I know this is three years later but for the record, there's nothing wrong with Armenia. I met some wonderful friends and mentors there. I also experienced trauma which is why I associate it with bad things, but as the years go on I learn to disassociate with the bad as much as possible and relearn my decades long appreciation with new and deeper knowledge. Armenia is very safe, as much as anywhere, thing is no where is perfectly safe. I went alone, though yes with a group technically but really alone, and quite mentally unwell and easily exploitable -- and with being a mentally ill woman under capitalism comes danger, even among "your own people." I hate that the association with Armenia for me became tainted, but I'm glad to be growing out of it slowly, finally. Please go, you will meet wonderful people.

I just spent my free evening exploring my drafts here, and what I've discovered is I actually have a lot more respect for myself when I was younger than the image I had in my memory beforehand. While I don't agree with my past self in a lot of things, I was smarter and less arrogant than I remember. We are actually a lot alike. I have this image of myself now as being fundamentally transformed in some way, but that's not really true. I was far more ill then, and obviously had a lot less life experience, but there's a lot there I admire. How interesting.

well now I keep checking here, god dammit

Yes

????

I'd like to say I've changed over the years, but really I'm just a piece of shit as always, who has had enough beer to become nostalgic

Who still follows this bitch????

Literally every single last person

You’ve all changed your urls and icons I don’t know who the hell any of you are

First I saw this book title:

Then I saw this book title:

And I acutally said out loud “oOOOOh it’s bout to go downnn”