it’s getting harder to pretend..

from my journal

I wish I wasn’t so annoying like I even piss myself off

tell me all the things that keep you up at night

I'm past the point of crying, I feel sad but I don't even cry anymore, I just sit there, stare at the wall and feel empty and broken

I hope you think of me when you masturbate

i wanna lie on the floor and not think for a month or two.

i wonder what’s gonna fuck me up next

i’m actually tired bro, like from the bottom of my heart. i am tired