being a person in your 20s is like being 40 and being 16 at the same time. i am simultaneously too old and too young for this shit
not flirting with anyone anymore pull me toward you by my red string of fate or fuck off
everyone hates orange until they actually see her in context. "oh it's such an ugly color, too bright!" look at sunsets and autumn, look at campfires and deserts. she's the most beautiful and special part of the scene. now apologize.
i'm sorry. i feel like this post just cleansed me of my sins, they're so right
Yeah you're right. It WOULD be pretty fucked up if you were a swan but you were raised by ducks and you grew up never seeing another swan or even knowing that such a thing as a swan even existed so you just thought you were a duck with something super wrong with it.
its true that romance amd friendship will not solve everything but. objectively speaking its very hard to get sad when you can say 'lets go get cake tomorrow okay' and someone will go get cake with you. like there is some good at least. you know
i am #excited because i am writing a lot now... honestly i'm always excited when i am able to find myself being able to be more creative
i HATE writing blocks and funks and honestly i get that that's normal, and writing is difficult and it's never sustainable for anyone to try to write quickly under a short time frame.. but honestly i just love writing. i don't even care about putting my stuff out there or not
also realized that i desire more mutuals. but it's difficult because usually on almost every social media platform i have, i never reach out to people... i just post and go. but i'm willing to put in the work to meet some more people, i would love it if i can stay away from twitter and not have my head filled with rage on a daily basis, yk?
dont romanticize the sadness. just let it exist plainly, like it did when you were a very young child, when you werent old enough to give it baggage. you'll find it's more devastating and cleansing that way
James Zamora - Jelly Aisle, 2023
i feel like all i do is watch people and notice all the beautiful things about them and try to understand them fully and no one does that for me … sometimes i feel like i’m just a mirror to reflect people back to themselves. a vessel for love and that’s it… i make everyone else into poetry and no one else sees me the way i see them it’s so depressing
I only ever want the simple and small things. A bowl of fruit. To exist comfortably. To be accepted. To be loved. To eat nice food. To laugh as much as I can.
that awkward feeling when love isn't enough for survival
well radical love is enough but radical love would require a collapse of the current system. and even then who is to say the next system would be much better
Self improvement is great but ultimately? you have to accept your self. Yes you can eat better, exercise more, read more, set boundaries, love your self, but it all comes down to this. Some days you won’t have the energy to do any of these things. And you’ll look in the mirror and think that this is not enough. That’s a lie. The biggest love for self is to live slowly. To rest. To really rest. Have a nap. Eat what makes you feel good. Read if you want to. Embrace yourself and accept that you cannot and will not be ever be perfect. Accept that you are good enough. You don’t need to keep busy all the time. you don’t need to go out all the time and post on instagram. You don’t need to journal if you don’t want to. You don’t need to make art if you don’t want to. Breathe, give yourself grace and compassion. Give yourself the love and tenderness you so badly need. Be gentle with yourself. You are trying and it is good enough. You are good enough.
A beautiful poem that illustrates my point
Early morning are so beautiful it's so mean that they put them in the early morning
James Zamora - Cake Aisle, 2023