hunts for a while and bed rest only.” I laugh “yes sir, I love you Dean.” he pulled me closer to him and whispered softly to me as I slowly dozed off “I love you too.”           

Ever since that hunt Dean and I are now together and going strong for a couple years now. He Sam and I all live happily together in the bunker and I wouldn’t have it any other way, but there was this thing in the back of my head that told me I had to tell Dean more about my past. He knows about my parents and what happened that day but there was something else that happened that day that no one knows about not even Dean. I was pacing back and forward in my room trying to decide if now was the best time I mean we’ve been together for so long that I trusted him enough so what’s holding me back? The sound of knocking brought me out of my thoughts “come in” Dean walked in smiling that gorgeous grin “hey Sam found a bar in town and told us to meet him there do you want to come?” I nodded “yea sure but um Dean can we talk?” he looked at me sadly “yea of course” I sat down on my bed and patted beside me where he sat. Once he sat down, he wrapped his arms around my waist “what’s wrong Y/n? Is it something I did?” I shook my head “no it’s not you it’s just um there’s something I need to tell you but I don’t know where to start” he placed his hands on mine “you can tell me anything Y/n I’m always here for you” I smile “I know you are, but this is about my past and I don’t know how you’ll react to it” 

I felt his hand on my  cheek “nothing will ever change my feelings about you but if it’s your past I’m here for you” I nod as I took a deep breath and started my story. “It was around when I was eighteen, this happened before my parents died and I had a boyfriend named Ryan. We have been dating since freshmen year of high school and everything was great, he was a nice guy treated me right and loved me as much as I loved him.” I looked up at Dean who looked a little jealous of my words which made me laugh and pecked his lips “don’t worry no one could ever replace how much I love you” he then smiled as I continued “around the end of senior year one of Ryan’s friends was throwing a party and back then I wasn’t much of a party person but he kept begging me to go with him so I did. We spent half of the party together until he went off with his friend and I went off with mine. I then realized that it was getting late and I had to get home so I went searching for Ryan.” My breathing started to get heavy as I kept speaking but Dean squeezed my hand encouraging me so I continued “I looked all over that house for Ryan but couldn’t find him anywhere until I felt strong arms wrap around my waist and he whispered in my ear telling me he wants to show me something but I told him it was getting late and I had to get home before my parents got worried. He told me it will be fast and won’t take long. I didn’t think anything would go wrong or where he would take me so I agreed. He led me upstairs and before I knew it, he pushed me into the bathroom.”     

    I looked at Dean’s hands and saw one of them was clenching really tight and knew there was no backing out now “then he was kissing me but I didn’t think it any different we kiss each other all the time but the kiss started getting heated and I was getting scared. I tried telling him to stop but he wouldn’t listen and kept going. His hands started going further up my dress and there was nothing I could do about it” tears were now running down my face but I continued “I pushed and shoved and tried everything in my power to get him off me but nothing was working, he was too strong for me. I knew screaming wouldn’t do any good no one would hear me over the loud music. The feeling of his hands taking off my underwear and exposing me to him left me petrified. The worst thing was I was a virgin. Pain was all I felt that night. When he was done, he left me lying on the floor shaking and bleeding. The last words I ever heard from him was “that’s all your good for sex and nothing else, I never wanted anything to do with you and no one ever will." I saw nothing but anger and sadness in Dean’s eyes "it took me a while but I was finally able to move and got out of there a quick as possible, ashamed to have anyone see me. The night got worse when I got home seeing everyone, I ever loved dead."

 I waited for him to say something “this is why I’ve always been afraid every time we go further what he did to me always pops in my head and I’m sorry Dean” he shook his head “don’t you dare” I looked at him shocked “what?” he placed both of his hands on my cheeks “don’t you say sorry like it’s your fault because it isn’t and I swear to you if I ever find this guy I’ll kill him myself but Y/n none of that was your fault, and I will wait for you as long as it takes until your ready I love you Y/n and nothing will ever change that I promise” I smile from his words as he wipes away my stray tears “I’ve been wanting to tell you for so long but didn’t know how to start it” he smiles and places his lips on mine. The kiss was filled with so much passion I didn’t want it to end but sadly we have to breath “I love you so much” he smiled and pecked my lips “now about that bar?” I laugh and kiss him again loving the feeling of being in the one that I love arms. 

Big Time Song Writers

This is long over due and I’m sorry its so short but this is the end to this story and I’m proud of it. Thank you so much for the love and support of this story it means so much to me. So please enjoy 

Part 4

I was about to kiss Kendall again when I heard the person, I've been trying to avoid all night “Y/N!” I shiver and turn to see my uncle with a smile on his face which is odd cause he’s looking at me. “What do you want.” Kendall held me closer knowing my body change quickly “uncle Cameron this is my boyfriend Kendall, Kendall my uncle Cameron.” They shook hands “yea we met.” I was shocked from what my uncle said and by the anger from Kendall’s expression it wasn't a good meeting. “Yea we have, how are you, Cameron?” When did they meet and how didn’t I know about it? “I'm fine son, I've listened to your band's album you guys are good you ever thought about going solo?” Did my uncle really ask him that? Before I could say anything, Kendall squeezed my hand as he spoke “why are you here? Since you tend to bring Y/N down anyway.” I was shocked at that, have they talked about me before? “I would never, I mean after that video she’s defiantly improved which is why Y/N.” he directed his attention towards me “I would love to buy that song off your hands.” I'm sorry did he not watch my video “I'm sorry I'm going to have to ask you to leave.” Kendall smiled my way at my statement “I'm sorry?” Kendall replied, “you heard her.” He was about to speak but I didn’t want to hear any more so I said two words that would get him off the premises “Freight Train!” My uncle looked at me like I was crazy until a big black man the size of a train was at my uncles' side who then looked his way terrified. “You called Ms. L/n?” I met Freight Train when I spent all that time at the studio, and we’ve been friends ever since. Kendall started laughing at my uncle's expression “yes Freight Train, I need you to take this man off the premises he’s been bringing me down all my life and I did not invite him to my premier so please escort him out.” “With pleasure Ms. L/n.” Before my uncle could say anything, Freight Train lifted him off his feet and carried him towards the exit.

I looked in Kendall’s direction and asked, “When did you meet my uncle?” he sighed “Remember that day I invited you too the hockey game and he was in town.” I nodded “well when I came to pick you up, he answered the door and asked me who I was looking for, I mentioned you and he told me you weren't the kind of girl I should be dating, of course we weren’t dating at the time but it made me so angry that he would talk about you like that, I blew up on him and he told me to relax he was only kidding and went to get you.” I knew my uncle has said terrible things about me, but I never knew he said anything to Kendall. “Is that why you were acting strange on the way there?” he nodded “your uncle pissed me off so much I wanted to go back to your house after to give him more a piece of my mind, no one ever talks about you like that whether I'm your friend or boyfriend no one will ever speak less of you in my presence, I promise you that Y/N.” I began to feel tears fall and I pulled Kendall into a strong hug not wanting to let him go. “Thank you, Kendall, and I’m sorry I should have told you what was going on from the beginning.” He held me tighter and whispered, “Its ok Y/n, we worked everything out like we always do.” We pulled away from each other and smiled, he was about to kiss me again, but Griffin interrupted by jumping out of nowhere “Y/n, great performance will defiantly put that one on the album” Kendall and I both jumped from his presence. “Jesus Griffin, I should buy you a bell, but I’m sorry that song is Kendall’s song its only for him.” He nodded “fair enough but great party and I can’t wait to see what you come up with next.” He then walked away with his entourage following behind him.  

The boys and Camille then rushed over to us with smiles and questions “so are you guys, ok? Did the song work? Can we all be friends again? Is the group back together?” Kendall and I both yelled “guys calm down.” And laughed “we’re ok everything's fine now.” They all cheered and were happy nothing was wrong anymore. We may all go through some ups and downs, but I know will always be ok were a team and nothing will ever break that.  

Big Time Song Writers

All songs/Characters apart from mine I use are not mine and belong to the person who wrote and created said song and characters. Also thank you for all the love for this series it means a lot to me and apologies that this one is so long wasn’t sure where I wanted to stop it but please enjoy :) 

Part 3

I walked out of the elevator as the boys came around the corner in their swimwear scaring me to death as they all smile and cheer “alright Y/N were ready for our apology day.” Carlos shouted making me jump when James then spoke “yea we have a whole rest of the day planned” I tried to speak but Logan spoke first “with very fun activities couples and friends can do all together, starting with a day at the pool.” I smile “guys that sounds great but.” James then spoke “And we booked you and Kendall a romantic night out at a fancy restaurant and movie I hope you like romantic comedies?” I sigh at the mention of Kendall knowing the stunt I just pulled he might not want to talk to me for a while let alone go out tonight “listen that would be great but I don’t think Kendall and I are up for a night out.” Carlos laughed “what? Why not? You guys would love it.” “Yes but” “not to mention it's a cute date and great movie” “I bet it is its just” “Just a great night you're looking forward to am I right.” The boys kept talking over me making me finally snap and yell “WERE NOT TALKING!!!!” The boys then looked at me shocked and scared at the same time. “Sorry I just... I need to get some air.” I then proceeded again to walk away from my only family without any explanation. I stood at the front door of the palm woods knowing I have nowhere else to go. I need to talk to someone, anyone but the boys. I pull out my phone and dial the only other person who was always there for me. The phone rang twice until she answered “Hey Y/N what's up?” Camille’s voice over the phone finally made me break. I spoke softly as tears spilled down my face “hey um can we talk?” She must have heard my voice crack because she spoke with urgency “yea always, come up to my room and will talk.” I smile knowing I could count on her “can we actually meet in the park its closer.” she quickly answers “yea of course, see you there.” I then hung up without another word and headed towards Palm Woods Park to meet Camille.    

Kendall's POV

She just walked out without explaining anything, who was she talking to? Why were they making her so upset? Could it have something to do with me? Why wouldn’t she trust me enough to tell me? Maybe it was the person that inspired her to write that song. I need answers, anything to understand what happened. I sighed and walked out of her apartment closing the door and locking it with my key she had given me months ago, not sure if she was coming back. I then proceeded to head to my room to get my thoughts together. I opened the door to my apartment to see the guys sitting in the living room and immediately getting up to interrogate me. “Dude what happened with Y/N?” “She was really upset.” “And yelled at us for no reason, saying you guys weren’t talking.” I looked at Carlos strangely when he said what Y/N said. We weren’t talking? What’s that supposed to mean? “She said that?” he nodded as Logan spoke “Yes but to be fair when she spoke it seemed like there was something else on her mind, what happened in her apartment?” They all waited for me to speak and fix their confusion. “I don’t know.” Was all I can say and I sat on the couch as they all look at me weird. “What do you mean you don’t know? What did she say?” I sigh and placed my head in my hands “I don’t know she was on her phone when I walked in and the person on the other line was upsetting her, I asked about it and she shut me out. She told me it was her problem not mine. It seems like she doesn’t want me to help so I’ll let her deal with it.” I know that sounds terrible but if she wanted my help, she would have asked for it. I mean what she said to them clearly means she doesn't want to talk. “Kendall are you serious? You’re not even going to try to see what's wrong?” I shake my head and sigh “if she doesn’t want my help then she doesn’t want my help.” I know I’m sounding selfish or ignorant but I’m upset. “Kendall, come on man.” James tried to talk to me but I shunned him away and walked into my room ignoring everyone.

Y/N’s POV

When we met in the park, I explained almost everything until we decided the rest will be told in Camille’s apartment. I spoke to her for over an hour explaining everything that happened while I'm trying to compose myself and keep myself from crying. She was listening the whole time not asking anything until I was done. Then the question I was scared to answer “did you tell Kendall?” I sigh and shook my head “no, no I haven’t and I don’t think I will.” She looked at me shocked “why not?” I sit down on the couch “let me ask you this. If you had a family issue, would you bombard it on your boyfriend?” she shook her head and laughed “no but I wouldn’t keep it from him and shut him out either.” I know she had a point but it's just how I was. It's my problem and I can take care of it myself. Before she can speak again my phone that was on the coffee table started ringing and I knew exactly who it was. Camille immediately grabbed the phone answered it then hung up after that she blocked the number. “Done, no more calls from him; you need to talk to Kendall or one of the guys and explain what's going on, there probably worried about you.” Again, before I can speak my phone rings but this time, I recognize that ringtone as Gustavo's. I grab the phone and answer “hey Gustavo what's up?” “Y/N, I need you at Roque Records now.” I was confused. Why now I was just there. “Wait now?” He yells in the phone “Yes now hurry up or Freight Train will come and get you?” I wasn’t going to ask who Freight Train was and answered “alright ok I’ll be right there.” I then hung up and turned towards Camille “I have to go but will talk more later ok, Gustavo needs me at the studio just if the guys ask for me tell them you haven't seen me.” She looked at me like I was crazy “just by me some time ok.” She sighs but nods. “Thanks Camille.” I left her apartment and made sure the boys weren't around when I left and headed to Rogue Records.

Gustavo and Kelly were standing in the hall way smiling my way, wasn’t sure if this was a good thing or not “what’s up guys?” Gustavo handed me a cd; it was the cd with my song Speechless. I was confused but then he spoke “Griffin loved your song so much he decided to make your first music video.” I was shocked at what he said, is he serious? I'm having my own music video “really? Your joking?” Griffin then popped out of nowhere scaring all of us “yes Y/N your song Speechless is incredible. I took it and showed it to some record companies and they love it. Which made me decide you need a music video.” I was still in shock not sure what to say as Griffin continued “and since you wrote the song, how do you feel about directing?” My eyes widened and Gustavo spoke “Griffin wait she’s never directed before I mean what happened to me directing.” To be honest I was agreeing with Gustavo I had no idea how to direct or work a camera. “Yea Griffin I don’t even know how to work a camera.” He laughed and smiled “don’t worry Y/N, Gustavo will teach you. I'll be back in a couple days, can't wait to see it” Gustavo and I nodded as Griffin left. I looked at them stunned not even sure what happened? “Is he even allowed to make a music video out of song that’s not even released yet?” Kelly and Gustavo shrug “I guess he liked it so much he trusted enough that the music video would make it a hit. Now let's make a music video.” And I am now stuck in Roque Records for a few days.

Kendall’s Pov

It's been a few days since I’ve talked to Y/N hell, she’s been locked up at Roque Records with Gustavo who decided she’s not allowed to leave until there done with her music video. Yea the guys told me about it when Kelly called James to let him know. Don’t get me wrong I’m happy for her she out of all of us deserves it but I just wish she told me herself. But I guess that’s what happens when you take a break, even though she never said that and I haven’t been able to talk to her. From what I know from Kelly the video is coming out great and it's going to be premiered at the Palm Woods pool area with a bunch of different record companies and friends tonight. Logan, James and Carlos came through the crib door smiling like they want me to do something. I glare there way and sigh “What?” James spoke first “don’t what us Y/N’s premier is tonight and you're not missing it.” I roll my eyes “guys we’ve talked about this.” Carlos interrupted me “yea and we agreed we don’t like it.” Logan spoke “come on man we know you haven't talked to her but you should at least go to her premier which is tonight; you don’t even have to be the boyfriend just come as her friend, cause we all know you cared about her before you dated her.”

The boys crossed their arms waiting for my response, I knew what Logan said was right I should be there for her even if she might not want me there. “Fine, I'll go but just to see her music video then I'm out deal?” They all smile and nod “deal.” I sigh one last time and think to myself this is going to be a long night.  

Later That Night

Y/N’s Pov

The palmwoods pool was packed with a bunch a people the regular patroness of the palm woods, some people from the record companies. I was nervous as hell and wasn’t sure if anyone was going to like the music video. It's also been a few days since I’ve talked to Kendall which isn't my fault Gustavo wouldn’t let me use my phone or do basically anything until we were completely done. I knew he was probably mad; I knew I needed to talk to him but with all these people here I knew I wouldn’t be able too. So, I had a different idea an idea that might see how sorry I am for shutting him out and for everything I did. During the time I was locked up in Roque Records I took a few breaks and wrote something from the heart for Kendall, now I just need to get him to listen to it but I couldn’t do it alone I needed the boys help and Camille, I was walking around the pool area greeting everyone that I pass hoping I run into one of the boys or all of them. Gustavo said I had to look like a star tonight so Kelly gave me a short blue dress and black high heels which I declined because I felt like it wasn’t me so I showed up in my blue skinny jeans, black V-neck and blue checkered flannel with my white convers. I know Gustavo won't approve but I didn’t really care. I walked around greeting everyone that came when I spotted someone talking to Griffen that I didn’t expect to be here. Griffen waves me over with a smile as I slowly walk over coming face to face with my uncle. “Y/N I’d like to introduce you to Cameron Morgan the CEO of Morgan industries in Las Vegas.” I frown and glare his way “yea we’ve met.” My uncle smiles my way “what's the matter Y/N? No love for your dear old uncle?” I shake my head and walk away knowing this conversation will put me in a bad mood so walking away is the best option.  

I then spotted the boys walking into the pool area with Kendall walking behind them, he made eye contact with me but put his head down walking the other direction. I knew that I fucked up but I didn’t realize how bad it was, I knew I had to fix us tonight or I may not be able to at all. I was walking towards the boys when I saw Camille as well. I grabbed her and then the three boys and pushed them into the lobby. They all screamed at me for manhandling them. “Y/N what are you doing?” Logan yelled. I sigh and make sure to look around to make sure we’re alone “look I'm sorry but I need your guys help. It’s about Kendall” They all looked at me with curiosity “We’re listening.”

It’s a few hours later and everyone has finally arrived for the event and Gustavo get on stage getting everyone's attention “Hello everyone I am Gustavo Roque and welcome to the premiere event of Y/N Morgans song Speechless.” Everyone clapped as Griffin then came on stage “may I precent our CEO Griffin” he took the mic from Gustavo which made me laugh “thank you Gustavo, Y/N came to this company along with the band Big Time Rush and just hearing her voice I knew she was a star and I can't wait for all of you to hear a superstar, this song was written and directed by Y/N herself so without further ado.” My heart was pumping as the screen was revealed behind Griffin getting ready to show my video “I present Speechless.”  

Video

I'm sitting in a white waiting room as my leg starts shaking from the nervousness of this interview with this record artist that I’ve been waiting weeks to hear from “Ms. Morgan he’s ready for you.” I sigh and thank her as I walk into his office. “Ms. Morgan please have a seat.” I do as he says as I try to calm my nerves. “So, I listened to your song and let me just say it's interesting.” I smile “thank you, I'm sorry but can I say it a pleasure for you to see me and like my song I mean singing it for your company would be.” he then interrupts me “whoa wait let's not get ahead of ourselves I mean it's good the song I mean really good but I'm not sure it's right for you.” I look at him dumfounded and not really understanding what he’s telling me “I'm sorry I don’t understand.” He then pulls out my cd and hands it to me with a contract stating that I should sign him over the song for loads of money. “I mean your songwriting is a work of art and I could hear Kesha, Selena Gomez, Ariana Grande and Beyonce singing this song but you, sweetheart you don’t have the image to be a superstar. So, sign that little contract there and this song is all mine and you’ll get millions of dollars of cash. What do you say?” I looked at him shocked and not knowing what to say, I took a deep breath and stood from the chair taking my song and putting into my bag “thank you so much for your time but I can't my songs I write mean too much to me and I'm not going to let anyone else sing them so have a good day.” I then leave with him yelling “hey you’ll never make it in the singing business you hear me never!” I walk out of the studio and immediately head over to the restroom washing water over my face taking a deep breath. I was slowly calming myself down when I looked myself in the mirror as the piano music starts to play from the song.

Here comes a wave Meant to wash me away A tide that is taking me under

I wipe my face with a towel and headed out of the studio with my head held high as my surroundings change to my house where I’m sitting at the dinner table  

Swallowing sand Left with nothing to say My voice drowned out in the thunder

My parents arguing back and forward about my life choices and a singing career shouldn’t be one of them. I then stand from the table having my surroundings change again

But I won't cry And I won't start to crumble

I'm in another small studio getting rejected for the same reason not knowing if I should continue this career or try something else

Whenever they try To shut me or cut me down

I cover my ears from all the doubting from everyone around me as I crouch onto my knees as everything fades to me trapped in a black room

I won't be silenced You can't keep me quiet Won't tremble when you try it All I know is I won't go speechless

It then fades to a close up of myself as its panes out to me walking in a long blue dress as the black begins to fade and light come in  

Cause I'll breathe When they try to suffocate me Don't you underestimate me 'Cause I know that I won't go speechless

It then fades to me in the studio of Roque records recording my first ever song when I first came to town with the boys. As it then fades back to me in the long blue dress sing my heart out as my surrounding fades away any negative feeling  

Written in stone Every rule, every word Centuries old and unbending

I'm then in my room getting random messages from love ones telling me my dream is a pipe dream that I won't be able to succeed in

Stay in your place Better seen and not heard But now that story is ending  

The words on my phone from a love one shows on the screen “Stay in your place sweetheart your better seen not heard.” I angerly throw the phone away from myself not willing to hear it anymore

'Cause I I cannot start to crumble So, come on and try Try to shut me and cut me down

It fades back to me in the long blue dress as the scenery changed into a field like area with flowers sprouting around me with the green grass fading into the shot

I won't be silenced You can't keep me quiet Won't tremble when you try it All I know is I won't go speechless Speechless

The shot then follows the flow of the wind opening up more of the area of the field being created as my safe haven for the confidence that I hide from the world  

Let the storm in I cannot be broken No, I won't live unspoken 'Cause I know that I won't go speechless

The fades back to me in my room where I get up from my bed a pick up my phone which pops up more hurtful messages  

Try to lock me in this cage I won't just lay me down and die

I walk towards my bedroom window opening it out to the world taking in a deep breath of fresh air as I look down at my phone that continuously keeps going off

I will take these broken wings And watch me burn across the sky

I then throw my phone out the window away from me forever as the camera makes it in slow motion leading to screaming out all my frustrations. I then smile with all that weight gone from my shoulders

Hear the echoes saying I

Won't be silenced

The camera flips back to me now in the field in my long blue dress on the top of a mountain the field is surrounding panning out showing everything around me

Though you want to see me tremble when you try it All I know is I won't go speechless Speechless

It goes back and forward between both shots as the sun slowly starts to come up make the sun fade my room out as it finally sticks to the only shot which is me in the freedom field

'Cause I'll breathe

When they try to suffocate me Don't you underestimate me 'Cause I know that I won't go speechless

It focuses on me in the freedom singing my heart out finally realizing I don’t need anyone else telling me what my future or where my dream will go  

All I know is I won't go speechless Speechless  

The camera then slowly pans around the freedom field landing on me smiling and finally feeling free from all the worry and away from all the negativity. I then slowly walk in the distance as the camera fades to black ending the video

Once the video stopped playing, I looked around everyone and noticed no one was clapping no one was doing anything which made me nervous. Did they not like it? But this was also the same reaction Gustavo, Kelly, Griffin and the boys had so I waited a few more minutes. I saw a smug look from my uncle who I guess expected everyone to hate it but then a cheer came from the back of the room that led to an all-out roar of applause. I then let out the breath I was holding as I walked upstage standing next to Griffin. I then bowed to everyone as I looked out in the audience seeing Camille and the boys cheering for me. Kendell smiled my way but I can still see the hurt in his eyes that I’m going to fix right now. I then looked towards my uncle who had a disapproving look on his face that I ignored.  

I then noticed Kendall talking to the boys which looked like he was going to leave which had me immediately run over to Gustavo who gave me a weird look “what are you doing?” I ignore him and hand him a cd and just told him to play it and I'll explain later. I then grabbed the mic “Kendall Knight!” he stopped before walking out of the pool area and faced my way “don’t go, just wait.” The music began to play through the speakers.

Kendall’s Pov

Her music video was phenomenal it still amazes me that she directed that herself. She stood on the stage like she belonged there and I couldn’t be prouder of her then I already was. When she made eye contact with me, I smiled her way but couldn’t help but feel like she still didn’t want to talk to me so I made a plan to sneak off but Carlos saw me “Hey man where you going?” I sighed as all three even Camille stared my way “we had a deal guy’s; I watch her video as support and you were supposed to let me leave.” Logan held onto my shoulders “oh come on buddy you're not even going to tell her how her video was?” I rolled my eyes at their attempt to get me to talk to her “guys seriously you said you weren’t going to do this.” James then spoke as I got Logan off me “come on man you can't leave yet, lets party a little.” I shook my head and backed up towards the lobby door “no thanks I'm not in a party mood, see you in the crib.” As I was walking to the door ignoring their calls, I heard the one I've been wanting to hear for days “Kendall Knight!” I froze and felt my body shiver at her saying my full name, I turn and see my girl on stage begging me not to leave “don’t go, just wait.” the sound of music came flooding through the speakers as her beautiful voice echoed through the mic.

Y/N’s Pov

The music of my song I wrote for Kendall came through the speakers as I slowly started singing  

Can't blame you For thinking that you never really knew me at all I tried to deny you But nothing ever made me feel so wrong

Everyone around Kendall began to move away from him and made an open walkway to the stage

I thought I was protecting you From everything that I go through

But I know that we got lost along the way

I took the mic off the stand as I slowly walked to the middle of the stage never loosing eye contact with him

Here I am with all my heart I hope you understand I know I let you down But I'm never gonna make that mistake again

Kendall was softly smiling towards me walking away from the door and closer to the stage  

You brought me closer to who I really am Come take my hand I want the world to see what you mean to me What you mean to me

I walked off the stage and slowly started to meet him in the middle without losing eye contact with him. Showing him that I meant every word that I was saying

Just know that I'm sorry I never wanted to make you feel so small Our story is just beginning We'll let the truth break down these walls, oh yeah

Kendall was now a few feet away from me with a full smile on his face

And every time I think of you I think of how you pushed me through And showed me how much better I could be

Here I am with all my heart I hope you understand I know I let you down But I'm never gonna make that mistake again

Tears slowly started to fall down my face as I think of everything we’ve done together and how I almost threw it all away because I was protecting him from my problems  

You brought me closer to who I really am Come take my hand I want the world to see   What you mean to me, yeah

I slowly walked closer to him as the song started to pick up speed

You make me feel like I'm myself

Instead of being someone else

I wanna live that everyday

You say what no one else would say You know exactly how to get to me You know it's what I need It's what I need, yeah

I was now standing right in front of him

Here I am with all my heart I hope you understand

My hand that wasn’t holding the mic was now entwined with his

(I hope you understand) I know I let you down But I'm never gonna make that mistake again (That mistake again)

Our foreheads were pressed against each other's as tears slowly fell down my face

You brought me closer to who I really am So, come take my hand I want the world to see what you mean to me What you mean to me

Everyone then clapped around us but I ignored them as I stared into Kendall’s eyes getting lost in them “Kendall I'm so sorry. I never should have shut you out. It was stupid of me and I almost lost you because of it, and...” my speech was cut off when his lips pressed against mine. I sunk into the kiss as I wrapped my arms around his neck bringing him closer. I can hear the boys cheering for us which made me smile in the kiss. We pull away from each other as Kendall spoke “you weren’t going to lose me, you will never lose me ever, you’re stuck with me.” I laugh and smile “singing to each other always makes everything better doesn’t it” I laugh at his remark for knowing no matter what happens or what we go through will always make it back to each other  coming to bring me. “It hasn’t not worked.” he laughed “no it hasn’t.”  

Big Time Song writer

Here you go with the second part of this series. Hope you guys enjoy :)

All songs/Characters apart from mine I use are not mine and belong to the person who wrote and created said song and characters.  

Part 2

 “Speechless.” I sang the last cord of my song trying to not get emotional over it. From what the boys said about writing a song being easy made me feel like my talent wasn’t that special which in the end brought out this song including my uncle's messages. Don’t get me wrong I know they didn’t say it to hurt my feelings but it still did hurt. Not only them but some record companies wouldn’t take me because they didn’t think I would last in a business-like singing, I would be eaten alive by the media and would be gone in a few days. This song is showing everyone whoever doubted me and it proves to myself that I know I can do whatever I want. I then moved onto the boy's song which I had most of the lyrics done with but still had no idea for a title I then sang the chores to myself “Say anything you want I'll turn the music up cause baby we ain’t going no, no nowhere I leave it all behind to be with you tonight and everybody’s screaming.” I sigh when I stop at the chores finding it hard to make a title but at least I have most of it done. I then take it downstairs where I know the boys are at doing who knows what. I take the stairs and through the Rocque records door when I see Kelly and Gustavo walk in the same time as me. “Hey, you feeling better Gustavo?” he smiled my way which surprised me “I actually am, that pool is very nice. Do you have BTR’s song ready?” I nod “yes but a title is my only problem and maybe a few lyrics but I’ll figure it out.” Kelly looked at me strange “then what are you doing down here?” I sigh “so the boys decided they wanted to create their own song so I let them. But knowing they probably wouldn’t get it done I made one for them anyway.” Gustavo glared my way “you left them alone in my studio?” I backed away from his anger “yeah but I mean come on how much trouble can the boys get into?” I looked at Kelly and we both ran into the hallway only to find it destroyed with instruments everywhere and posters ripped apart.    

 I followed the sound of screaming coming from one of the studios also seeing the table destroyed in the lounge area along with the couch and desk table flipped over. Kelly and Gustavo followed me into the studio seeing the band siting on the amps eating popcorn. Kelly spoke “what are you guys doing here?” one of them laughed and spoke pointing towards the sound booth “working with your new funny song writers.” I looked and the boys were throwing each other around and slamming one another against the glass. I then grabbed one of the mics from the mic stand and headphones. I turned the amp all the way up and yelled at everyone around me “cover your ears.” Which they did as I pressed the mic to the amp speaker making a high-pitched noise causing the boys to scream holding their hands to their ears and falling over. I sighed and walked into the booth with Kelly and Gustavo right behind me. The boys got back up scratching their heads from the pain, I then yelled “what did I say about fighting?” Before they could answer Gustavo yelled and was going to attack them but Kelly and I held him back waiting for one of them to speak. “Me and Carlos wrote a new amazing song that goes oh, oh, oh” I looked at them trying not to be annoyed from what they were saying to me.  

Then Logan spoke “but we wrote a better song that goes yeah, yeah, yeah” I tried to speak but James spoke first “but then they attacked us with foil helmets and hair extensions.” James then pulled the hair extension out of Kendall’s hair which I just notice making him scream. Carlos and Kendall had foil helmets that looked like battle armor and hair extensions which made them look like Indian warriors which I rolled my eyes at. “Hey it's because our song is way better” Carlos yelled as they began to fight again, I looked at Gustavo and Kelly who looked my way telling me to deal with the problem I started “hey, what did Kelly say the worst way to write a song was?” they looked at me confused “by fighting.” Kendall then spoke “yes but ours really is better because it goes Oh” then Logan and James interrupted by singing “Yeah” then Carlos and Kendall sang their song back at them “Oh” then Logan and James again “Yeah” causing not a bad tune. I stopped them “wait” they all looked at me “that wasn’t bad sing that again?” They looked confused but sang anyway “Oh yeah, oh yeah, oh yeaah” they all looked surprised as I shook my head laughing “I think you guys just gave me my song title, what you guys should be doing is not singing oh and yeah at each other but together making that your song.” They all looked at me and started nodding when Kendall spoke “it did sound pretty good.” Carlos then spoke “but do you like it?” I crossed my arms “it still needs some more lyrics which I have and your guy's voices, and yes I like it but do you agree that song writing is hard and won't defy me again?” The boys all spoke at once saying they were sorry and said the song writing was hard. I turned to Gustavo and smiled “ok Gustavo we have our song but we still need your music expertise.” He glared my way but smiled after “get into the studio boys we have a song to record.” They all cheered and we recorded the song.  

The Next Day  

 Griffin was sitting in the chair in front of the sound stage waiting for the boys to sing “Y/N I trust that you wrote the song and made it sound incredible.” I laugh “yes but the boys helped out with it as well along with Gustavo’s music.” He nodded “good lets here the next Big Time Hit.” Gustavo pressed play and the music came through the speakers as the boys sang.  

Oh yeah Oh yeah Oh yeah Oh yeah Oh yeah Oh yeah  

So, tell me who I am I supposed to be?  

What I gotta do to get you close to me?  

If I run away tonight, will you follow me?  

C'mon, c'mon, c'mon (oh yeah) I see you standing there all alone (all alone)  

Knowing you've been wanting me to say hello  

Cause when the lights start flashing everybody knows  

It's on it's on it's on Say anything you want  

I'll turn the music up  

Cause baby we ain't going nowhere  

I'll leave it all behind  

To be with you tonight  

And everybody's screaming oh, oh, oh, oh yeah  

Oh yeah, oh yeah  

Screaming oh yeah  

Oh yeah, oh yeah  

Screaming oh yeah  

Oh yeah, oh yeah  

Screaming oh yeah, yeah and now it's time I gotta make a move  

We could be together if you only knew (only knew)  

Cause life's too short, we got nothing to lose  

C'mon, c'mon, c'mon  

(Oh yeah)  

I can't seem to get you out of my mind (oh no)  

And I ain't gonna stop until I make you mine (make you mine)  

I just gotta make it to you by the end of the night  

Oh yeah, oh yeah, oh yeah Oh Say anything you want  

I'll turn the music up  

Cause baby we ain't going nowhere  

I'll leave it all behind  

To be with you tonight  

And everybody's screaming oh, oh, oh, oh yeah  

Oh yeah, oh yeah  

Screaming oh yeah  

Oh yeah, oh yeah  

Screaming oh yeah  

Oh yeah, oh yeah  

Screaming oh yeah, yeah, I know the night is ending  

And time just keeps on running out  

I gotta find my way to you  

Oh yeah Say anything you want (say anything)  

I turn the music up  

Cause baby we ain't going nowhere  

I'll leave it all behind  

To be with you tonight  

And everybody's screaming oh, oh, oh, oh yeah  

Oh yeah, oh yeah  

Screaming oh yeah  

Oh yeah, oh yeah  

Screaming oh yeah  

Oh yeah, oh yeah  

Screaming oh yeah  

Oh yeah Oh yeah Oh yeah Oh yeah Oh yeah Oh yeah C'mon Oh yeah Oh yeah, I wanna hear you say Oh yeah Oh yeah  

 I smiled and gave the boys a thumbs up as Griffin turned around facing me making me look at him with a frown. Did he not like it? “Well looks like we’ve got a new song for the new album good job Y/N and the rest of you.” I sigh and Gustavo thumbs up the boys making them cheer. “Now how about that new song I requested from you?” Griffin said as the boy walked out looking at me with a frown. Maybe they thought I didn’t get it done because I worked on theirs but they were wrong “all ready for you to hear Griffin.” He nodded “well don’t keep me waiting.” I walked to Gustavo plugging in my laptop with the music and walked into the small sound booth to the right of everyone giving Gustavo a thumbs up as the music played the song, I put a lot of emotion into. I then began to sing softly.  

  “Here comes a wave meant to wash me away. A tide that is taking me under Swallowing sand, left with nothing to say. My voice drowned out in the thunder. But I won't cry And I won't start to crumble. Whenever they try. To shut me or cut me down. I won't be silenced. You can't keep me quiet. Won't tremble when you try it. All I know is I won't go speechless. Cause I'll breathe. When they try to suffocate me. Don't you underestimate me. Cause I know that I won't go speechless.  

Written in stone every rule, every word. Centuries old and unbending. "Stay in your place, Better seen and not heard.” But now that story is ending. Cause I, I cannot start to crumble. So, come on and try, try to shut me and cut me down. I won't be silenced. You can't keep me quiet. Won't tremble when you try it. All I know is I won't go speechless, speechless. Let the storm in, I cannot be broken. No, I won't live unspoken. Cause I know that I won't go speechless.  

Try to lock me in this cage. I won't just lay me down and die. I will take these broken wings, and watch me burn across the sky. Hear the echo saying: I won't be silenced. Though you wanna see me tremble when you try it. All I know is I won't go speechless, speechless. Cause I'll breathe. When they try to suffocate me. Don't you underestimate me. Cause I know that I won't go speechless. All I know is I won't go speechless, speechless.”  

 I take my headphones off wiping the tears from my eyes not realizing that I was crying. I looked up at the boys, Griffin and Kelly who all had tissues in their hand. Griffin cleared his throat and tossed to tissues away smiling at me “good song Y/N well that’s a wrap everyone sees you in a few days.” He left without saying another word making me look at the boys confused “was it good or bad?” They all smiled and nodded saying it was awesome and great, but Kendall didn’t speak which made me nervous as I walked out of the studio. “Y/N that was great, will get this on your album and get the boys songs on their album as well” Gustavo said as he and Kelly left the room. I smiled at the boys still feeling the emotion of the song that for some reason I didn’t want to talk to them, their comment about my talent being easy still hurt and after the song was being harder to control my emotions. I left avoiding the boys contact until I was out of Rocque Records and back at the Palm Woods.  

I took a deep breath and breathed in and out as I walked out onto my balcony breathing in the fresh air trying to get the boys comment and everyone else who said I couldn’t do it out of my mind. The laughter from the record companies, my old friends saying it’s a pipe dream, my ex’s saying it was a waste of money, my uncle screwing me over, but I still never gave up and because of Kendall I’m here making music because of Kendall my dream was made possible. I smile thinking about him but it went away from his comment again which made my eyes water. “Stop mind, stop it. You’re a great song writer, you’re a great singer. Everyone who ever told you your dreams weren’t possible is a loser. Don’t take what the boys said to heart.” The sound of my phone ringing brought me out of my thoughts as I saw my uncle’s name flash across the screen making me sigh and hang up on it knowing he’d call again.

A soft knock came at my door making me jump, I moved away from my balcony and opened the door revealing all four boys standing there with frowns and banquets of my favorite flowers in their hands. “What’s with the Roses?” They all sighed “we wanted to apologize.” James said as I let them into my apartment as they set the flowers on my table making me smile. James, Carlos and Logan stood in the middle of my apartment as Kendall stood in front of me frowning “we didn’t know what we said hurt you that much and from hearing that song, we’re just really sorry, I’m really sorry.” I smile and peck Kendall on the lips “apology accepted from all of you” they all let go of a breath they all were holding and noticed that I had a hard grip on my phone “everything ok?” I looked up at Kendall and put my phone back in my pocket “yea I’m fine I promise.” They all nodded and Logan spoke “ok how about we meet you down in the lobby for a fun day at the pool?” I smiled and nodded “sounds great.” The boys walked out of my apartment as Kendall slowly stood at the door making me turn his way “are you sure you’re, ok?” I nodded as I felt the vibration of my phone ringing in my pocket making my heart race and tears close to falling but I held them back. “Yea I’m great.” He didn’t buy it but left my apartment anyway.  

Once he left, I closed the door and let the tears fall as I finally answered the phone “what do you want?” He laughed “aww is the LA life too hard for you princess, do you want me to tell your parents to send you home?” he laughed as I took a deep breath and made sure to not let him win “no and just so you know I just wrote amazing songs for Big Time Rush and for myself.” He laughed even harder “oh really can’t wait to hear it and mark all the flaws and terrible writing.” Then he hung up making tears fall out of my eyes as I heard a voice “who was that?” I turn to see Kendall standing at my doorway with his arms crossed “and why are they making you cry?” I wiped my tears away trying to keep them hidden from him knowing he already saw which made me feel insecure about myself especially when I hate crying in front of him. “It was no one let's just leave it at that.” He glared my way and walked closer to me enough to bring me into his arms “I’m not going to just walk away from something that just made you upset now what’s up beautiful?” I hate how he can get to me so well without even doing anything but I can’t pull him into my family drama even when he’s more family to me than anyone but I’m not going to have him pulled into this I have to push him away. I pull away from him and grab my purse walking passed him out of my apartment as I spoke "I'm sorry it's something I have to deal with on my own Kendall, I hope you can understand that." I walked past him without another word taking the elevator down to the first floor. Why? Why did I just walk out without explaining anything? To be honest I don’t even know myself. Maybe it was because I care about him too much to drag into my family issues. Even though out of all four boys he knows more about my family issues than anyone.  

Big Time Song Writer

This is a story I created a long time ago again its a rewrite for a big time rush episode but with my own spin on it. I hope you enjoy it and let me know if you want me to put more of this story on here. I’ve written a lot for it but still haven’t finished it. :) 

Part 1

         The boys and Gustavo all were standing in the Rocque with smiles on their faces as I walked down the hallway. Knowing those smiles I wasn’t sure if it was good or bad even after just getting back from visiting my mom and a reunion with the family including my uncle who wouldn’t stop talking to me about my failure and where I’m going to fail next. I stop and remove my headphones seeing them smile my way making me feel uneasy. “Hey guys what’s with all the smiles and weird faces?” Kendall pushed Gustavo's forward who looked like he was sulking and didn’t want to tell me what he was supposed to tell me. “Griffin told me to tell you that you're writing the new song for the Big Time Rush album.” I looked at Gustavo shocked as the boys cheered behind him as Griffin walked out of the studio room scaring everyone. “Yes, the songs you’ve been writing for yourself are phenomenal and Big Time Rush is next in line for one of your hits for the album which is why you’re going to write one in 24hrs.” We all were surprised by his words as I spoke “um a song in 24hrs? Didn’t that not work the last time?” I pointed to the wrecked sound stage that had the top sound writers in LA who fought about a title of a song that destroyed the small sound room. I know the situation because Kendall texted me the whole thing.  “Yes, sometimes fighting is the best thing to write a song, and I expect one for the band and one from you in 24hrs.” I looked at him like he was crazy “wait two songs in 24hrs, Griffin that’s not possible.” The boys nodded “yes, it is if you have help from Big Time Rush. Good luck.” Griffin then left with all of us confused.  

     I look at the boys “I’m gone for couple days and this is what I walk into?” Gustavo spoke “well sorry but I’m not allowed to help with said song but I bet you’ll do fine and I’m not jealous at all and ahhhhh.” Kelly held him back from me as Kendall stood in front of me wrapping his arms around me as the boys moved to protect me “how about I take you out to the Palm Woods where you can chill by the pool?” Kelly pulled him out of the studio as he glared my way. But before she left, she turned around and spoke “Y/N, get this song done and remember no fighting boys.” James yelled “not fair how do you know Y/N isn’t going to fight.” She folded her arms “cause I’ve seen her write a song also she’s a girl and we don’t fight over stupid things, see you in a couple hours.” Gustavo then came back trying to attack me again but Kelly got him out and the boys stood in front of me. Well, writing two songs with the boys this should be fun.  

    I turned towards my boyfriend and the guys looking dumbfounded “really I just got back and I already have to write two songs?” The boys sighed and Kendall spoke “look you’re not alone on this, will help you.” I laugh and cross my arms “have you guys ever wrote a song before?” they all look at each other shrugging and Logan spoke “I mean how hard can it be, I mean we could easily write a song in 24hrs?” I laugh “oh really?” All the boys nodded then Carlos spoke “to be honest it sounds pretty easy.” I glare at all of them and walk over to my sound room with the boys following behind me watching me carefully as I opened my desk drawer pulling out my note book with all my song writing information and tossing it to James who caught it but fell by the weight of it. “That is my song writing book which will help me write the song for you unless, you believe you guys can write it yourself?” James then stood up with an angry face and all the boys look offended. “Hey, we can do it way better then you can.” I laugh and sit down on my chair folding my arms “oh I’d like to see you try.” 

     The boys glare my way and fold their arms, “we can write a song Y/n, and we can prove it in 24hrs.” I laugh “fine I’ll be here waiting for that song while I write my own song oh and this is my studio so get out.” I push them all out the door and settle into my studio writing my song and of course because I know they can’t do it I’ll write the boys song as well. James’s comment about writing a song better than me was running through my head. Did they think I wasn’t a good song writer? Was I any good? Was everyone whoever said it wasn’t worth it right? The sound of my text message notification went off, I pulled out my phone seeing it was another text from my uncle who told me this dream was pointless.  He owns a record company in Las Vegas that signed Fergie, Justin Bieber, Shawn Mendes and Selena Gomez and is adding more to the roster.  

    Unfortunately, I wasn’t good enough for his record company to get signed which was the reason for me wanting to deny Kendall’s offer for going out to LA to be famous. I know I shouldn’t listen to what he has to say because I know it gets to me but I read it anyway. “I heard your third album and couldn’t help but point out all the flaws of your vocals and how all the songs were songs you shouldn’t even be singing. Also, I don’t understand what THE Gustavo Rocque sees in you. Stick to YouTube sweetheart cause that’s all you’ll ever be good for.” Tears streamed down my face as I threw my phone across the room making my thoughts go wild. I then thought of a way to get rid of those feelings into a song.        

Kendall’s POV  

     I mean how hard could writing a song be? I mean all we have to worry about is not fighting. I looked over and noticed Logan was reading Y/N’s book which by dating her I should know not to test her but I’m doing it anyway. “So, what does Y/N’s book have us do first.” Logan spoke “well it says stare into the eyes of the sun to find the killer hook” we all looked up in confusing but before I knew it, we were all standing outside looking into the sun burning our eyes. We all scream in pain as we open the studio door back open running in pouring water onto our eyes. “Ok I feel like she put that in their to throw us off but besides what’s making better than just diving right in and just making some music” The boys nodded “Kendall’s right, lets hit the music room” Carlos shouted as we all cheered into the room. Carlos was on the drums, James on the piano, Logan on the base and me on the guitar rocking out trying to find that rhythm but all I heard was nothing but beating on strings, drums and keyboards. We sounded terrible and by the looks on the other guys faces they knew too. So, we stopped and moved onto a more relaxing approach. The Game Room.  

Y/N’s POV  

     I was working on the melody of my song on the piano when I stopped and heard the sound of instruments being misused which made me shake my head and continue with the rest of these two songs. I laugh to myself loving the boys are actually trying. Who knows maybe they’ll come up with something? Or maybe not?  

Kendall’s POV  

    We were playing Foosball in the game room when Logan spoke “in Y/N’s book it said clearing your head and relaxing is good for song writing.” I then spoke “and what’s more relaxing than a nice friendly game of Foosball.” I then hit the Foosball back the other way as Carlos shot it into the goal making us win, he then did a happy dance and started singing “oh, oh, oh, oh, oooohh, oooooh.” I then stopped him and smiled “that wasn’t bad.” Logan and James glared at me “you’re kidding right?” James said I sighed “look it needs more lyrics but the Oh song at least has the melody.” Carlos smiled proudly as Logan spoke “O is a letter genius not a song title.” Carlos laughed and made an O shape with his hand “O and you guys can do better?” James glared “yea just give me a few minutes and the lyrics will come to me.” I sighed “whatever while you're thinking let's move into the music studio to write music.”  

   We all walked into the music room as I grabbed a guitar and sat next to Carlos. Logan and James sat across from us with the piano. “Look the Oh song is cool and we’re recording the Oh song.” I then started playing the guitar and sang along with Carlos “Oh, oh, oh.” But we got interrupted by James hitting the piano keys “I’m not feeling the Oh song.” I sighed “well do you have something better?” he rolled his eyes and yelled “yeah, yeah, yeah, oh yeah, yeah” he then played the piano “yeah, yeah, yeah, yeaaah.” He then turned around with an amused look “that was good.” Carlos then laughed “no our song is way better.” James then yelled back “of course you’d say that cause you’d always side with Kendall.” I then stood up offended “no he doesn’t.” Logan looked up from Y/N’s book and smiled “yeah he does.” Carlos glared his way “ok then you pick the song.” He said pointing at Logan “which one is better Logan? The Oh song or the Yeah song?” we waited for his answer but he sighed and said “guys I’d really rather not get into the middle of this.” Carlos interrupted “big surprise Logan doesn’t want to make a decision.” James stood up and defended him “hey he makes decisions.” I rolled my eyes “then decide.” Logan then started speaking with words we didn’t understand “fine the Yeah song is a happy interjection which promotes positive feeling whereas Oh cenotes unpleasant surprises.” We looked at him confused as Carlos spoke “say it in words that we know.” He sighed “the Oh song is stupid.” Then before I know it Carlos, Logan and James were arguing and ready to fight until I got between them and spoke “everybody chill, remember what Kelly said fighting doesn’t solve anything.” Few seconds later, I was fighting with James with the mic stands using the brass for a drum set as a shield screaming “the Oh song is awesome.” While Carlos and Logan were chasing each other around with drum sticks with Logan yelling “the Oh song is stupid.” I kept clashing my mic stick on James's brass while he yelled “we will defend the Yeah song till the death.”  

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Pretty Much Dead Already Rewrite

Daryl Dixon x Reader

Your Name= Y/N

Your Dogs Name= Y/DN

Your Dogs Breed= Y/DB

Season 2 Episode 7 

Enjoy 

Hey my names Y/N, it’s been a couple weeks since the apocalypse started and the dead started walking around. My brother and I are the only one left in our family, our house got over run in the beginning taking our mom and dad away from us leaving me to be in charge of my 12 year old brother. From the beginning we were alone until I ran into a man that changed my life forever. I was exhausted and covered with dirt and needed a shower and food as soon as possible my brother was back at our camp a few miles away. I was closing in on a deer when I heard the sound of bushes rattling I immediately had my bow aimed and ready. The person that walked out had a crossbow aimed at me as well he had short brown hair with a brown sleeveless shirt and blue pants “who are ya?” he said with a southern accent “I could ask you the same thing?” he didn’t put his crossbow down as he walked closer to me “I asked ya first” he didn’t seem like a threat if he was he would have shot me already. I slowly lowered my bow and placed it on the ground along with my backpack. Showing him I’m no threat I raised my arms in the air “my names Y/N I’m no threat to you I’m just passing through” he hesitated before lowering his crossbow as well “I’m Daryl where’d ya come from?” I sighed when his crossbow was lowered “my town wasn’t far from here, I’m on my own” “any family?” I hesitated not sure if I should mention my brother but he would have killed me already if he was a threat “my brother and I are alone out here.” He sighed and made a gesture to pick up my stuff which I did “I’ve got a group we have a camp not far from here, you and your brother can join us if you want” I nodded as he followed me to my brother. When we arrived at the camp my brother had a shot gun pointed our way “whoa it’s okay it’s me” but he didn’t put it down “who’s that?” I looked behind me “it’s okay he’s helping us put it down.” He slowly put it down “its okay Jamie we’re safe now.”

That’s what started our new family. It’s been a couple months since Daryl found me and Jamie, our relationship became more to us dating. My brother had a great relationship with Daryl as well everywhere I looked Jamie would be with Daryl learning to hunt or just helping him out. There was one night everything went wrong. I was patrolling the area we were at when I heard a scream and realized it was Sofia and Jamie, two walkers were chasing them off the highway we were staying at. I ran after them but got confused around the forest and lost sight of both of them “Y/N!!” Daryl was behind me “Jamie! Jamie!” Daryl held me as I cried “we’ll find him. I promise.”  

Since then I’ve been looking for them both losing Jamie is something I will not have. He’s all I have left. Also we came across a farm owned by Hershel Green and his daughters Maggie and Beth who let us stay until we find Jamie and Sofia I’ve been out in the forest everyday looking for them with Daryl and one day I came across a Y/DB who I now keep as my own their name is Y/DN and she’s been by my side since I found her, she got along with Daryl as well. I decided that I was going out in the forest alone but I’m bringing Y/DN with me. I was walking to the edge of the forest with Y/DN at my side and Daryl behind me who wasn’t thrilled I was going alone “Y/N why don’t you wait till I come back so I can go with ya?” I turned towards him and placed my hand on his cheek “Daryl I’ll be fine Y/DN will be with me and I’m a tough girl” he sighed and placed his lips on mine savoring it as long as he could then pulled away “I know you are but just be safe alright” I smile and pecked his lips “always am” he smiled then lowered down to Y/DN level “keep her safe Y/DN ya hear me” Y/DN barked and ran into the forest with me following them. 

I walked through calling Sophia’s and Jamie’s name every chance I could hoping to hear an answer back. I came to an edge of a hill which lead down to a riven, I looked closer at the water seeing something that looked familiar to me so I went to investigate. When I got down to the water there was a doll that I remember Carol told me about that she had with her “Sophia! Jamie!” but there was nothing. I saw Y/DN run down the hill to me and I had an idea “Y/DN come here get a whiff of this” I watched as they smelled the doll then started running in a fast direction back up the hill “hey wait up” I followed them up the hill. I grabbed each branch climbing up the hill but I grabbed a loose branch making me fall backwards down the hill. My bow ended up braking in half during my fall as I made contact with the water I felt a terrible pain go through my side as I looked down I saw one of my arrows sticking through my side. The pain was too much for me as I slowly fell into darkness.

Sophia’s POV

I walked through the forest trying to find my way back to my group and my mom, I was scared and lost and didn’t know where I was going. I got separated from Jamie the minute the walker was chasing us. As I was walking I then heard the sound of a dog barking which made me hide behind a tree which didn’t do any good since a dog was barking at me which made me scared but the dog stopped and was then licking my face. I then calmed down when I realized the dog was nice “where’d you come from?” the dog was then getting excited and was running back where it came from which made me follow it “wait” as I was following the dog it stopped at the hill I had to climb up. Once I got closer I saw Y/N was unconscious with a walker getting closer to them. The dog then started barking as she ran down and attacked the walker before it got any closer to Y/N. I ran down the hill as fast as I could and started shaking her trying to wake her up “Y/N wake up please” I shook her until finally her eyes opened.

Y/N’s POV

 I slowly opened my eyes to someone shaking me along with Y/DN barking Sophia was kneeling in front of me “Sophia?” she looked at me and smiled “you’re ok” I smile and tried to get up but the pain was too much. The sound of Y/DN barking made me get up slowly with pain coursing through my side. I pulled out my knife and stabbed my knife into the walker’s head who was almost close to biting Y/DN. “Your hurt” I looked down at the arrow still in my side “Sophia go in my bag there’s a white wrap in there” she nodded while I sat down on a log. She handed me the wrap as I broke off the arrow part which only left the stick for me to pull out. I yanked it out which caused me to scream and wrapped the white wrap around my waist “are you ok?” I nodded “yea don’t worry about me, where’s Jamie?” she then frowned which scared me “I’m sorry Y/N I got separated from him when the walker chased us” I sighed but was glad I found her “ok sweetheart let’s get you back to your mom.” She nods as she helps me walk up the hill with Y/DN trailing behind us. 

I was slowly losing energy with every step I took but I had to keep going to get Sophia home. “Thank you Y/N for looking for me” I sigh “I wasn’t the only one everyone’s been looking for you, your mothers worried sick” she nodded “being on my own is scary I thought I wouldn’t make it. I hope Jamie’s ok” I smile “but you did and you will see your mother again. Will find him too.” I suddenly stopped walking and fell to the ground with the pain. Sophia pulled my arm around her shoulder taking my weight “come on your going to see the group again too.” I smile but it faded the minute I heard growling behind us. I turn and see a few walkers heading our way “we got to go Sophia” she helped me up as much as she could. I was finally to my feet as we moved faster. The walkers were closing in and Y/DN was barking at them all. I knew if we kept going this pace Sophia wasn’t gonna make it. 

I suddenly stopped and moved away from Sophia killing the walker that got to close, Shasta continued barking “Sophia get out of here!” I grabbed another walker that got to close “but what about you?” there were at least five walkers left and I was going to kill them all so none get to the farm or Sophia. “I’ll be fine, get to the farm it’s just through those tree’s, follow Y/DN.” Y/DN began to bark making Sophia follow her, she was then out of my sight as I fought off the rest of the walkers.

Sophia POV

I kept pace with Y/DN hoping not to get lost again, but I follow Y/N’s orders and just went through the trees landing me into a field of a farm. Shasta began barking getting everyone’s attention, I then heard growling behind me making me turn around to see three walkers coming my way. Y/DN launched for one bringing it down in a second tearing its head off, then gun shots started going off killing the rest. I turned to see people running in our direction making me smile, but I frowned knowing Y/N was still out there.

Daryl’s POV 

It was getting late and Y/N wasn’t back yet “maybe I should go look for her” I told Rick “Daryl they’re fine don’t worry” our conversation was cut when I heard Glenn yell “walkers!!” Rick and I both looked out in the open seeing three walkers and someone else. Rick ordered Andrea to kill them all which she did. Once all the walkers were down Rick and I ran to meet whoever was being chased by walkers, Glenn and Shane followed. When we got to the edge of the forest we saw a little girl a familiar little girl, it was Sophia standing there looking scared and afraid. We were all shocked but I moved forward and smile "Sophia?" she then smiled and jumped into my arms smiling and I hugged her back tightly. Sophia was back and was not harmed, she then looked at me and I saw the fear back in her eyes and my whole world stopped when she said four words "Y/N's still out there." 

A/N: Wanted to start writing this. The book is complete but I want to see if anyone is interested in it. Let me know and I will post the rest