I need someone to rip out my spine and crack it like a whip
*on a date*
Him: y'know... I think i like you.
Her: Why would you think that?
Him, shyly: I feel like my heart is going to beat out of my chest any second now...
*getting emotional*
I can't seem to catch my breath, almost like you took it away...
Her: Good, good... Means my poison is working.
Him: the what
Australia isn't about arachnophobia anymore. It's just f e a r.
The limit of videos in a YouTube playlist is 5000. If anyone was wondering...
Doesn't it irritate you? When you try to explain your ADHD to your parents but they don't take it literally. As in, they don't take your struggles and symptoms seriously, like that's what happens to you. It's what happens to other people but not you.
"Just try to focus a little bit more."
I repeat that to myself nearly everyday. It's probably a mantra without any meaning left in my head by now.
You can't do a task, if the main think towards completing it is missing.
"You must learn to keep to the schedule planner."
Just because it worked for you won't mean it will work for me.
I can't even remember how often I thought about planning the best planner and sticking to it like glue.
But. It. Just. Doesn't. Work. That. Way.
"We know you're trying your best."
I have never achieved the "best" you spoke of, I want to be so much more than the bare minimum i keep giving you at the end of school year. I know i can do it, but I can't do it.
"You will be dependent on the pills to keep it going."
And you will be dependent on glasses to see, but having them helped you so much, right? Although ADHD is much more serious than not being able to see clearly. that is probably as close as I'll be able to help you understand why I need them.
"Just try a bit harder, next time."
How long will i have to "try just a bit harder" until the effects of my hard work show? Why is my normal work not enough?
"Next time"? Ah, yes, the next time when I will wake up with full energy and self discipline that never happened before and hold the reins of my present and future to lead into my ambitious 100% everything life that i always yearned for? Where i will be able to try harder whenever i want?
I wish my parents would try and get to know my adhd on their own without me info-dumping on them then getting interrupted saying "it's too much information at the moment." Making me silence myself and then trying to avoid talking about my adhd because trying to explain it brings me to the edge of tears.
It's so unfair and painful living with this. It's a hardship. And i'm just 17.
Looking back at my past and seeing myself struggle, without knowledge of what to do about it, just trying to "accept" my "flaws" and that i'm just not as smart as others.
Anyone else with adhd think they're laying in their dead realm of possibilities and ambition?
So many goals, research, knowledge, experiences that i can't get because of being like this.
Can't even remain connected to my other adhd classmate that i want to befriend. Just stuck with myself.
Just learned about a "husbands stitch" and to say I'm furious is an understatement.
It's basically a stitch made for the husband's pleasure to make the vagina tighter.
They do that after the woman just gave birth. Just laying there. Sometimes knocked out. And they're obvious complications if it's done incorrectly.
They don't ask the woman for her decision. Sometimes the husband because of course.
Makes me kind of sick that as gen z I will live to see the year 2045.
What keeps me both going and dead is the possibility of a graduate student who will give a formal speech in the "hewwo uwu" language in front of literally everyone.