You ever just get so depressed that you just sit in bed and don’t know what to do?

Can someone please tell me how to make new friends I am REALLY so sick of “my friends” who are nothing but rude and mean to me yet I am stuck with them as housemates so that really blows 

Finding My People

I wonder if I will ever find my people. I have friends, but I often feel a distance with them, as if we are both there but our minds and our hearts are not. I don’t know what I am even looking for, or who, or even what group. I have this spirit inside me that knows exactly what it wants but it gets lost at where it wants to start looking. I had my people once, and for the longest time, my entire being was dedicated to going back to them, to be with them once again, until I realized that we are all changed people.  It ripped my heart out having to move on from all the people that I grew up with and got to know so well, but we no longer shared that mutual connection, interest in each other’s lives, and intense laughter that I have not felt in so long. It is lonely, being lonely. As sad as this may be, I think it is good for me to recognize the need to be aware that I have yet to find my people. I sometimes wonder if it’s too late, but I am only twenty  and have only started to seek out new opportunities. I just would love to be able to find my people.