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Veronica Michelle Trujillo

@veronicasykes

"I'm just a soul whose intentions are good, oh lord please don't let me be misunderstood"
-The animals
I think too much. I think ahead. I think behind. I think sideways. I think it all. If it exists, I’ve fucking thought of it.

Winona Ryder (via thegoodvybe)

She was damaged, just like me. That’s what made her so magnetic. Pulling me in with eyes that reflected a sadness similar to my own. A familiar pain in which I was drawn to. But unlike me,
 She had a way of making broken look beautiful. Beautiful in the way that she still believed in fairytales. A hopeless romantic wanting to be swept off her feet. Aimlessly waiting for someone to break down her walls and actually stay this time. I envied that about her. 
She believed in love and “happily ever afters”. And I worry there is no such thing. My life is chaotic, just like hers. Maybe that’s what made me so magnetic. Pulling her in with eyes that reflected a fearfulness similar to her own. A familiar uncertainty in which she was drawn to. But unlike her, 
I have a way of making broken look ugly. Ugly in the way that I am beginning to believe love is just a highly contagious disease. An infection that spreads throughout your body attacking your heart. Slowly decaying over time. And I am infected. My heart is nothing more than an unrecognizable pile of rotting flesh. And I have felt nothing but emptiness for as long as I can remember. Maybe she envied that about me. 
I was numb. 
And she felt every emotion imaginable.

Dancing at a London jazz club, 1950s.

These young jazz fans/”beatniks” in Britain became the precursor to Mods.

All negativity is caused by an accumulation of psychological time and denial of the present. Unease, anxiety, tension, stress, worry—all forms of fear—are caused by too much future, and not enough presence. Guilt, regret, resentment, grievances, sadness, bitterness, and all forms of nonforgiveness are caused by too much past, and not enough presence.

Eckhart Tolle (via rainbownaga)