Silver Lining

@ultrathemoonkilledmyaddicti-blog

I wish I could make you forget me...

where is my mind

where has it wandered

where did it go

it has blossomed into something scary

something I don’t like

something terrifying

but I live with my demons

and how they grow

how they become a huge garden

oh so huge I can’t even walk through

something scary and chilling

something beautiful and wonderful

welcome to the madness my friend

welcome to my mind.

b.k.

Midnight rant

I see the reflections in the bottles I’m yet to swim with my broken heart in, untidy hair and the same old sweatshirt; kissing the unflattering skin and the faded jeans, I collapse in the laps of my past and wonder, what if I had a better vision, a box of burnol and maybe an escape the night you decided to set my bones on fire? I’m nothing less than a criminal, and nothing more than a runaway bride hiding from the harsh sun trying to believe in the non-existent and watering those plants that I know have more thorns that roses, but what if my blood makes the petals red? You’re the smoke of my cigar, the bitterness of my drinks, the silhouette of my sunsets. You have found solace in your brokenness and I, hell, I’m just that bitch who keeps trying to clear chat boxes from her messengers and ends up getting lost in them, long after they’ve been deleted.

-Oshee.

When family/friends "tease" me about my interests

What they think they're doing: good harmless fun :)
What they're actually doing: making me more paranoid, making me ashamed of what I like, more distrustful. More likely to hide all my interests and not want to open up to anybody.