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The Wizard House

@vaspider / vaspider.tumblr.com

Please block "harassment tag" to avoid the terrible shit people sometimes send me. Send all NerdyKeppie questions to help @ nerdykeppie.com I do not consent to parenting other people's children. Content may be 18+/NSFW. Inclusion-Focused History-Minded Queer. He/They. Jewish, middle-aged non-binary butch lesbian. Parent of adult children. Autistic, Disabled & Chronically Ill. Before You Follow me, read my pinned post. Do not ask me about anti/anti-anti stuff. No is a complete sentence. I don't converse in private with minors, ever. No, I will not DM you if we're not already mutuals. Find my writing in Scion 2e, Changeling: The Lost, Vampire: The Requiem, & others. NerdyKeppie.com - Quality Queerwear Become a Patron, get queer writing for $1 wish list

Intro Post, updated March 1, 2023

I post all asks, and I post them when I feel like answering them. I will never honor a request to answer an ask "privately." Anon is never turned on. These are hard self-care boundaries. Please block the tag "harassment tag" if you don't want to be subjected to some of the horrible shit I get sent sometimes.

If you like what I do, please consider hiring me, consider buying something from NerdyKeppie (the shop I own with my spouse - we do custom work!), consider buying me a coffee or becoming a Patron or tossing some money in my PayPal tip jar. I am a disabled, queer, fat, Jewish non-binary butch whose entire income is derived from selling Quality Queerwear via our company NerdyKeppie (we also offer patches of all sorts, nerd gear, etc -- if you don’t see it, ask!), Patreon (queer fiction for a dollar) and freelance work.

If asking me to boost a post for you, ask at most once per week, and please don't make that the only way you interact with me, or follow me just to send an ask that I boost your posts. I notice, and I'll end up just blocking you if you make me feel "used." It's gross, y'all. I'm glad to help, but don't use me. It's getting to a point where I'm starting to feel pretty gross about it, and I'm one of the more relaxed ppl about boosting posts, so please don't put me in a position where I feel like I have to stop doing it.

I will not debate my identity or its history with anyone. I am a transmasculine non-binary butch lesbian, a cripple, a dyke, and lots of other things, too. You don't get a vote in that, and if any of those words are words you can't stand to have someone use around you in reference to himself, go ahead and block me. I won't censor my identity for your comfort; I took a long time becoming proud of who I am.

No, I am not an anti or an anti-anti. Literally no one cares about these distinctions outside of Tumblr. Please leave me alone. I am not going to have that conversation. No is a complete sentence.

I’m not interested in interacting with TWERFs, SWERFs, or any sort of exclusionary LGBTQ/queer people. Y'all are exhausting.

Do the work to root out TERF/2nd-wave "man bad woman good" philosophies from your head. Do the work to root out the gendered behavior you were taught. I am not here to raise other people's children.

I am not here to raise other people's children. My daughter is an adult and I am done being responsible for the experiences of a minor. If you read or interact with me, you acknowledge that you chose to do that and I can't control what happens to what I post once I post it on my Tumblr. People will reblog it and I can't control where it ends up. I can only control what I say in my space, which I do.

Curate your own online experiences. If you don't like seeing what I write, then add 'vaspider' to your "filtered content" list and don't bother me about it. Tumblr is a 17+ environment and I am not responsible for you seeing things you don't like. Adults having adult conversations do not need to be filtered for children. This is your notification.

I’ve been Out for over 30 years. I don't tolerate lectures from strangers, especially people half my age, about history I lived through.

I'm transmasc and if you believe transmisandry/transandrophobia aren't "real things," or that transmascs aren't "really oppressed," please just leave me alone. Oppression Olympics are bad, actually.

My immediate family consists of my partners, my adult daughter, and our dogs.

No one in my immediate family is cis or het. I have been called Spider for 20+ years, & now a lot of people call me Mama Spider. Mom is a role, it need not be gendered.

This is a lot shorter than it used to be. I don't really feel like posting paragraphs explaining stuff anymore.

I post all asks and anon is never turned on.

People need to understand that growing up as a girl will not disappear when you transition. Spending 16+ years of your life as a girl doesn't just go POOF and you forget all of the bullshit everyone pushed onto you.

Telling trans men they don't know what misogyny is like or don't experience it is ridiculous when many trans men will STILL experience it for the rest of their lives AFTER transitioning, too.

that's damn right OP. I was 48 when I started transitioning. ain't nobody gets to tell me I don't know what misogyny is like.

People also love to tell trans people the converse of this - that trans people were socialized as their assigned gender and always treated just like a cis person of that gender, as if there’s no way they could ever have showed signs of gender nonconformance and been treated unfairly for it.

Of course, it’s both - pre-transition trans people can experience the harmful gender role enforcement _and_ the sexism. Gender is often complicated and messy and self-contradictory, and shockingly, this isn’t an exception.

LGBT activists and their supporters gather for the first-ever Pride parade in the central city of Plock, Poland, on Aug. 10, 2019. The parade comes as the country finds itself bitterly divided over the growing visibility of the LGBT community and as the government and the powerful Catholic church denounce gay rights as a threat to society. (AP Photo/Czarek Sokolowski)

by Gerard Donelan

For historical context, this is about making a panel for the AIDS quilt, a memorial project which began in San Francisco in 1985. Due to the stigma surrounding both homosexuality and AIDS during this time, victims of the epidemic were often cremated and disposed of or buried without ceremony, their bodies unclaimed by their families or origin or held by hospitals rather than released to same-sex partners.

Each panel in the AIDS quilt memorializes a life lost to the disease. Each panel is 3′ x 6′ (approximately 1 meter wide and 2 meters long), the approximate dimensions of a cemetery plot. The quilt, which then consisted of 1,920 panels representing 1,920 individuals lost to AIDS, was first displayed in Washington DC in 1987. The public response was immediate, positive, and overwhelming, and the quilt began taken around the country to be displayed in more cities. At each stop, the names of the dead were read out loud. At each stop, more panels were added.

By the time the quit returned to the US capital in 1988, it had more than 8,000 panels.

The quilt continues to grow. Today, it has over 50,000 panels memorializing over 100,000 of our dead. It’s too large now to physically display in its entirety, but you can view the entire thing online. There are also curated virtual displays of just panels which honor the Black and native people killed by the virus because in the US (and likely abroad, although I don’t know enough about public health elsewhere to say so with confidence), communities of color are disproportionately impacted by epidemics, as we have seen time and time again.

You can learn more about the quilt and its history here, and you can learn how to add a panel to the quilt here.

have you tried to use youtube without an adblocker recently? i guarantee you’ll be leaving bombs and spraying question marks around the city like the riddler

for people lamenting about the mobile experience in the tags you can watch YouTube in browser with Firefox app with Ublock origin extension on android or Firefox Focus or Brave (?) on iPhone

for android users, there’s also youtube revanced, which mods the app itself to block ads as well as other helpful features you can pick from such as sponsorblock. ive been using it and it works like a dream

for some reason this post has me marked as deactivated. anyways. go use youtibe revanced. apkmirror has older builds of youtube’s app and if you reset the version installed on your phone it’ll let you downpatch to the version the manager recommends

People love consuming the arts, but many hate the training required to create the arts. Not every art degree is created equal, but the connections you make and the experience you gain can be invaluable.

I'm not saying every artist needs a college degree for every aspect of creating art, but art is not always created solely by performers.

Perhaps there is an actor who was self taught and got a lucky break, but the cinematographer capturing that actor needed years of training. They are literally camera scientists AND visual artists.

Maybe that punk band you love only knows four chords and just screams into a microphone, but the sound engineer recording their music probably has a college degree.

Here is a video of the sound engineer for a Hamilton production.

He uses an amazing blend of technical and artistic skills to make sure the show sounds perfect during every performance.

Check out his college degree...

Any other theater nerds in the house?

And the thing is, a degree doesn’t even have to be relevant to worthwhile. In early ‘90s (33mhz computers were fast!) I was working on a BFA (fine arts) when I got into 3D rendering, figured out how to hijack school’s new Mac lab and turn it into a distributed render farm. 30 years later I’m running super computers at a major laboratory. (only paid off school loans in 2020)

I’m all for loan forgiveness so folks aren’t dragging around a fucking millstone for rest of lives. Actually, 4 yr college should be free but wtf do I know?

People need to understand that growing up as a girl will not disappear when you transition. Spending 16+ years of your life as a girl doesn't just go POOF and you forget all of the bullshit everyone pushed onto you.

Telling trans men they don't know what misogyny is like or don't experience it is ridiculous when many trans men will STILL experience it for the rest of their lives AFTER transitioning, too.

that's damn right OP. I was 48 when I started transitioning. ain't nobody gets to tell me I don't know what misogyny is like.

Have you ever thought about doing a shirt similar to the PRIDEMONTH>DEMON design that is making the rounds but that is NERDYKEPPIE fading into DYKE?

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We were just finishing up a NerdyKeppie admin meeting and I opened up my asks and interrupted Jake and said OH HOLY SHIT and he said YES IMMEDIATELY so I guess I know what i'm doing after I run my errands and set up the next Pride Month sale. ;)

Sorry I'm late, I got added to the Wild Hunt last night and ran and reveled with them for what felt like 100 years plus a day until I landed the killing blow on a stag with bronze antlers then suddenly woke in my bed, willow leaves in my hair, a nameless song echoing in my ears, and my hands still bloody, so yeah, totally missed my alarm and stuff.

Oooh happy belated birthday Spider, sir.

May you celebrate many more with your family and friends!

❤️🧡💛💚💙💜

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you sent this on my birthday but i'm answering it late, thank you!

As it is now 80+ degrees and the day before Pride, I went to NerdyKeppie to get myself some gay tank tops and was DELIGHTED to discover there are exactly 69 items in that category.

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Hi this is super random but I saw your reblog about MRIs and the cyst in your brain and migraines and just wanted to see if you had done more research into this because my sister also has a cyst in her brain that they have to monitor to make sure it doesn't grow, but doctors have said her migraines are unrelated. She's found some doctors out there (not in person, through talks they've done) who do believe they are related but there's not a lot of info out there in regards to this and idk I know it's wrecked her for years now and she has all sorts of other problems that may be related and wanted to let you know? Maybe there's forums out there that have more info??

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I have no idea, honestly. My migraines are pretty well controlled at this point so it's not really a high priority item for me.

was in the car with my friend when I saw the car we passed had the license plate "SADNESS" and I went oh wait we gotta slow down so I can get a pic, but every time we went slower the other car also slowed down. so I looked behind us to see what was going on and the passenger also had their phone up and wheezing the same way I was, and that's when I remembered my friend's license plate is "LOSSJPG"

you think I would do that? just go on the internet and tell lies?

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I will give a $10 NK gift card to the first person to guess what my wife meant when she sent herself an email saying "remember to photon electron the side peeper" last night while extremely tired and stoned

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@izzetengineer got it in one. She needed to electron the side peeper = charge the side camera on the house. :p

I think I'm gonna start doing this sometimes. It's fun.

I will give a $10 NK gift card to the first person to guess what my wife meant when she sent herself an email saying "remember to photon electron the side peeper" last night while extremely tired and stoned