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I Am Disappointed But I Am Not Discouraged - Lynette M Burrows
Last night I was on a quick run home from my husband’s hospital room and feeling discouraged. You leaped to the conclusion that my discouragement was about my husband’s health, didn’t you? You’re not 100% wrong. You’re not 100% right, either. Most of my thoughts were about how I wouldn’t make my self-imposed story deadlines. Almost immediately I realized two things: one I am being selfish and two I am disappointed but I am not discouraged. SELFISHNESS IS GOOD Before you try to defend my feelings rest assured that this was not self-recriminations but self-realization. To be a writer one must be selfish (at least part of the time.) Writers must guard their creative time. And my creative time had been taken from me by an important and urgent event. Before my retirement, I worked a day job full time, had a family, pets, and all the usual daily life commitments. After I put in the hours at the day job, everyone else’s needs came first. Writing got squeezed into the minutes between this and that. Since retirement? I have a writing habit where writing comes first. And on the days it doesn’t come first? I get cranky. I see that …