unstablesuggestion
i’ve run out of poetic ways to say i wish i was fucking dead
coldafternoon-deactivated202102
me: makes an impulsive decision that could have devastating impacts on my future
me: lmao rip
someone: how are you?
me on the inside: i constantly think about dying and how much id rather be dead than stay alive for another year filled with pain and instability. life is pointless and my existence is meaningless so i might as well just do it?!
me: im so good haha!!
pd-tweek
Me: *avoids everyone and hopes no one talks to me* Me later: *is offended that no one talked to me*
flowerbpd
important: mental illness is always harder for the person experiencing it than it is for the people around them.
My mental illnesses ruined my fucking life, so don’t you dare telling me to just get over it.
(via fraeuleinrabenschwarz)
anxiety: *petrified of telling anyone I’m not okay*
bpd: *banging pots and pans* HOW !! CAN !! WE !! GET !! ATTENTION !! IF !! YOU !! WONT !! TELL !! NOBODY!!
Self Diagnosis Misconceptions
How anti-self dxers think I self dxed:
Me: *reads post about disorder and mildly relates to half a sentence of it* sounds edgy *loudly screams from the rooftops that I Definitely Have The Disorder*
How I actually self dxed: (note that this takes place over a period of multiple months)
Me: *reads post about disorder* wow I really relate to this but I don't have that disorder so I'll just ignore it.
Me: *reads and relates to many more posts about that disorder* ok, I should probably look into this more.
Me: *looks up official diagnostic criteria for the disorder* huh, I guess I don't have it.
Me: *reads and relates to more posts about the disorder* hmm… this is kinda weird…
Me: *looks up the diagnostic criteria again, this time recalling past incidences of symptoms* wait I… actually do enough of these symptoms to get I diagnosis… how did I not realize this the first time…?
Me, weeks later: but what if I actually don't?
Me: *looks at the diagnostic criteria again, remembering even more past symptoms* ok I most likely really do have this disorder.
Me again: but what if I really don't
Me: *takes at least half a dozen online tests based off the official diagnostic criteria*
Literally every test: You might/probably/definitely have moderate/severe (disorder). You need to see a mental health professional.
Me: ok, the evidence so far suggests I have this disorder
Me, forever questioning my own perceptions: ok but what if I don't
me: *doesn’t tell anyone im not okay*
also me: !! WHY DOESN’T ANYONE KNOW IM NOT OKAY??!!
coldafternoon-deactivated202102
idk who i am but i don’t like her
Why am I worried about my future, like I’m not going to live that long