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@windstrider2017

Call me Erick. He/him, 22. Multifandom, disaster gay, feral bookworm. This blog is a safe space free of bigotry of any kind. If you want or need anything to be tagged, please feel free to let me know.

Just a reminder to anyone who will listen! There’s a huge cold front coming up in America right now and I want to remind everyone to NEVER use or rely on a gas stove to heat up your home. You will die. If your power goes out, the best thing you can do is cover your windows, or get to an area in your house with no windows, and bundle up to the best of your ability to conserve heat. I know generating heat with whatever you have sounds good in theory, but we lost a LOT of people to carbon monoxide poisoning in last years Texas Freeze because many relied on gas stoves and other propane heat sources. A lot of people went to bed and never woke up. Please be aware of the things you can’t see, like fumes from your generator, built up gas when starting a car in an enclosed space, and of course, the excess carbon monoxide that can be generated by leaving a gas stove on for too long.

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we need to be teaching kids that macbooks are shit and dont do anything or else tiktok freelancers will make them think macbooks are good

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you cant do shit on a macbook without it hyperventilating and trying to start a fire, theyre like an inhumane breed of computer it hurts for them to exist

Irresponsible breeding habits strike again

It gets injured? Have to replace an entire organ (repair how the manufacturer does it)

Look, you know how horses are a walking disaster because they're basically the biological equivalent of redneck engineering for speed? How a broken leg is usually fatal, all that shit?

They have a reason for being like that. They evolved that way naturally because their environment...actually made it better than a lot of alternatives. But we can all agree that if you bred an animal on purpose to be like that, for absolutely no benefit to the animal, just because you thought it was cool, that would be unethical as hell, like that's mad scientist level of fucked up, yes?

That's what a Macbook is.

They used to be very well adapted to the arts, and their unique architecture made them extremely hardy against viruses and other pathogenic threats despite their relatively weak immune systems, but selective breeding has turned them into a mess. More viruses have adapted to be able to infect them, yet many of their owners insist that they don't need to protect them. They keep breeding vital functions and ports and drives out of them, so while they can survive in the short term, they can't access the enrichment that a computer needs for a long, happy, healthy life. Their bodies have been modified into a form that makes them need unique and specialized medical care, and they need it frequently, because the body bred for aesthetics is highly prone to respiratory and temperature regulation problems, as well as injury from just the slightest accident.

It's blatant computer cruelty, is what it is!

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I hate the ADHD thing of:

"You need to do X. this is very important" "can't" "oh well. I'll do something else instead and maybe I'll get the motiviation to do X later" "no, X is too important. you can't waste time on anything else" "so I'll just do nothing?" "yeah, and FEEL GUILTY ABOUT IT!"

Having your own personal blog is honestly quite a nice change of pace compared to Reddit. I could put a funny GIF of George Bush getting hit by a shoe on here and the worse case scenario is that no one even notices.

You put that on a big subreddit and you get your eyes gouged out and a heap of political discourse underneath your post.

YOU HEAR THAT EVERYONE??? I’M A LIL GECKO BOY

Beautiful. Absolutely beautiful. Perfect use of this site op. 10000 out of 10. Welcome to Tumblr. I hope you enjoy it 💖

It's really funny how Tumblr keeps gaining new members just because other websites mess up so colossally,, that Tumblr somehow manages to look better in comparison. Really embodies the idea of failing upwards.

sorry for being cringe i was trying to have a human experience

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streaming companies will say um we're increasing your subscription fee. no password sharing. no screenshots allowed. please subscribe to a separate channel for this movie and another for this tv show. free trial but put in your card details so we can charge you if you forget to cancel. this title is a rental only that's 4.99 please. this title is not available in your region. you are begging people to torrent at this point Like ye are off the edge of the map matey here there be pirates argh argh argh 🦜☠️

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oops i tripped and dropped my

youtube frontends

oh no this one has sponsorblock support

oopsie poopsies this one is its own standalone client

aw fuck my android boy!!

There's an etiquette to typo roasting. Like if they type "on" instead of "in" you overlook that. That's some autocorrect bs. But if they type "pebis" or some shit that's when you gotta get his ass

When Leah said how she’s “dressing for battle” in Leah on the Offbeat, I felt that.

#guess who's rediscovering his love of jewelry#it's such an odd juxtaposition of gym clothes and eclectic jewelry but it somehow works for me lol#usually i don't wear all this shit anymore both bc it gets in the way and bc i've gotten too lazy/apathetic/???#and yeah some of my styles it doesn't work with#but it's interesting to wear some of this again#getting back into wings of fire (read: dragon royalty wearing all their jewels and shit) has made me rediscover my love of jewelry#i don't know. it's a little harder to feel depressed and slip into a spiral of hating some things about myself/my life if i'm wearing this.#(read: having school and little else is not healthy and it's rly done a number on a lot of things. my relationship with my health for one)#(the fact that i have tater and some other specifically rly good things in my life is what helps. and silly shit like this. idk. it's pretty#(school may be depressing and taking tons of other shit away from me but it's not going to make me this apathetic anymore. fuck that)#(and of course i got depressed and apathetic. when most of what you do is school and worry abt school and miss out on life...yeah)#(books and music and stickball are nice but tater is rly my biggest reason for being sort of okay. he loves me back and i love him.)#like that other shit is nice but it's not equal to him. however. ALL of it is nice#and once this remaining stupid week of summer class is out of my way#i am determined to have a decent summer break#hanging out with him. getting some fucking sun and exercise. reading and actually being able to relax.#this is the longest i've gone with very little sun and exercise. it's ridiculous#i'm pale as fuck and i look almost unhealthy#i'm glad this class ends soon bc if this crap kept up i think i'd be getting worse than i am#rn i'm already fighting off another little depressive spiral#school is not my passion in the first place. and even tho i do care about it and think it's worth...something#it is not enough on its own and it's taken over my life for many many years now in a really unhealthy way#the worst part of it is being away from tater. the fact i'm with him rn is the only reason i'm doing this class over the summer#because when i'm away at campus and away from my family AND never having the time or energy to do basically anything but school?#it is depressing as fuck and i eventually (rightly so) slip into some pretty bad apathy#i know if that crap goes that way again it's going to make me worse#i'm trying to fight it tho. i hate it. i'm actually a person who is naturally kind of happy and actually has a lot of love for life#when it gets crushed out of me tho by a parasite-like amount of school...yeah#there's only so much of that a person can tolerate#in an ideal world school would be better but as it is rn it's an unhealthy mess for a lot of people (yes even good students. don't @ me)

Continuation on the last post: I think I’m finally losing some of my “resilience” because I’ve had to deal with it for too long and if a lot of it has not really been the kind of resilience that comes from healthy stuff or support, well. There’s a difference between that, and the kind of ‘resilience’ that’s just ‘I can’t fail/let up/etc so I just have to keep going and put everything else on the backburner indefinitely and just hope I don’t completely burn out or have major issues.’

Thinking about this conversation from Discord

Now see, this really pisses me off (the “kids are resilient” thing, not your response to it) because there has been study after study about what actually happens!!!

If the kid receives support during/after the traumatic event, they get stronger.

If the kid does not receive support during/after the traumatic event, they get fucked up.

True resilience in kids has ALWAYS ALWAYS ALWAYS been the result of the support they receive.

#what a mood. some stuff is improving now atm but like. oof#i'm having to fight a little zombie horde of trauma and bullshit that i've continually shoved (or had to shove) on the back burner for late#i'm rereading aftg rn and i'm ngl i'm apparently a bit more like neil and andrew then even i thought#i was so fucked up when i first read the series that rereading it is almost like reading new books rn#because i honest to god just did not remember or retain a shitload of the details#i remembered most of the biggest stuff and many of the details of book 1#but i haven't read these since freshman year except for book 1 which i've reread a fair amount#so. reading books 2 and 3 now is like...wow. andrew and his apathy for example#different situation for me thankfully but some things did still fuck me up#and i'm having to sort of relearn how tf to deal with normal emotions and stuff now#i went thru high school in a sleep-deprived haze and by the end of it i was pretty much emotionally dead inside and physically v exhausted#i've never been actively interested in dying but#during times like that i sometimes thought about if someone could come and clock me on the head and knock me out#so i could please just fucking sleep. every single day was a battle to stay standing and semi-coherent#how the hell anyone seriously thought i was a functioning and okay human being for so long i don't know#and then a lot of college has been a mess too. thankfully the sleep deprivation is a lot less and a lot rarer#but there's been some huge traumatic events that have fucked me up fairly bad#including my home life and my life as i knew it probably coming about *this* close to completely crumbling down#and possibly a few near death or whatever experiences#i got so sick last fall idk exactly how bad off i was but it was Bad and i am 100% still traumatized from it#every day i have to remind myself that stuff like a bit of gas pain from burps or some normal fatigue or whatever is normal and fine#like. bitch you're not dying. hopefully. you have gas pain. see you just burped. you're fine. or you're just tired and stressed from school#and school is a mixed bag. i think some sort of education is important and worth something but hoo boy#school and college have given me an extremely unhealthy way of doing things and seeing things and my life#i'm still learning how to do the best i can to finish that shit without completely neglecting and ruining my own health and wellbeing#i think it's worth it to try to finish school and pass my classes but i have such an unhealthy relationship with it that#i'm gonna try some therapy stuff after class ends. at the very least i'm going to try to actually relax and have fun#tater tot is massively helping (with my sanity etc). it's not that bad rn but still...sketch. and during Hell Semester (tm)#him and wil are basically what kept me from completely wanting to die. i hated my 'life' then (for good reason)#it's a radical thing for me to go 'there's more to me than just school and work.' there IS. there needs to be. and that's THAT.