i hate the exact combination i have to deal with. im not satisfied with imagining these sexual scenarios since actually taking the steps to act one out. the real thing is just too good, i see the imitation and want the real. the only way ill ever satisfy this urge without risking my entire life is sex tourism
i also want her to fuck me. its not like i want to rape or dominate or control or consume my mother. i want to make love to her
wanting to fuck my mother forced me over too many boundaries. when i was the only one in the house i looked on her and her boyfriends computer for her nudes. i found them. she has such a wonderful body... i couldn't help it after finding her dildo bag and sucking on half of them knowing theyd been inside her, it set my brain on fire forever. ill never be able to tell the whole truth for the rest of my life. it would make my life not worth living
i wish i got to suck more dicks as a kid. i wish i got a chance at a normal life. i wish i was raped brutally. i wish i was dead
im gonna go ahead and straight up say it i do dream of having sex with my mother. i love her and she loves me, but i cant know if its in... that way. i get the tiniest inkling shes into weird shit but how the FUCK could i ever approach her with that. i cant. itll never happen. the shame id feel if it ever did happen.... the shame she would feel.... the risk of ruining our relationship forever over the chance at loving her physically in that way is too great. maybe i should just cheat on my gf with a milf who wants to try out some girldick and get it out of my system
i dont want to hurt a kid i want to know im not going to fuck the kid up for life but theres no way that can mix with sex so all im gonna be doing wrt to being a pedo for the rest of my life is fucking baby sized sex dolls i guess
this place relieves the pressure. this place placates the urge. i am still getting off to loli n shota constantly, but it hurts less.
proving to myself i can have greater control is worth more to me right now than finding a baseline that both relieves the urges and remains within certain bounds.
franka didnt pull a prank on anyone today, good for her!
iliacobserva-deactivated2022082
reblog this to fix the mental health of the person u rb’d it from pls I BEG
complex-sister
reblog this version to make the mental health of the person u rb'd it from more strange and baroque and sexy
happy girltwink sunday. go idolize a girl with no ass. a girl with that bishoujo boy build. a girl who sounds like two blocks of wood clacking when she drops into her chair. a girl who can get away with no top at the beach. a girl who gets asked if she'll be the one paying when she goes out with a femme, but never gets the check when she's out with a butch. a girl who gets called "juicy" in her mobage of origin despite being utterly devoid of juice. a girl who has smear frames and cannot be photographed. a girl who isn't exactly FREQUENTLY mistaken for a femboy but still notes that it happens a little bit more often, and paradoxically less often, than she'd like. a girl who shops at hot topic and wears thrifted black jeans. a girl who
New Winter fit just dropped
i still look on being raped by that black kid pleasantly. he just took me in a room for a bit, took his pants off, i did some things i didnt understand, he made faces i couldnt read, and that was it.
any of my fantasies that lasts beyond just getting sex are kind, i realize. the idea of keeping some kid in a cage for days or weeks or months or years makes me want to throw up most of the time
its so difficult to talk around the reason why i was forced to go to a sex therapist, so i just end up unable to talk abt a major part of why my relationship with sex is so strained and painful.
