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@unusually-upset

Lilly/20/female/she/her/ this is a blog about personal happiness

I still pray

Even though I’m not sure what I believe

I still pray

Though it feels more like a plea to myself

I still pray

But I know nobody is listening

I still pray

And it still breaks my heart when I get no response

Sometimes we write the words we need to hear the most, because we know no one else will

So I haven’t been on here in a few years, but I can promise I spent the time getting better. Sorry for the hiatus, here’s a mushroom 🍄

I actually felt happy today, and I was very surprised, I guess I forgot what it was like

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Reasons To Stay Alive

1) disney movies 2) the smell of a blown out candle 3) long walks 4) the stars 5) laughing until you lose your breath 6) internet friends 7) friends in general 8) stray animals that greet you as you walk 9) music 10) art of all kinds 11) halloween decorations 12) christmas decorations 13) youtube videos 14) cuddling 15) sunsets 16) sunrises 17) the smell of a new book 18) books 19) the pizza delivery person arriving 20) all-nighters 21) dreaming 22) blanket forts 23) giving gifts 24) receiving gifts 25) first loves 26) last loves 27) a clean house 28) little kids 29) visiting museums 30) picnics 31) long road trips 32) new clothes 33) cats 34) visiting new places 35) poetry 36) making someone laugh after theyve been crying 37) bonfires 38) recovery 39) waking up before your alarm 40) tea 41) first kisses 42) compliments from strangers 43) plants 44) good food 45) play doh 46) fireflies 47) the smell of rain 48) the crunch of fallen leaves 49) good morning and goodnight texts 50) late night skype calls 51) breakfast for dinner 52) handmade gifts 53) finding shapes in the clouds 54) new episodes of your favorite shows 55) random acts of kindness 56) netflix 57) baggy sweaters 58) songs that fit your mood 59) fresh bread 60) colorful sharpies 61) being a waterbender in the shower 62) baking 63) seeing someone you miss after a long time 64) long hugs 65) puns 66) winter 67) singing in the shower 68) bubbles 69) childish jokes 70) ice cream 71) good memories 72) mix cds 73) crossing things off lists 74) creating goals 75) accomplishing goals 76) butterflies in your stomach 77) understanding something you didn’t before 78) fruit 79) learning a new language 80) a good night’s rest 81) bike rides 82) balloons 83) giant stuffed animals 84) you and your favorite celebrity have probably showered at the same time 85) shopping 86) new friends 87) puppies 88) slinkies 89) sweets 90) saturday mornings 91) positive change 92) snow angels 93) snowmen (and women) 94) cartoons 95) being called beautiful 96) camping 97) fields of flowers 98) beanies 99) childhood memories 100) getting to say you made it