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starless & fatherless

@witchvisions

hello i'm taylor
i'm 21 years old.
i like people, places, and things
and the internet is my favorite place in the world
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friends: what do you want to do? my brain: die me @ my brain: we can’t say that. these people don’t understand casual existential despair

hialexa

It’s so weird when you had a “considerably mild” traumatic experience as a child and end up developing dissociation and bfrbs and others as coping mechanisms, but you never felt like there’s a reason to have them. Even if you never remember anything that has happened to you, but your therapist says you’ve endured trauma, and you’re still like “nope I’m just overreacting, my brain is overreacting. Others survived much worse things, but you’ve had one small thing happen to you and your brain is acting all like it’s the end of the world”. Internalised ableism is painful. Although I still feel like I’m faking everything.

I have to remember that trauma is not a competition.