I live in the sea but I'm part wolf, part vulture, I can smell one drop of blood in an ocean full of water, Smoke blue, 8 fins, 15 rows of teeth, I'll bring you grief, Don't ever put your head inside my mouth, It might be the last thing you ever do.

Hey favourite jeans where are you? I looked for you in my draw but also under the cupboard and bed You weren’t there and you weren’t here. I looked for you every where I gave up and wandered in to the bathroom. Oh there you you are I wore you to bed

Wolf Moon Jan 2019

I watched a big golden, half moon drop beneath the clouds this evening; on my porch. And I watched and watched it. And it turned blood red. And I don’t know if anyone else was up this late and saw this magic. But I was here, watching it. What a time to be alive.I’ve never seen a moon like this in my life. Thank goodness I work late and I’m here to see it. Everyone else is asleep. I saw the red half moon slip beyond the horizon; the sea.

15 December 6:35pm

I’m either 10,000 volts of shining brilliance or I’m a total black out. There is no dim, there is no grey. Those who can accept the black out in me (and thank the little baby Jesus - there are many) will benefit from those 10,000 volts of heat and radiance - those who don’t; will keep looking for that light for the rest of their lives. It is what it is.

Am I a tea cup or boxer? I think I'm the weakest I've been in a while currently. I just have no resilience. The slightest thing will set me into a tail spin; I have to concentrate so hard to focus and find a solution quickly because things just hit me so hard. It's funny isn't it? We have a perception that the more hardships you bare, the stronger you will be? I mean, if you dropped a tea cup several times - you'd expect it to shatter. This is why we advise boxers and rugby players their career will be short - constant knocks to the head weaken your constitution. So why do we think constant hardships would be any different? How many knocks can a persons heart/life take before they are too broken to carry on? I hope I don't find out, because this week I feel close to shattering.

I was up at 5am and I saw the crescent moon with Venus shining brightly to the left. Thanks for the gift morning sky 🙏🏻✨

Mischievous, Tricky little, Flat skulled skulker, Triangle ears, Upturned snout, Orange paws, Tiny wet pout, Cunning with a musical whimper, Not just a nuisance creature, Fox so clever.

You know? Like that?

This is how you get things to go boom 💥

This is how I wanna live my life.

When I first met Henrik, he looked 17. The longer I’ve known him the older he looks - it’s been 4mnths - We talk on fb video chat most days when the sun is up in Sweden and the moon shines in Adelaide.

Diary entry 5/6

"I don't know what kind of phase I'm passing through or entering; but it feels large and altering & serious. My tummy is a constant bubble & I cry often. I feel confused, amazed, excited, drained & numb, and blindsided regularly. I eat little, I drink copious amounts of coffee. When I'm not at work, I lay on the couch & watch documentaries & sleep all day. I worry, I overthink, I obsess & I constantly think about the future. Not the past, not the present - only the future - and it's a big churning, exciting world of possibility - and I want all of it - hence the panic."

Make sure you feed yourself. 4/6/17

It's such a strange thing to feel like you could achieve anything; to feel invincible. And now I understand Sylvia Plaths Plover in the fig tree; who starved to death as she watches the fat, ripe figs fall and rot on the ground; for not being able to choose a fruit to feed herself.

Stay on the shoreline 3/6/17

Stop giving up on yourself. BUT also accept this time of rest and rebuilding. Do not loose hope, do not loose focus. There are so many phases to (to all this) life. Just believe, that if you try, things will be different; not better, just different. There is an ebb and a flow to EVERYTHING. The trick is to remain on the shore line. Don't swim out to sea, don't head inland searching. Just wait on the shore, for the tide will surely turn, just as surely as the new moon rises. And the ocean will lap at your toes again.

Best kid ever

Girliest legs you've ever seen on man

This woman gives me all the love and family a girl could want.

Don't forget the time you and Boy Mercury walked home from Danni Minogue & he held your hand even though he doesn't like holding hands.

Dancing with a Limp

Remember that time you threw yourself in the pool on election night because the Liberals got in and your phone was in your pocket and your phone got drowned & you made that musical sigh that you always sighed? I do & it makes me love you & it makes me miss you.