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put emojis on my grave, I'm the dumbest girl alive

@wanderingwriter87 / wanderingwriter87.tumblr.com

liz, she/her, human disaster. wanderingwriter87 on AO3. ds9 side blog @garakjuice

hey i might be making a couple youtube videos where i ramble about garak and garashir...if you're an artist who would broadly be okay with your art being featured as basically visual flavor when i get tired of showing the same episode clips on a loop, pls let me know. if i use your art i will credit your username/shop/whatever you want ✨

one of my favorite garashir seasonings is their mutual savior-complex-induced penchant for sacrificing themselves for the greater good and how that manifests in both hilariously fucked up and weirdly wholesome ways.

like julian meeting up with the former head of the obsidian order and one of the most dangerous men alive all by himself so that he can ask for some cardassian brain schematics and figure out what the fuck is wrong with garak’s brain (too many things). or garak having a round-the-clock panic attack in the walls of the prison camp to save their asses while two klingons culturally conditioned to venerate suffering and death nod on in approval and julian swoons and bites his nails and swoons some more. or julian in the holosuite like “we might die, sure, but what’s a little death among friends?” and garak being like “pretty sure suicide in a ferengi escape room with cum-stains that aren’t my own would cancel out every cool spy thing i’ve ever done with my life actually,“ and julian with his gun is like “bet” and garak just “you’re sexy and that means you’re right. let’s go die the stupidest deaths ever.” or garak trying to blow up the founder’s planet and himself and julian in the process and julian with his fucked up statistical probability brain not even batting an eye when he hears about it. “yeah that was a reasonable line of thought. anyway, this coffee is good.” insanity.

i like to imagine that after the war when the intensity has dialed down a few hundred notches, this tendency of theirs still manifests in these needlessly batshit moments where julian is like “ok but i feel like working around the clock to cure this disease all by myself makes sense even though it’s killing me” and garak’s like “maybe not, tbh. you’re not the only smarty pants, you can have help maybe? and i know this is sudden but i think i love you” and julian responds “we’ve been married twelve years. it is a little fast, but i love you, too. i guess i can live then or w/e. for love.” and at some other point garak is like “ok but i feel like flinging myself into this forty-foot pit to retrieve seven crying orphans and a regnar is a good idea because i was abused as a child” and julian with his huge brain is like “actually i think throwing a ladder down would be better, especially since i’m not a necrophiliac” and garak responds “oh you might be right. so no head at my funeral? cruel.” and on it goes until the therapy finally kicks in

Another dive into Cardassian daily routine. OR "You know, each Cardassian officer with at least a little self-esteem must take proper care of their claws. For example, when I was in command in the Second Order... Yes, blue claw polish, please".

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I can never reblog that one post that's like "what fictional food did you desperately want to eat as a child " bc I had this dinosaur book as a kid and in the book there was this illustration of a T. Rex eviscerating a Triceratops and feasting on its remains and it looked like it was having such a good time with the triceratops carcass that I would have traded anything to be that T. Rex. And I can't just add that to a random stranger's post

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I see how it is you can all post about cannibalism and blood drinking and it's cool it's normal it's ENCOURAGED even but I say I wanted to indulge in the absolute carnage of felling a 26,000 lb horned beast with my hands and then feasting upon the spoils of my victory as a child and suddenly IM the weird one

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Everyone says they want a weirdgirl who is hot and strange and off-putting and then she says she's harboring a secret desire to be a Mesozoic superpredator from the late cretaceous and you all switch up REALLL fast

You know what? I think Shane Madej deserves more credit for being literally the only man in the genre to actually walk the talk that he doesn’t believe in this shit. Other shows will be like “I am so SKEPTICAL I am a hardcore DEBUNKER” and then *two seconds later meme* “holy shit dude shadow people truly do control the government and Hillary Clinton hired the men in black to kill people, oh my god it’s all connected!” Ladies, if a man says he’s a skeptic, then he better be prepared to lie on a demon pentagram and laugh when a flashlight turns on and says it wants to kill him. Never settle for anything less.

Pretend, for example, that you were born in Chicago and have never had the remotest desire to visit Hong Kong, which is only a name on a map for you; pretend that some convulsion, sometimes called accident, throws you into connection with a man or a woman who lives in Hong Kong; and that you fall in love. Hong Kong will immediately cease to be a name and become the center of your life. And you may never know how many people live in Hong Kong. But you will know that one man or one woman lives there without whom you cannot live. And this is how our lives are changed, and this is how we are redeemed.

What a journey this life is! Dependent, entirely, on things unseen. If your lover lives in Hong Kong and cannot get to Chicago, it will be necessary for you to go to Hong Kong. Perhaps you will spend your life there, and never see Chicago again. And you will, I assure you, as long as space and time divide you from anyone you love, discover a great deal about shipping routes, airlines, earth quake, famine, disease, and war. And you will always know what time it is in Hong Kong, for you love someone who lives there. And love will simply have no choice but to go into battle with space and time and, furthermore, to win.

—James Baldwin, The Price of the Ticket

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people who try to "remind" you of your favorite characters' horrible actions make me laugh. "Let's not forget they did this and that" yeah I haven't forgotten, I'm just too busy putting him in a cute outfit

Did Julian feel like he was a replacement for Jules since he found out, or did he develop those feelings specifically in response to being replaced by a changeling?

i think the changeling incident probably brought those feelings to the forefront again, and/or made him realize specifically what he'd been feeling about jules and let him put words to it. love the s5 "bashir must suffer" arc

this is potentially really important:

I have someone staying in my hotel tonight that made me think that this would be worth sharing here.

If you are running away/trying to hide from someone that is frightening, abusing, harassing you, and you find yourself staying in a hotel to avoid being found, there’s an extra precaution you can take.

When you check in, ask the front desk clerk to put you as “Unlisted”. They’ll know what you’re talking about. What this means is that as far as anyone other than you and the front desk clerks are concerned, you’re not there. If someone tries to call for you and your room, “I’m sorry. I don’t have anyone registered under that name.” Same thing goes for it someone shows up at the desk. “Unlisted” means you’re untouchable.

Please, please, if you find yourself in trouble and seeking refuge in a hotel, do this. It’s really quick, easy, and painless for the front desk clerk to do, and they are not going to judge you for it. 

Tip from a hotel receptionist: (I work for the Green and Blue ending in Express- hotels will vary but this is generally a Thing hotels do.)

If you tell the front desk you do not wish to be contacted, they can and will put a note to everyone else who works there that unless you SPECIFICALLY say that a certain person is allowed to call/come up to your room, they will not let ANYONE near your room- ID will be checked for that person for your safety. If someone asks for you by name that isn’t allowed to know you’re there, the staff will simply say “There is no one here by that name.” If they press, the staff will insist no one is there and they need to leave. Also, housekeeping will be informed of your desire to be left alone and will announce at the door that they are housekeeping, for your peace of mind.

A good tip is to have someone else drive you to the hotel if you’re able- that way your harasser cannot find your car and wait by it for you. Also, if you CAN, stay in a hotel where all the room are indoors- usually smaller indoor hotels do not let non-guests past the lobby, especially if they ask for someone/someone’s room number. Third floor helps, too- at my hotel, we usually put people who are hiding from abusers on the third floor at the end- since you can’t enter the side doors without a key and the elevator is in the middle of the hotel. Always check to see if the outside doors are key-access only, and make sure you know where the elevators are, and see if you can get a room closer to the more secure area! 

Also, if you know their car, or the car of anyone they know and might use, tell the receptionist, especially if you think they may come looking for you. Tell the receptionist what it looks like. If you see it, or if they see it circling the hotel or in the parking areas, they can and will call the police if you need them to. I myself have called the police to chase off an abuser who wouldn’t stop circling the hotel. 

Sadly, this is not an uncommon thing, and since I started working at a hotel, I’ve seen my hotel shelter no less than six people fleeing from abusers/stalkers etc, but everyone at the front desk was accommodating and protective- just let the staff know you’re at risk, and they’ll do everything they can to keep you safe.  

I used to work in hotels for like 10 years, and if you’re running from an abuser, DEFINITELY tell the staff. If the series of hotels I worked at are any indication, a lot of the desk and housekeeping staff have been exactly where you are and know exactly what you’re going through. We were trained to protect your privacy and safety, and most of us would take that shit PERSONALLY when it went down. 

Make a special point to tell the night shift desk worker, though. If there’s going to be one person who’s accidentally left out of the loop, it’ll be them every time. That said, the night shifters are usually also prepared to deal with just about any bullshit and con that your abuser will offer. We have seen it all. 

As a former hotel front desk worker on the night shift, all of this is 100% true and you should use it for your own safety.

As a current worker in a large ER/Trauma Center, DO IT IN HOSPITALS TOO!  If you’re running away from an abusive situation, the chances are high that you need to seek medical care for injuries sustained from your abuser.  The moment you check in, you have two options:

1) Ask to be listed as a Private patient.  This means that there will be a red flag on your name for EVERY SINGLE STAFF MEMBER in the hospital and if anyone shows up looking for you or calls the hospital asking about you, you don’t exist.  You will have an option to list a password if there are one or two people you DO want to visit you or receive updates about you, but you’ll need to provide the password to those individuals on your own; the hospital won’t do it for you.  The hospital will never acknowledge to anybody that you’re there, unless that person gives the password unprompted (as in, we can’t ask them for the password - they have to volunteer it without suggestion from us).  Unlike a hotel, if a hospital breaks this policy they can be subjected to absolutely massive federal fines.

2) Ask to be listed as an Alias patient.  This means that we will literally change the name in your medical chart and not change it back until after you’ve been discharged.  For the duration of your stay, you will be listed under a fake name.  This will NOT list you as Private so anyone calling or showing up and asking about your pseudonym WILL be told that you’re there, but they would have to know said pseudonym ahead of time.  Hospitals use this function for celebrities, people in political power, high-ranking members of the organization (like the hospital CEO), and - most commonly - regular members of staff who don’t want to let their colleagues know they’re being treated in the same facility where they work.  Usually, being listed as a Private patient is enough, but if you work at the hospital where you’ve sought treatment, I would highly recommend using an Alias.

THESE OPTIONS ARE NOT MUTUALLY EXCLUSIVE.  By that, I mean you CAN use both at the same time, and none of the hospital staff can tell you otherwise.  Whether or not you use either or both options is entirely up to YOU and whether you feel safe enough.  Take whatever measures necessary to protect yourself.

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not all kinks are sublimated anxieties, but the readiness with which we turn our sublimated anxieties into sexual fantasies is one of the most endearing things about our species to me. like our brains are like, “hmm. don’t like this. i should jerk off about it.”