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absolutely no thoughts lvl 22 || they/he

Not to be deeply sappy on main but listening to the song glad you came on the bus and thinking about a bonfire on a beach that we started with a can of aerogard and the way my MOTW game ended and the DND campaign that's starting up again and not understanding a word of Fortnite lore but having it lovingly explained to me as I suck ass at the game

And I love my friends

adhd gothic

  • you want to watch a movie. you put it on. two hours have passed. you haven’t watched the movie. there are five new tasks in front of you. you want to watch a different movie.
  • there is an object in your hand. it is extremely important you don’t lose it. you look down. there is nothing in your hand.
  • you don’t know your friend’s name. you’ve been friends for months. they just told you their name. you do not know their name.
  • your friend doesn’t laugh at your joke. why didn’t they laugh? do they hate you? they assure you otherwise. you know they are lying. did they ever like you?
  • someone asks you what you just said. did you say something? you said so many things. you said nothing. you said everything.
  • there is something you’re forgetting. you check. you check again. there is nothing you’re forgetting. there is something you’re forgetting.
  • you had something to say. you can’t remember. it was important. wasn’t it? you can’t remember. 
  • there is a task that needs to be done. it should take ten minutes. you check the clock. it’s been five minutes. you check the clock. it’s been two days.

Who gave you this summary of my week

  • you are excited to do the thing. you are eager to do the thing. you do not do the thing and you cannot say why. your body is operated by a force beyond yourself.
  • you awake and lie in bed. you plan a detail to-do list in your head. excited, you step out of bed only to feel the motivation drain off of you like oil from a duck’s back. the bed calls to you like a siren to a sailor
  • did you lock the door? if you check, you will have locked the door. if you do not check, you will not have locked the door. if you check and have locked the door there is a reasonable chance you will accidentally unlock the door. there is no way to win this game.
  • you are hungry. you eat nothing. you are not hungry. you eat everything. the moon laughs at you.
  • you have had a tune stuck in your head for three days now. it is not a tune that exists on earth. it will not leave.

ok but like. the whole thing of the X Gothic was that the meme generally was “take things about X (living in the south, going to college, whatever) and then make them just slightly off. just slightly eerie and possibly supernatural”

I swear to god it doesn’t feel like a word of this is anything but describing what it’s like to have ADHD. Which makes it both a very unique example of the meme and way too fucking relatable -_-

I'm making a Clydesdale using a vintage sewing pattern, I've chosen mohair and wool furs and it's stuffed with wool, too. The tail and mane are made with sheep hide offcuts from a tannery on Skye (Skye Skyns). I'm waiting for some glass eyes to arrive.

There's a little polyester for the hoofs and the sewing thread I used is a polycotton blend. Other than that, it's natural fibres (but not vegan).

He's called Carnera after the locally famous Irn Bru horse.

Everyone’s been a big fan of this pattern, but sadly it doesn’t seem to be available online anymore as the website I downloaded it from has vanished into the aether.

As such, I’ve made my modified version (with hoofs) available over here for free: https://ko-fi.com/s/ad98e35459

For Carnera I printed the pattern 1/2 size and added seam allowance. If you print it full size it'll be a bit bigger!

Listen, if you interrupt me with a new task while I’m midway through another, you aren’t allowed to be mad when I switch to the new task immediately. You clearly thought the new task was important enough to interrupt me with it!

I am just a little pikmin! You’re the one with the whistle!!

‘You need to learn to prioritise’ no YOU do! You’re the one dishing out tasks!! All I need to do is take things back to the onion!

The thing about adhd is like if you hit any sort of roadblock while doing a task, no matter how small an obstacle, it’s gonna throw you completely off track.

like for example:

  • I’m hungry and I want to eat. But when I get to the kitchen I realize I have to cook something. It’s not that hard but it’s something in the middle of where I am now and me eating. So I end up not eating.
  • I’m cleaning my room. There are dirty clothes all over the floor. But my laundry basket is full and so I can’t put my dirty clothes where they are supposed to go. Now my momentum for cleaning is shut down and I go back to something I know how to do, like change playlists.

and that’s on executive dysfunction

I'm probably gonna get yelled at for saying this but sometimes something isn't a real problem in fandom, you just learned a Japanese word describing a general fandom practice and got scared and decided it meant "The Bad Ones" of that practice

Whenever you see someone being like "we don't mind when women enjoy or even create m/m content, we just hate fujoshis" you are being racist. If you mean "I hate the way some female fans treat gay men like fetish objects" then say that, and we can have a conversation based on that, but "fujoshi" is, I cannot stress this enough, just a word for any woman who likes M/M content, for better or worse. It may have started out as a reclaimed insult (by the way, the insult was based on "liking gay shit makes you perverted and sinful," not "please respect the humanity of gay men") but it does not make a distinction between The Good Ones and The Bad Ones. You just decided to No True Scotsman it and that the English word for that should describe The Good Ones and the Japanese word for it should describe The Bad Ones

Same goes for the people I saw just the other day whose discord server explicitly disallowed "Yaoi" but said that M/M content was allowed. What they meant was "M/M content is allowed as long as it isn't pornographic and fetishistic." What they actually said was "M/M content is allowed, but M/M content is strictly forbidden," and expected you to understand that the Japan-Adjacent term has porn/fetish connotations while the English-language term for THE SAME THING refers to the "normal, non-perverted" version.

It'd be like if you used the word "cartoons" to refer to all Family-Friendly animation, regardless of style or country of origin, whether it's Japanese or American or French or whatever, and used the term "anime" to refer to all animated pornography regardless of style or country of origin. There's plenty of animated pornography that isn't Japanese! There's plenty of anime that's not pornographic! But this is the sort of thing you do when you say shit like "obviously women can read stories about gay men, but NO FUJOSHIS"

The name of this creature is YOTAcat or POTOOcat.

This creature is a combination of Yotaka (potoo) and cat.

His true identity is one of an alien reconnaissance unit that plans to invade the earth.

His body can change its shape at will by copying other creatures and objects.

When he came to Earth, he first tried to copy the appearance of the planet's main life form.

However, the first thing he saw there was a cat. He decided that the creature was the main life form and tried to copy the cat's form.

However, by some accident, he also copied the information of Potoo, and his body became a chimera of cat and Potoo.

What was even more unexpected for these aliens was that once they copied the earth creatures, the original spirit invaded their psyche.

His spirit was about to be taken over by cats and POTOO!

The human who found the strange creature brought it home out of curiosity. Not knowing it was a vicious alien.......

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This is fascinating and I love the part with the mushrooms and the worms if this really works but my favorite part is that we spent decades like “oh no....oil is soaking into fur and feathers....if only we had something that could soak up all this oil”