I feel like I'm dying?? Spacy and drowsy and suicidal. I do have a small infection and I am taking antibiotics but idk why I feel so bad??
you know that quote "when you have a hammer everything looks like a nail" bc that's how i feel whenever i have a lysol wipe in my hand
“do you want to talk about it?”
no, i want to kill myself because of it.
talking to preschoolers is awesome bc they have not fully differentiated stories into 'true stories' and 'imaginary stories' yet so you will tell them about something that happened you once (coyote came out of a bush right in front of you and got startled) and they will tell you about how one time their house was full of coyotes in every room 'including five in the garage' and they're not even like, aware i think of the idea that they are technically 'lying'. they are simply telling stories about coyotes bc its time to tell stories about coyotes.
Oh shit sorry my cats fell asleep on ur dash. Yea u can kiss their heads
I keep trying to post this and tumblr eats the post aaa!!
Anyway I found out I've been accidentally administering myself way less T gel than I'm prescribed which is probably why I'm not getting any changes yet!! So now I have single dose sachets instead of a pump which will be a lot easier to get the correct amount from (plus it's much more sensory friendly bc I can use the foil packet to spread it around and don't have to deal with wet/sticky gel on my hands which is sensory Bad to me).
I'm really excited for some changes to hopefully finally start happening!!! :3
when god closes a door you reach your little paws under it and go mrrwwaaaooow mmreeaaow
dont romanticize the sadness. just let it exist plainly, like it did when you were a very young child, when you werent old enough to give it baggage. you'll find it's more devastating and cleansing that way
'where do you see yourself in five years' sat on the floor in the pool of afternoon sun light coming in through the window