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Smoking V Anxiety – Who Wins? - She Might Be Magazine
Cigarettes and I have always had a complicated relationship. I started smoking at around 14 because the so called “cool kids” were doing it. Smoking was my in; an entry into a world that as a fat girl looking in from the outside, I wanted so much. I had a thirst for acceptance and to be wanted (something that I have never lost) and smoking brought me the approval that I craved. In retrospect, I was still the oddity. The fat girl who agreed with everything you said and was a handy tool to have around in a group full of what I now realise were insecure narcissists. By my early twenties (and with a much better set of friends), I was hooked to the cigarettes that I had always sworn I could quit at a moment’s notice. Anxiety and depression had whittled their way into my life and smoking…