the only place i feel i belong is in my BEDROOM on my BED
4 aventures de Reinette et Mirabelle (Éric Rohmer, 1987)
maybe you were put on this earth to be tender and loving during a time when you are expected to be cruel and calloused
you weren’t a “well behaved” child you had anxiety and were terrified of conflict
“a pleasure to teach” on the report card meant obedient to a fault, a constant need to be perfect to keep “a pleasure to teach” on the report card, realizing you weren’t as perfect a student as you thought when school got tough, and your perfectionism and paralyzing fear of “getting in trouble” is so deeply ingrained in you that you procrastinate everything because if it isn’t perfect, you shouldn’t try at all