This is The Hardest Part of Having Both Anxiety and Depression
Yes, there are tons of exhausting things going on in this life but battling yourself is one of the worst no matter how you look at it. Having anxiety makes you care about everything more than you should and having depression makes you not care at all. Is there even an in between? I have a long list of things to do thanks to my anxiety, it grows each and every day but my depression keeps me so far away from motivation that I will never complete my list. I want to, but I just can"t. It"s not that I just "don"t care." It is physically impossible for me to pretend. Some people don"t understand how lucky they are for being able to get out of bed in the morning without going to full on war with themselves first. I feel terrible, all of the time. I want to brush my hair, I want to get all my chores done, and ace all my tests but it doesn"t happen. I have to have that extra five minutes every day to get me through. Sometimes all I have the strength to do is breathe, in and out, in and out.