the inherent pain of wanting to start again but also the inherent joy of getting to start again
I think adults need summer vacation. Like let's just close down all our jobs for three months and play outside. Please. I'm so tired.
“When I loved someone I finally understood that I was worthy of love. It seems a contradiction. What I learned was this capacity for giving required me to give to myself, that it was possible to do so. Someone wants you alive. They are not the only one who insists this. Love exists in me like a counterbalance.”
— Yanyi, from The Year of Blue Water (via lifeinpoetry)
we should talk more about how every decision you make as an adult leaves you with the same sensation you got at a friend’s house the morning after a sleepover when you’re the first to wake up. It’s dreadful and a homesickness and loneliness and you want your cups and you want your comforter and it’s just you on your own trying to get through.
i loooove being delusional. catch me ignoring reality altogether. catch me never being reasonable ever. catch me straight up making up things in my head to cope. delusion is my best friend
something i'm grateful to have internalized is the fact that i'm okay with falling off the wagon. like it's okay to have to go back to affirmations every now and then. it's okay to need pep talks or to need to talk to a friend or just to have an emotional flux. it doesn't mean you're an unemotionally unstable mess who can't sustain a good mood for a considerable period of time--it just means you're human. this was big for me bc i used to think i'd achieve this ideal where i no longer needed to read positive affirmations or hype myself up or whatever. but that ideal doesn't exist. accessing a good state of mind is an active process, that you have to repeat over and over, and that's literally okay
“For you to see beauty here does not mean there is beauty in me, it means there is beauty rooted so deep within you, you can’t help but see it everywhere.”
— Rupi Kaur, Milk and Honey
“Allow yourself to hope and believe again. Don’t allow the memories from the past to spoil the present, or to rob you of a future.”
— Unknown
“If I lived a million lives, I would’ve felt a million feelings and I still would’ve fallen a million times for you.”
— R.M. Drake
““It is madness to hate all roses because you got scratched with one thorn.” - Antoine de Saint-Exupére”
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““I don’t regret us but I wouldn’t do it again.” - Unknown”
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“she never thought she was good enough, but did you have to make it worse?
you treated her like nothing - like she didn't matter but yet she still stuck around.. thinking you would change..
you ruined her
shattered her heart into a million pieces. and worst of all.
took away the wonderful person she, was before you.”
- user12729101098472
Last night i had a nightmare and the funny thing was that there were so many things i was not scared of
tonysopranobignaturals-deactiva
generalized anxiety disorder is kind of a funny diagnosis...like this bitch is scared just in general
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Gian Lorenzo Bernini, Apollo e Daphne.
from Ovid’s Metamorphoses
"Perhaps they were right putting love into books. Perhaps it could not live elsewhere."
-Willam Faulkner
Susan Sontag, from As Consciousness is Harnessed to Flesh: Journals and Notebooks, 1964-1980; February 17th, 1970
Text ID: I don't feel guilt at being unsociable, though I may sometimes regret it because my loneliness is painful. But when I move into the world, it feels like a moral fall—like seeking love in a whorehouse.
