i hate gas pump tvs with all my heart. like literally taking advantage of you being stuck there to pump more advertising into your brain. and the first one i saw was for nicotine patches

How good is your mind's clock?

Find a stopwatch or stopwatch program. Hit start and start counting. At 5 seconds, close your eyes and keep time in your head. Stop the stopwatch as close to 20.0 seconds as you can.

shadow the hedgehog #girl thursday

hourglass

the ultimate game of AI chess: Stockfish (white) vs ChatGPT (black)

Tfw you’re looking over the notes on a post and you run across a username that’s a) the same as one you remember rather well from an old haunt of yours and b) just obvious enough that you’re not *quite* sure it’s the same person or just somebody else who wound up using the same username, and their posts aren’t conclusive one way or another.

(And if she is the same person then we’ve wound up playing in similar space despite not being in contact for half a decade, which is simultaneously somewhat surprising and the most hilariously obvious outcome imaginable.)

*lays out @uncertainkitten bait*

The fact that tumblr is broken enough that I just now got the notification on this post from 5 years ago is astounding.  Yes, I am that same uncertainkitten and you are precisely correct that about how it’s both surprising and obvious our paths would cross again in a similar space :P.  We should talk sometime :P.

Hello please reblog this if you’re okay with people sending you random asks to get to know you better

the opposites of things are so close to the things themselves they might as well be the same thing

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i wonder if you can like. train your time sense. it feels to me like you shouldnt be able to, like what is even happening when you have a good time sense what is your brain DOING

yeah you can to some extent, or at least I seem to (very anecdotally) have been able to

You can train a limited sort of perfect pitch. Try to sing the same note a time or two a day, and then correct until you're right. Over a week or two you will be pretty spot-on. My choir got to the point where we could, pre-warm-up, sing a Bb-major chord in tune, without being prompted by the choir members with perfect pitch.

I have very good time sense but only if I have something in the oven. I don't know how that works. I don't know how much of it is subconscious scent cues either.

But I frequently say to myself "this cake has to be almost done, I should check", walk over to the oven, and see the timer at five seconds.

When I ran track and cross country regularly, I got pretty good at estimating how much time had passed during repeats.

Can confirm that you can train time sense - I can usually call out the time within +/- 15 minutes and often much closer, even if I haven’t seen a clock for a few hours.  I mostly seem to have gotten there by making a thing of just guessing the time before people checked their watches and calibrating intuitively.

metaphysical claustrophobia: the bleak fate of being always one person

I love my life and wouldn’t exchange it for any other, but I am not sure the faint contrails of longing left behind by all these other imagined futures ever fully disappear. That’s not because some part of me still wonders who else I could have been; it is just a general mourning for the foreclosure of possibility. So many opportunities are out of reach from the moment we are born, ruled out by circumstance, and so many more are eliminated as we age. “It is impossible to have every experience,” Virginia Woolf wrote, regretfully; at best we get a glimpse of a sliver of what we are missing—“ like those glances I cast into basements when I walk in London streets.” Decades later, the poet Louise Glück described this problem as “metaphysical claustrophobia: the bleak fate of being always one person.” Every other possible existence, in Idaho or Honduras or Lahore, as a carpenter or baseball player or musical genius, as a sibling if we are an only child or an only child if we are the youngest of seven—all of these variations on the human experience are unavailable to us. We have, unavoidably, only our one lifetime, and no matter how energetic or interested or fortunate or long-lived we may be, we can only do so much with it. And so much, against the backdrop of the universe, can seem so very little.

— Kathryn Schulz, Lost & Found: A Memoir (‎Random House; January 11, 2022) 

Wait a fuckin minute I came up with a term for this too like years ago https://lexical-doll.tumblr.com/post/161491078756/on-qualilagia (my term was cooler but I will grudgingly confess that whoever wrote this thingy is way more fuckin artistic about describing it)

i know i post about doing weed a lot and i’m also aware that i have followers who are teens, so i’m gonna doot up a quick psa thing i guess, lest i make dooting weed seem too cool for school

- weed is great for relaxing or having fun, and it makes a lot of sensations feel better. however, it does impair your ability to think about stuff too hard or focusing on any one task, so it’s better to leave it for AFTER you’ve finished doing everything you have to do - weed is good for helping you get to sleep, but it can worsen the quality of your sleep, much like alcohol. so it’s better to do it on a friday or saturday night after the week is over, so you don’t end up feeling like shit during schooldays - because of the effects weed has on your body, do NOT ever drive while high; it is no different from driving while drunk. car crashes are no joke, and even if you manage to avoid trouble, losing your permit because a cop noticed you driving funny is still a huge bummer and will keep you from getting your license for a while, so like, just don’t do it - weed is a good way to relax, but it is not a replacement for dealing with your troubles. if you’re having issues with school or relationships or friendships, don’t use weed to escape it. weed can intensify your emotions, so if you carry any baggage into getting high, it’s gonna intensify that and potentially send you into a breakdown, and you don’t want that. deal with the problem first, THEN reward yourself by getting high once it’s over, but don’t do it while the problem still you’re still stressed out about the problem - weed is great for creativity, but bad for focus. it’ll help you brainstorm things for writing or drawing really well, but it’ll make the actual execution really hard, so if you really wanna write or draw something that day, it’s better to do it while sober. leave the weed for the brainstorming days - try not to strain yourself too much while high. it can impair your balance and physical coordination, and you don’t wanna end up knocking things over or hurting yourself while high, so like, have a seat, lay in bed, relax, etc., leave anything that requires body coordination for when you’re sober - remember to be smart and responsible with weed. depending on the legality of weed in your area, you don’t wanna be caught being high at school or whatnot, cause you could get yourself or your dealer or family in big trouble. do it at home or at a friend’s place, or with a trusted adult (like a supportive parent or something), but remember to be smart and responsible with it

ultimately i think it’s better to avoid psychoactive substances overall (including caffeine) for developing brains during puberty, but i also know that like, telling teens they can’t do something is the easiest way to make sure they’ll do it, so like, here’s just some guidelines to doing it safely and responsibly, i guess

hi i hope you don’t mind me adding, but i think it’s also important to know that weed can trigger psychosis in people who are predisposed towards it.  if you have a personal or family history of psychosis, it doesn’t mean you can’t smoke, but you should be careful.  if you’re new to it, make sure you’re doing so in a safe and comfortable place(good idea regardless, if you’re uncomfortable with your surroundings youre gonna have a bad high) and ideally someone who you trust who is either sober, or more experienced(and not totally zonked out of their mind) around to help in case anything happens.  not everyone with this history will have this reaction but it’s important to know the possibility is there.  i believe it’s also still possible for this to happen even if it’s not your first time smoking, so it’s good to be aware of it even if you’ve been smoking for a while with no adverse effects

this is mainly for heavy regular users, but i’d like to add that if you reach a point where you’re getting stomach issues (especially cramps) and having trouble eating without smoking, it’s very possible that you’re developing cannabinoid hyperemesis syndrome (relief of symptoms from a hot shower is very strong evidence you have it too). at that point, you’ve significantly damaged your endocannabinoid system and need to quit smoking or it’ll get worse and you’ll reach a point where you’re constantly vomiting and at risk of kidney failure and severe dehydration. people like to say that weed can’t kill you, but what that usually seems to mean is that you can’t overdose, which is technically true. you won’t acutely poison yourself with weed. the symptoms of CHS are due to long-term damage to endocannabinoid receptors. i’m not exaggerating when i say you need to quit. there basically isn’t any other long-term solution for CHS. if you continue using even small amounts you’ll make it worse, and you basically need to treat it as if you have a severe allergy. also, even after you quit, you can still trigger symptoms if you eat foods with cannabinoids in them, such as chocolate or black pepper, though this gets better within a few weeks to a few months (took me about 3 months)

i smoked heavily for about four years before i learned that this could happen, and i really wish someone had told me sooner, so that i didn’t have to go through it. it’s still not entirely clear what specifically causes CHS, whether e.g. the higher potency from cartridges contributes, but it does seem that quitting is the only thing that can cure it. if you do think you have CHS you should consider seeing a gastroenterologist to make sure that’s actually what it is; it’s a diagnosis by elimination, so you basically find out you have it by making sure you don’t have something else. i also got a lot of help from Addiction Mindset’s videos about CHS on youtube, as well as the CHS recovery facebook group. most doctors don’t know about CHS it seems, so your mileage may vary in terms of actually getting proper advice from one. a lot of the support is just people on the internet who’ve had similar experiences

(buddhist youth pastor voice) i see you're refreshing tumblr. do you know what else is a painful and unending cycle of content

Reblog if you want your followers to anonymously tell you one thing they secretly like (or dislike) about you.

hmm I was mentally attributing a bunch of posts about DE that I vaguely remember to you. I wonder whose DE posts those actually were

I think you’re thinking of @drethelin​

there should be a religion where you're only allowed to worship false idols

your god might be real, not mine though.

I feel like I somewhat unironically gravitate towards this?  At the least, the aesthetic ideal is “The only god worth worshipping is one you built yourself, because the other ones are other people’s patterns trying to eat you”.  But this presupposes actually putting effort into worshipping anything so...

reblog this if you want anonymous opinions of you

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