-- WRITEBLR (RE)INTRODUCTION;

-- ABOUT ME;

i'm a transgender disabled writer (who... needs to start using writeblr again). i've been writing since i was four or five years old, and writing has always been my main outlet for Experiences and Emotions and All Of The Side Effects Of Being Alive. in short, i cannot stop writing or i will die. hence why i should use my actual writing blog more!

my writing comes in a variety pack of fuckery but my greatest loves are poetry, science fiction, and creative nonfiction. i'm deeply passionate about disability & mental illness representation, alien cultures, platonic soulmates, monstrousness and the perception of it, nightmares, and pretty much anything "weird".

(you can see my published pieces, my self-published collection of poetry, and my substack newsletter here!)

-- MY WIPS;

i have two main WIPs right now...

i've been gone a while, and mostly it's been for a number of reasons, mainly mental health (who's surprised?) i haven't been writing because i struggle deeply with avolition, and because my adhd has been unmedicated for my whole life up until two weeks ago, but i'm finally feeling better all around so i'm getting back into the swing of things. i've also been working on my novel quite a bit when i do have the ability to write, so that's what's been taking up most of my time.

i feel like a person now, so a few updates:

- i am rebranding, which you may have noticed. i used to be graveyardescape but im now vividviverrid. this is for 3 reasons: it sounds better to me, it's not rooted in a negative concept like my last username was, and my first real special interest was viverrids as a young autistic kid haha, i'm paying respect to that kid - i have a website now! i am still working on it, but it is https://kaelknoxtonmartin.co if you want to check it out :)

i'm trying to be more active on my writing-based social media and actually bring more work to the world lol

[Image ID: A photograph of a notebook page. The written text reads:

"...I feel like my need for it is insatiable, and attention is... also my biggest fear! I want it, I hate it, I need it, I'm petrified... Truly a dilemma. Truly a burden, insurmountable-the weighted forces of desire. I am scared of all that I want and all I want is to be scared in peace, in the light, scared in the crowd, scared in their arms, scared on my own."

/End ID.]

from my journal

NAME TAG: a piece of interactive art by kael knoxton martin

An interactive surreal game about the inner world of a DID system (I have DID myself). You play as a new alter navigating the inner world, conversing with other alters and, ultimately, picking a name for yourself and finding a place in this world.

This is my most complex twine piece yet and I'm proud. Please inform me of any bugs.

Trigger warning for gore, violence, unreality, implied child abuse, and suicide mentions.

Play here:

i am in this! please check it out, can't wait to read all the other work!

writing exercise i just thought of:

i'm gonna try this out and see if it can get my creativity to flow again

anyone can write poetry because poetry can be found in anything. birds write poetry with their beautiful songs. white-spotted pufferfish write poetry with their sand art. each little flower bud that springs from the Earth was created with intention. i see myself as a poet only because the world is already doing the work for me, and my job is just to translate. anyone can write poetry regardless of perceived skill or time or effort because the universe is just begging us to do it, with all of its bad and good experiences and beautiful sights. there are my thoughts for today.

a zine that's only ostensibly about dreams

hypothetical explanations for the paradox

from keep out (no seriously) #1

sorry i haven't been on here much! i haven't been Writing much. i know it is nanowrimo now and i'm workin on it ! I'm working !! Going to an in person write in an hour from now ! I swear !

testing out electric zine maker

new personal essay

thoughts on recent events

little circles;

---by kael knoxton martin, a wip intro.

genre - horror.

age range - adult.

status - planning.

content warnings - child abuse, child death (unrelated to abuse), cannibalism, body horror

summary.

When Seraphina Evans was ten, she had a nightmare.