Clawing My Way Up | Karen Ang
It has been a very trying 5 months. 5 months and counting of depression which I can't seem to shake off. It started in October last year but I hit rock bottom last week. I will spare you the details but I became suicidal and was almost hospitalized. I actually seeked hospitalization because I really wanted to die but my preservation instinct kicked in. Unfortunately, things didn't go my way and I still feel very unstable. My life is currently in hiatus while I try to get a better footing. A lot of things brought this about. My disenchantment with Burlesque PH, my real and imagined isolation, the death of my favorite uncle on Christmas day, and my fear of the future. Things kept on piling up and a new medication may have triggered it or maybe not. I've stopped taking that medicine but there are more bad days than good. My friends and family do their best to make me feel better and I do try to distract myself by watching animes and my favorite kdramas. Live one day at a time, a good