I have to slow myself down 10 times a day & gently remind myself - you don’t have to change your whole life today, the best way to change your life right now is actually to slow down & accept rest.

I love it when people like/reblog my posts I made in the depths of trauma and depression in winter because it reminds me that I was right about everything. It really worked. I took things slowly & was gentle with myself, felt out my feelings, spent a lot of time alone writing & processing. The days felt so long and the only thing I looked forward to was sleeping but I kept myself going by truly believing that I would make it through, even though I had no idea what was on the other side. I’m thriving physically, mentally, and socially now and I never could have envisioned how expansive and bright my world would become just half a year after everything fell apart. If everything I’m doing now falls apart, it won’t affect me the same way, because I know I can keep growing & adapting. Just keep going y’all

I think i met an angel on the train

This older man moved my skirt aside and I absent-mindedly said "oh sorry" for being partially in his seat and he said "dont be sorry, this is new york" and then showed me all his poetry about observing the world and living as a restaurant worker during the pandemic and we talked about how i worked in a grocery store and as a bartender so i resonated with his work and he told me "i may never meet you again but it's nice to meet someone worth talking to. I might sound like a world class idiot sage, but you can't be afraid. That's no way to live. You have to trust your humanity." Then he shook my hand and got off the stop before me. Hello. Hello . Hello.

If you live in the US and you have a phone you need to keep secret for any reason, make sure that it is turned off at this time.

Yes, I'm doing this months in advance, and yes, my blog has very little reach, but I figure better to post about it more than less.

Please reblog and add better tags than mine, I'm bad at tags.

Also, when you finally turn your phone back on, make sure you are alone or can otherwise midigate the sound. Because it WILL go off the second you turn your phone back on.

Please be safe 💜

I dont know if this will go as badly as the UK test did, but the advice for at risk people DID NOT WORK for us, many people had their phones go off despite turning off the relevant settings and turning off their phones despite assurances that turning off your phone would be enough to prevent the alert.

I would highly suggest that you do not leave room for technical errors and that you store secret phones in a safe location where it cannot be heard, maybe with a friend or loved one that you can trust. Or perhaps go out with your phone to a public place.

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gaphic

sometimes neurodivergence questions will be like ‘do you find activities more enjoyable when they are activities you enjoy’ and it really makes me wonder if this ‘neurotypical’ thing has just been a big practical joke all along

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gaphic

‘do you find it disruptive to your focus when your focus on a task is disrupted suddenly and without warning’ this CANNOT be diagnostic criteria. they are playing us for fools

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alcorian

disability rights involves the right to do fuck all. the right to be a useless member of society and STILL be loved and cared for and have a fair standard of living. human beings are not defined by the capital we produce.

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solarsavoy

I had a coworker. He was one of the first people I met at my new dishwashing job back in March. He was always nice and thoughtful and talked about how well I was doing and always encouraged me to continue. He also grabbed some of the heavier dishes for me to put away when he had the time.

Time.

He loves music and enjoys the new Trigun remake and always asked for other anime suggestions. He was just a really good guy, but one day, he stopped showing up to work. I thought it was weird because he wasn't the no call/no show type of person and no one said anything about it. It was eerie not having him there, even though there were so many of us in the kitchen. He left his mark.

Well, it turns out... he was in remission. His cancer came back, and this time, it's not going away. I found this out a little under a week ago. I hadn't seen him since June.

If any of you have anything to give, I'd appreciate you sending him some financial help. All he's looking for is to pay for his end of life care. That's it. He deserves so much more. We can't do much else but... we can do this.

And if you don't have the extra finances to give, then please take the time to share this link and his story.

Time.

You never know how precious little of it you have.

Thank you for your time. https://gofund.me/cd74228d

"Nobody is going to save you, nobody is gonna help you, nobody is going to care that you're still stuck in the past" But it should happen! Have you considered that maybe all of these things should happen?? Why are you rubbing in my face that we live in a world where people will abuse you and nobody will help you or even care about you afterwards? What's there to be smug about?

Being hopeful that help exists and that some people will care about our pain is what we hold onto, to survive this! It's normal, human, natural and it shows some faith in humanity! What is fun about telling us there's no humanity on this world and to stop hoping anyone decent exists? We're already scared of that!

Yes people will care and yes someone will want to help really badly. Some people do take issue with abuse existing in this world and are working to make it better. Since you're not one of them, go enjoy your heartless world.

Top 10 songs

1.) Hey, Mickey! by Baby Tate

2.) Ultraviolence by Lana Del Rey

3.) Daylight by David Kushner

4.) Toxic by 2WEI

5.) Change by Deftones

6.) WTH by Freddie Dread

7.) After Dark by Mr.Kitty

8.) Streets by Doja Cat

9.) Wires by The Neighborhood

10.) Deathwish by Poutyface

Confession Time: I've been really deep in writing and most of these songs I tend to listen to during the time I spend writing a particular scene. The song WTH helps me when it's an action type of scene and I tend to switch between that one and Streets.

I don't know if any of you are interested in doing something like this but heyyyyy 😏

Big fan of characters realizing they don't get to die. They have to live. And grow. And be a person. And deal with shit they thought they'd never have to. And be fucked up about it. I would like more of this. Enough dying for honor or as redemption. It ain't. You're just a corpse. There is no moral value in dirt time.

"im having creation ideas beyond my skill level" DO IT ANYWAY. "i don't have good supplies" DO IT WITH BAD SUPPLIES THEN. "i don't have free time" SO DO IT SLOWLY.

FIND THE SHORTEST MOST DIRECT ROUTE TO YOUR CREATION BEING REALIZED AND DO WHATEVER IT TAKES TO GET THERE

a person online: i hate it when adults act like childish little freaks in public, smh. you’re an adult, you should be able to order your own food without help. get over yourself. also, why are some people, like, waaaaaaay too into the stuff that they like? omg, and the people who CLEARLY can’t even have one (1) normal conversation without acting Weird??? it’s embarrassing, u guys are embarrassing, get help

the same person five seconds later: we gotta remember to love and support the autistic community u guys <3

you know, in hindsight this reminds me of something

when i’m at work, people get mad at me for not hearing them the first few times. like, openly agitated. they’ll assume that i’m stupid, or rude, or careless. sometimes they will indirectly chastise me for ‘not paying attention.’ at which point i say “i’m sorry, i’m hard of hearing. you were on my right side and i’m severely deaf in that ear,” and they go “oh my god i’m so sorry i didn’t know.”

yeah. you didn’t, did you? the only available information you had about me was… that i didn’t hear you say something. the thing you hated enough to comment on was that i couldn’t hear you. you don’t get to backpedal once you find out that i have can’t-hear-well disease. i shouldn’t need to present a diagnosis to expect decency from you

if you attach negative characteristics to “didn’t hear what you said,” that will affect how you treat d/Deaf and hard of hearing people. if you attach negative characteristics like “weird and childish” to utterly harmless and well established autistic traits like “doesn’t make eye contact,” that will affect how you treat autistic people. it’s not rocket science

shout out to people who's family isnt entirely bad or entirely good, but something in between and you dont know how to feel about them. you feel angry but you also feel guilty, because you know they genuinely love and care about you, but sometimes they show it in a way you know its not okay. your feelings are valid, your anger and sadness and grief are valid, and you dont have to prove this to no one. bigger shout out to those with memory issues who know something isnt right but can't recall all of the bad events, only the feelings, which only increases the guilt.