and I became a god

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realizing you’ve been using this website for so long that there are people who knew you as a teen on here

the monk: this room seems safe. let’s take a long rest here.

the fighter: good idea. i’ll start setting up camp!

the cleric: ill entreat Bahamut for good fortune!

the druid: i’ll look for fresh water!

the chest in the corner: i’ll take the first watch!

the party:

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watching stealthgamerbr and thinking hell yeah this is how i feel when i play the game like im feeling like im an utterly flawless and an actual god who knows what theyre doing and when theyre doing it but in reality when i play dh i miss the ledge when i blink and instantly alert and the entire town of my complete and utter failure and THAT is why the outsider loathes all of humanity bc im the primary example of someone who inhabits all the powers of the void and instead decides to fall on their face

yo does anyone else feel CONSTANTLY guilty? like you’ve always done something wrong but you don’t know what it is?

Yes, and I’ve spoken to my therapist about it, who offered an explanation:

She says that people who from a young age were made to feel like they kept doing things wrong - people who’s parents had impossibly high standards for them, people who were bullied, people who have special needs, people who didn’t develop crushes on the “right” people, people who didn’t act like the “right” gender - basically ended up being made to feel guilty so much that guilt became their default response to everything. Guilt became the emotional response to anything which the person didn’t already have a set emotion for.

People for whom guilt is the default emotional response are also more likely to have low self-esteem, doubt their own experiences, and experience impostor syndrome. So, watch out for that too guys