'and you laugh like you've never been lonely'

20th October 2022;

I used to make these like every day of my teenage life lol so thought I’d do one. I had a bit of a lie in (7:30 mid week is a lie in right) and slept through my housemates getting up and out which was a miracle as our walls are paper thin and one moves around the house like an elephant. I ate overnight oats and watched tv on my phone then got the bus to placement. I had a good day, I joined an assessment, had supervision, chatted to my team etc. They are all genuinely great and I’m excited for the next few months. It’s so nice to be working with young people at last!! After placement I went to drop off a parcel of something I sold on Vinted, got the bus home and picked up a parcel I bought on Vinted. Then I ran to the gym for a spinning class, did it, ran home, showered and ate roasted aubergine with a nice dressing and brocolli. I realised I hadn’t had carbs so I ate 2 lemon cupcakes too. Everything feels very “okay” right now. Just alright. It’s nearly a year since to the day since my ex dumped me out of the blue, and while I’ve curated a nice little life for myself in london, I’d hoped by 25 I wouldn’t feel such an impending sense of emptiness most of the time. But hey ho.

Hello I never use this account anymore but I miss all the lovely messages and helpful responses people would send me. All you kind a strangers on the internet helped me through my teenage years and I like to acknowledge how grateful I am for that for anyone who still uses tumblr <3 in some ways I am still the awkward teenager I once was and in others I am so different

Selling lots of clothes on Vinted :))

Who doesn’t love a post break up glow up x

Please send me tips and stories of how to get over a break up. I know I'm a grown up but I feel so sad rn and need some positivity!!!

Knowing that my ex wrote I was the love of his life in my anniversary card 2 weeks ago, and dismissed me saying 3 times that something was wrong by saying not to worry and that everything was fine when he'd been doubting our relationship for months has made me so confused and sad. The boy who broke up with me at the weekend did not feel like the one I spent the last year with :(

Thanks so much 💕💕

Thanks so much 💕

Thank you 💕 he said he started to have doubts a couple of months ago and he feels like his feelings changed. He basically fell out of love with me but didn't have any specific reasons. We're taking a 4 week break to see if his feelings change at all but I'm not holding out any hope. I'm really sad because he was really perfect to me and I can't believe he didn't feel the same way or show he didn't in recent months. If anyone has any experience of reviving a relationship in this situation or thinks there's any hope for us/has any advice I would love to hear successful experiences! He was doubtful but willing to try.

My boyfriend broke up with me this morning out of the blue. Feeling really, really low today and he's stayed at my house because he didn't want me to be on my own which was definitely a good idea because I felt really weird earlier and was scared I was going to hurt myself impulsively or something. I truly believed he was the love of my life which probably sounds ridiculous so I am really not looking forward to trying to get over this. Everyone is being so nice to me and I have friends offering to meet up but I still can't quite believe this has happened

Sorry to be cringe x but I still can't believe I found a partner who loves me like this. I truly felt like I would never find someone who loves me reciprocally and makes me feel so happy and safe and secure. He makes me feel good about myself and wow it's the greatest thing ever 😭

Thank you :) it really is! Tbh I think a lot of it is him, he is very calm and patient and kind. I am so insecure- I think a mix of generally poor self esteem and past relationships and he will always reassure me and let me vent my anxieties. That's been really helpful because I feel like he listens and doesn't just say what I want to hear. He is very affectionate and caring and I just feel like our feelings are reciprocal rather than me giving more or worrying constantly. I don't think there's been a change in me necessarily- obviously you learn from every relationship but I don't think I've necessarily got better at managing anxieties etc. but maybe also he's just a bit more mature than my exes lol

Finally some graduation photos after finishing my degree a year ago

Thank you :)! I start in September!