I am an ordinary stay at home Mom, hanging on the best I can. I am beautiful, talented, well educated and have been lucky enough to have traveled the world. Some say I have it all, but I carry a terrible secret. I am married to a domestic abuser. Life for me is perpetual survival. I have felt lost and alone, not knowing where to turn. This account is my story and my attempts at letting others know that they are not alone in their journeys.